I want a boy who would hold my hand in line at the mall & make all the girls jealous.
I want someone who would sing to me at random moments. Someone who is more goofy than romantic.
A boy who would throw stuffed animals at me when I'm acting dumb.
Someone who would bet me kisses that he could beat me at all the old play station games
and then let me win. A guy who would make fun of me just to hear my laugh.
He'd play with my hair all the time & surprise me with 25 cent rings.
Someone who I could share lollipops with & lay on a blanket with to count the stars.
We'd buy tons of disposable cameras to take the silliest pictures of each other
& squirt water guns at each other in the house. But mostly ; some who would be my best friend
& would never break my heart. He would just always make me smile.

I promised myself that when it was over, I'd laugh at the memories.
But here I am, without a smile on my face. I promised myself that I would call you,
just to see if you were okay. But here I am, and I can't even dial your number.
I promised myself that when it was over, I would not shed a tear.
But here I am, shirt almost soaked. I promised myself I would let you go gracefully.
But here I am, hating myself for letting you leave. I promised myself that when it
was over, I wouldn't look back. But here I am, unable to walk forward.
I promised myself I would say goodbye. But here I am, still saying I love you.

it's all right yeah I'll be fine don't worry about this heart of mine.
Just take your love and hit the road, there's nothing you can do or say
you're gonna break my heart anyway. So just leave the pieces when you go.

you always seem to be o b s e s s e d over things you can't have,
but when you do have it, you can't a p p r e c i a t e it, you destroy it.
when you lose it, you want it back, but when it's g o n e you can never
u n d e r s t a n d why you let it go

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

part of me wants to leave you alone
part of me wants for you to come home
part of me says I'm livin a lie
and I'm better off without you
part of me says to think it through
part of me says I'm over you
part of me wants to say goodbye
part of me is asking why

do you ever feel like you're w o r k i n g
for something you're never going to g e t? your shoot-&-miss k i n d a deal.
like, no m a t t e r what, you can't h a v e it
but doesnt that m a k e you .f i g h t. for it just a l i t t l e bit more?

There comes a time when u realize who really matters, who never did
who always will & in the end we learn who is fake,who is true &who would risk it all for you

someone said your name and asked me if i knew you; i just smiled, looked down,
thought of our good times, wiped my tears and said 'yeah, i used to' .

We built it up, To watch it fall. Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me, But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away, You stole my life, Just to find what your looking for.
But no matter how I try, I can't hate you anymore.

& then he hits you with that one last promise and you want it to be the truth so bad
you're looking into his eyes and you're crying saying "he's not lying"
but you know he is

You might not be his first, his last, or his only.
he's cared about someone else before & possibly will again,
but if he cares for you now, what else matters?
he's not perfect & you aren't either.
& the two of you will never be perfect.
but if he can make you laugh at least once,
hold onto him & give him the most you can.
he's probably not going to quote poetry,
& he probably won't be thinking about you every second of the day,
but he will give you a part of him that he knows you can break,
so don't hurt him. don't change him & don't expect more than he can give.
don't overanalyze. smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad,
and miss him when he's not there. & who knows?
maybe, just maybe, the two of you will make it
....