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I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand
I would understand
The angry boy a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you dont belong
They just don't make music like they used to- R.I.P Layne Staley
Foreword:
This is an piece was inspired by the works of Trent Reznor on the "Ghosts" Album, which is a fully instrumental album. It's meant to be set to this song, and as such I hope that you listen to it while reading. Also reading slower than normal, to take in the wording is also recommended. This is also my first night of writing in a long time. Thank you and enjoy-
You're Hesitant.
Just jump feet first.
Just move. Just run.
Just run.
Run.
Run Far.
Run Forever.
Don't stop, Just Run.
You begin to let your legs take motion as you feel the blades covered in a shiny green dew-laden paint cool the soles of your feet. You run because thats the only thing in your head that seems clear now.
Run. You run because you need to release.
Run. You run because you need to feel freedom.
Run. You run because you're tired of being held back.
Run...
You run because you are alone, and nothing else makes sense.
The blue skies surround you and keep you contained within their white padded walls. You don't view it as being controlled and held back... You view it as comfort. Comfort... What a strange word. How can one feel comforted in times like these, but you do. You take comfort in things being unsettled. You take comfort that
you have
yourself to help you through it. Is being comforted what you need in these times? But the truth of the matter is that you don't know what you need, you're to caught up in the moment to realize the enviroment around you and take it for what it is. You reach out but the only one to recieve your hand is the sky, and in that moment you realize, the skies comfort isn't enough to hold onto you.
So you run, you run and run until the soles of your feet are sore and hardened. That's what you wanted right? You wanted your
exterior to match how you felt inside.
You've been running for a long time.
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“I believe in a long, prolonged, derangement of the senses in order to obtain the unknown.”
“That's what real love amounts to- letting a person be what he really is. Most people love you for who you pretend to be. To keep their love, you keep pretending- performing. You get to love your pretence. It's true, we're locked in an image, an act-”
“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.”
“I think of myself as an intelligent, sensitive human being with the soul of a clown which always forces me to blow it at the most important moments.”
“I see myself as a huge fiery comet, a shooting star. Everyone stops, points up and gasps "Oh look at that!" Then- whoosh, and I'm gone...and they'll never see anything like it ever again... and they won't be able to forget me- ever.”
“Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.”
“The most important kind of freedom is to be what you really are. You trade in your reality for a role. You trade in your sense for an act. You give up your ability to feel, and in exchange, put on a mask. There can't be any large-scale revolution until there's a personal revolution, on and individual level. It's got to happen inside first. You can take away a man's political freedom and you won't hurt him- unless you take away his freedom to feel. That can destroy him. That kind of freedom can't be granted. Nobody can win it for you.”
“I like people who shake other people up and make them feel uncomfortable.”
“I wouldn't mind dying in a plane crash. It'd be a good way to go. I don't want to die in my sleep, or of old age, or OD...I want to feel what it's like. I want to taste it, hear it, smell it. Death is only going to happen to you once; I don't want to miss it.”
“the future's uncertain and the end is always near”
"And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing or situation -- some fact of my life -- unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment.
Nothing, absolutely nothing happens in God's world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely on life's terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes."
--The AA "Big Book" - p.449
That's always given me some comfort.
Most of my blogs set to private.
FYI
"I guess I could be really pissed off about what happened to me...but it's hard to stay mad, when there's
so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart
fills up like a balloon that's about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it,
and then it flows through me like rain. And I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of
my stupid little life. You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry. You will someday."
