this, was our song.
this song makes me think of her so much, and it makes me wonder if the end was my fault. or if theres anything i could have done to stop the end. honestly, i miss her.. but the truth of the matter is that.. ill probably never see her ever again. and she probably doesnt think of me at all.


all i can think about is being on the airplane leaving a snowy toronto on a little plane. just taking off, this song was playing. i cant think of any other time in my life when i could have been more excited.. i couldnt sit still, i was grinning like an idiot.. when i got off the little plane and got my luggage, i saw her standing there waiting for me. all adorable standing there like a lost kid in a fuckin superstore.. i felt like my heart stopped. i could barely breathe.. like when your in the playground and you fall off the monkey barrs and land right on your back.. but the best feeling through all of this.. was when i saw the look on her face and seeing her eyes tearing up. that smile.. it was just so bright.. she wrapped her arms around me and held me tighter than iv ever been held.and i could tell.. she missed me.. ME. silly old me. my unfit, goofy, feminine self..
iv never felt that in my life ...
and every time i hear this song i feel it. not completely. but enough.. :/
but, its over.
and shes moved on to someone new..