wow really this is how you did it?
well i can say that i am glad that...
i didnt let you have all of me

it does hurt
soo i guess this is pay back
for what i did..
to you
almost 2 years ago

but i guess it doesnt matter
becasue you already did it
and im not taking you back
not again

wow really this is how you did it?
well i can say that i am glad that...
i didnt let you have all of me

it does hurt
soo i guess this is pay back
for what i did..
to you
almost 2 years ago

but i guess it doesnt matter
becasue you already did it
and im not taking you back
not again

wow really this is how you did it?
well i can say that i am glad that...
i didnt let you have all of me

it does hurt
soo i guess this is pay back
for what i did..
to you
almost 2 years ago

but i guess it doesnt matter
becasue you already did it
and im not taking you back
not again

wow really this is how you did it?
well i can say that i am glad that...
i didnt let you have all of me

it does hurt
soo i guess this is pay back
for what i did..
to you
almost 2 years ago

but i guess it doesnt matter
becasue you already did it
and im not taking you back
not again

OMG i fuckin love last night
the best night i have every had in my 17 years of living
well not the hole night
becasue i got semi pissed
found out something about my bf (that was a big slap in the face)
kayla and mike were being stupid and almost got kicked out lol
sheldon fuckin came home early
i got sick becasue i didnt eat before...
but other then all that i fuckin love last night
and Mitch dont worry about it
its all fine
you didnt have to get pissed becasue you thought i was pissed at you
and never ever listen to chris ever the fuck again
because he doesnt no anything lol
love you chris ... but you know its true

I FUCKIN LOVED LAST NIGHT!

soo i go down to surrey today
to see some of my old friends
with my grandpa
we run into my bf and chris
we hang out for a while
then when im on my way home my grandpa said
you know i like chris more that mitch
i think you should go out wit him instead
i was like wow really chris is like my bro
that would just be weird

idk? grandpa when r you going to get it?
i love mitch
and thats it.
hes the only one for me

this year the cake is way smaller
soo its not going to be like last year
lol xD
if you know what i mean

i was cleaning out my bag
the one i use for school
becasue i was getting really to sleep over
at my aunts tomorrow night
and what do i find?
money!
i love finding money in my bag
now i have more to spend tomorrow night
for the party
that is if my friends and family let me spend any of it
but knowing them i wont be aloud to
soo now i have way more money then what im use to haveing

why should i even try any more?
i give up
theres no use
i dont know what to do any more
i sick of this
you never get what i try to say
you never listen what even what i have to say
you always cut in
soo whats the point in even talking to you any more?
theres one last thing i have to say
I GIVE UP THERES NO POINT IN EVEN TRYING TO DO ANYTHING!

i love you baby
i always have even when you didnt no it
ive liked you since the first time i saw you
which was 5 and a half years ago
and now its been a month since we started dating again
this time i promise im not to go away again
that im not moving anywhere any time soon
i was looking at my old messages from 2 month ago .... today
and i came arocss
one of ours!
remember when i messaged you on your birthday?
and what you said
i should of looked at that when i was feeling down becasue you where not here
now i guess i sorta no how you felt when i left for almost 2 years
but im just glad that we'er back together
and now i can finally say that your mine again
anyways those messages
reminded me of something
they reminded me of...
the reason why
i have fallin soo hard
your the only one that will always have my heart
i say to you ... i love you
this time im giving it everything i have to be with you
your the one i want
this list could go on and on and on
but i think you get it
i love you baby boy and nothing can change that
to me it doesnt matter
how far away you live
i could say more ...
i know that your not always here
but just remember
that you will always have my heart
soo be care full of what you do with it
because its not as strong as it use to be
my heart was broken until you cane along
but somehow you wormed your way back into my life
and tied my heart back up with your love
i'll love you forever and ever
as long as you have my heart i no that we will be alright
I LOVE YOU <3

why is it that you are talking to me now
but while your talking to me
im crying?
i should be happy right?
but im not
idk? im really messed right now
i love you tho but i just dont know whats going on with me

i wish that you would stop telling me that your comeign over and never show up
it rally makes me upset
i cant stand it
i want to see you
and i get happy every time that you say that your comeing over
but now i just dont no what to do
i dont no if i can believe you any more
i love you
but when you say someing like
ill be there tomorrow
then you dont show up
it really hurts even tho i never will show it to your face
it hurts on the in side
i dont know what to do
prob next time that you say that im not even going to listen to you
even tho i would love to believe you i just cant
i just dont no if i have any hope in you any more
are you scared of me? is it something that i did? or is there something that you did that your not telling?
becasue if there is then i would really like to know
i really want to believe you again but for right now its really hadr to
this is the fourth time that you did this and i cant take it any more
soo plz just stop its killing me
get all happy because you say that your going to come and then you just dont show up
soo plz im asking from the bottom of my heart plz stop

okay you all no how my birthday is omeing up fast!
it seems like just yesturday that i turned 16
well in 10 days i will be 17

now you dont have to but if you are planing to get me something for my birthday some cash would be nice

because i really want to get my tounge done but its going to cost me $70

and im NOT saying give me $70 no that would be mean i would never ask that ever
all im saying is if you are planing on getting me something

trust me on this i hate asking friends for anything

awe i have a new baby nephew <3
i cant wait to see him

all anyones telling me soo far is that he was born today and he is 7 pounds and something

i know it hasnt been that long yet
but i would of never thought
that i could feel this way about you this fast!

i love you babie boy <3