K so i've been trying to get over someone for a while but i cant and i probably never will. He came on msn today and confessed to me he's back at his old ways and that he's a piece of crap....I have no idea where he is and i'm so scared for him....I hope you know i will always love you....but my heart may need some mending

I've been gone for quite a while now, in hopes of finding myself and becoming a better me. Well good job Sean you seem to have done so. Even if it meant excluding the people you thought made you whole. But for that time i needed to get my priorities straight. Not a day has gone by without thoughts of you inked in my brain. Not going to say it wasn't hard. I needed this though. For I am only one being and cannot be two places at once. For now I am in a better place and time in life. I hope to still share it with you. For you I have never forgotten.

But I dont want this anymore

FuckingCockingMonkeySexImOfficiallyScrewedTheFuckU​p

Til i'm an old man

Pick the month you were born in
1----I fingered
2----I killed
3----I raped
4----I licked
5----I jacked off
6----I fucked
7----I cuddled with
8----I smoked
9----I slept with
10--I sucked
11--I stabbed
12--I made out with

Pick the day you were born on
01----a bag of weed
02----my dog
03----a horse
04----a pornstar
05----my ex
06----john gotti
07----a lesbian
08---- a prositute
09----a toothbrush
10----a homo
11----a jew
12----an overweight Asian man
13----Paris Hilton
14----a whore
15----a spaniard
16----a pickle
17----the trojan man
18----a bisexual
19----a bottle of vodka
20 ----a crackhead
21----an orange
22---- a bottle of honey
23----a easter egg
24---- YOUR MOM
25----a french guy
26----a drug dealer
27----a stripper
28----a homeless gal
29----a vagina
30----a dog
31----Randy Moss

Pick the color of shirt you are wearing
White--- BECAUSE I HAVE A GIGANTIC PENIS
Black----Because Im Rick James Bitch
Pink------because I love giving blow jobs
Red-------because I have AMAZING boobs
Blue------because Im sexii
Polka Dots---because I hate my life
Purple----because Im gay
Gray------because i love marijuana
Orange---because I have double d's
Green-----because Im beautiful
Other------because im a drug dealer
Turqoise---because I have an extremely small dick
Brown-----because i swallow cum
Shirtless---because i got abs

i slept with a french guy because im RICK JAMES BITCH

Do you know a Brittany ? yeah

Do you know a Jessica ? yeah

If so, do you like them ? they're pretty awesome

What color is your hair ? brown

Can you speak French ? not fluently

Whats your favorite holiday ? Halloween

Why ? its fun to dress up

Do you like someone right now ?yeah

Are you single or taken ? single

What do you think it means when people say their “dealing” ? dealing drugs

Are you dramatic about everything ? certain things

What are you listening to atm ? my kid screaming coconuts lmao

If you turn to your left, what do you see ? a door

Sterio or Ipod? stereo

Coke or Pepsi ? Pepsi

tv or computer ? computer

money or love ? love

a best friend or the love of your life? what if the love of your life is your bestfriend?

cigarettes or weed? Cigs

Whats your Favorite show? never watch tv

Who’s your best friend ? Troy Kyle

Do you think girls & guys can be friends without anything happening? Well i can....

Whats your name ? Sean

Do you like it ? sure?

Do you like cookies? hell yes who doesnt like a good cookie

If so, fresh baked cookies or hard cookies out of a box ? fresh

What do you think of the name Brittany? popular name?

What do you think of the name Jessica? again pretty popular

How about Christina ? kinda gross

If you knew one of your friends really liked a guy, but he liked her, and you liked him, would you still go for the guy even though your friend likes him too ? not a chance

Why do people like you ? ask them?

Why do people hate you ? i'm too honest?

Laptop, or desktop ? desk

Do you have any piercings? yep

Is it hard or easy to like two people at the same time ? Depends

Do you like one or more people atm ? nope.

Facebook or myspace? neither

How old, until you want to die? old?

Where were you two hours ago ? docs

Do you know more white, black, asian, or “other” people ? white

Do you like milk ? yep

Do you like chocolate milk? hell yea

When your dealing with a guy, do you play hard to get, or give him all of the attention he wants? attention

why ? thats how i do?

Who do you tell everything to? troy,kyle

Best childhood memory ? the sandbox days

who did you like in gr. 4 ?no idea

best elementary school memory ? playing hide and go seek in the park and getting stuck in a tree

Best Highschool memory ? meh

When someone, you dont like back, likes you, do you get creeped out, or find it cute? neither

Do you do drugs? no

Are you good in/at school ? i wasnt horrible

Who’s your creepiest friend ? were all a bunch of creeps lmao

Who’s our craziest friend? too many

Who’s your s l o w e s t friend? candyce

What guy friend do you talk to the most in person? Troy

What about on msn ? Kyle

Do you believe in finding the “one” ? maybe?

WHY THE F*^! ARE YOU DOING THIS SURVEY ? boredom

Literally at a loss as to what to do i tell myself it will be okay just keep fighting for it, its all going to be worth it in the end but what happens when the end is near and you havent found much worth in the matter.....FUCK

200. My middle name is: Pikachuuuu
199. I was born on: March 26th
198. I am really: Happy
197. My cell phone company is: nothing
196. My eye color is: Blue
195. My shoe size is: 12
194. My ring size is: Not a clue
193. My height is: 6'3"
192. I am allergic to: girls
191. I was born in: my home...
190. I live in: Edmonton
189. The last book I read: Blood Memory
188. My bed is: purple
187: One thing you hate about yourself: my nose
186: When I wake up in the morning: i wake Emily up and take her to daycare
185: Maybe I should: make it official
184: Club or house party?: house parties
183: Have you ever been thrown into the drunk tank?: yeeah
182: Do you believe love is a mistake?: regrettable yes
181: What do you do most often when you are bored? wait for him...
180: How many times did you fail your driver's test? Zero
179. My favorite Holiday is: Halloween
178. The perfect kiss is: I tell you when i've kissed him...
177. The last three cd's I bought are: no idea
176. Last song that made me cry was: one of his mixes
175. The last time I worked out was: everyday is a work out
174: I spend a lot of money on: Emily
173: Do you own a pair of dice?: yeah...they're purple!
172: The longest shift I have ever worked at a job was: 12 hours
171: I never leave the house without: Emily Lol
170. What did you do last night?: talked to him...ate food hung out with the kiddo

LAST THING YOU
169: Watched in the theatres? curious case of benjamin button
168: Stole? nothing
167: Borrowed? dvd
166: Touched? mouse
165: Ate? food
164: Washed? my pits lmao
163: Brushed? My Teeth
162: Pushed? a door

YES OR NO / I BELIEVE IN
142. Love at first sight? Nope
141. Luck?: Yes
140. Fate?: Yes
139. Yourself?: sometimes
138. Aliens?:nah
137. Heaven?: nope
136. Hell?: nope
135. Ghosts?: yeah
134. Horoscopes?: kinda
133. Soulmates?: think i may have found mine

WHICH IS BETTER?
132. Black or white? Black
131. Scarf or turtleneck? Scarf
130. Dangly earrings or studs? Studs
129. Hugs or Kisses? both
128. Drunk or High?: drunk
127. Phone or Online?: dont have a phone so online?
126. Red heads or Black hair: Black
125. Blondes or Brunettes? brunettes
124. Hot or cold? Hot
123. Summer or winter? Summer
121. Chocolate or vanilla? both...im a fatty
120. Night or Day? Night
119. Oranges or Apples? Apples
118. Curly or Straight hair? both

WHAT I THINK ABOUT:
116. Abortion?: do what you want
115. Backstabbers? suck a cunt
114. Parents? one is lame the other i love

LAST TIME I:
103. Went out of town? last month
102. Had food?: 8 pm
101. Seen someone I haven't seen in a while? Troy
100. Cried in front of someone?: yesterday in front of Troy

MISCELLANEOUS:
90. Who is the most ditsy person you know: Candyce haha
89. Who makes you laugh the most: Troy
87. The last movie I watched:house of 1,000 corpses
80. The most unsatisfactory answer I've ever received is: ok
75. Something I will really miss if/when I leave home is: already left...didnt miss much
74. The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: Being with him...
74. The thing that I'm not looking forward to is: the drama called my life
73. Tomorrow: Saturday
71. Next Summer:hopefully my family will be whole
70. Next Week: work
67. People call me: Sexy? haha
66. Do you have any regrets: who doesnt?
65. What are you afraid of? clowns and letting go...
64. Who do you miss: KC
63. Are you happy?: Yes
62. The person who knows the most about me is: Troy
59. I have gotten a speeding ticket: Nope
56. My zodiac sign is: whatever you want it to be
55. The first person I talked to today was: Emily
54. First time you had a crush: like 5
53. The one person I can't hide things from: Kyle
52. Last time someone said something that you were thinking?: happens daily
51. Right now I am talking to: myself
50. What is your dream job?: gold digger..who doesnt want gold?
49. First job?: stupid store
48. I have/will get a job at? no clue
47. I have this pet: Bunny
46. I hope: to be with him forever
45. The worst sound in the world: nails on a chalk board
44. The person(s) that makes me cry the most is:Dad..and HIMM(go to hell)
35. Florida or Hawaii: Hawaii
33. My favorite piece of clothing is: my sexy rainbow scarf and my shoes
32. My favorite sport is: basketball
31. Last time I cried: yesterday
30. My friends are: Amazing
29. My computer is: a computer?
28. The school I go to/will attend: nothing
22. The all-time best movie is: lots
21. The all-time best thing in the world is: Him<3
18. The most annoying person you know is: Crystal go die bitch
17. I lose all respect for people who: i feel i cant trust
13. Favorite web site: youtube
12. Do you love where you live? nope i'd rather be with him
11. The worst pain I was ever in was/is?: the though of losing him
10. My favorite roomy: Hmmm, don't know
8. My favorite celebrity: Sean Penn
7. Do you like blue cheese? No
6. What colour shirt are you wearing? orange yellow purple red
5. My weakness is: him
4. What I like about the opposite sex: you try and make me straight Lol so ammusing
3. Who broke your heart: a few
2. One thing that makes you feel great is:KC
1. You filled out 100 questions because: i'm lame?

1) Go on google
2) Type your name
3) Type 'needs' after your name
4) Pick the first 5 needs that show up

sean needs a girl friend (LOL!!!!)

Sean Needs a Date!!

Sean needs a bigger cannon! - tribe.net(LMAO)

Sean Needs Five Cakes

MySpace.com - Sean von Buseck - 34 - Male - LOS ANGELES ...

What is your full name?: Sean Peters

Your birth date:: March 26 1989

What color is your hair? Is it short, medium or long?:brown and pink...mediumish?

What color are your eyes?: brown

How tall are you?:6'3

Single or Taken?:single but my heart belongs to him<3

Do you have pets? If so, how many and what kind?:1 dog

Who do you live with?:my baby

What do you do for school and work?: will be working with my friends company soon

Any kids? If not, do you want any?:have one want one or two more

What music do you listen to the most?:the mixes he sends me...

Do you like to read? If so...favorite book(s)?: murder mysteries

Virgin or not?:not

Name your 3 closest friends.:Troy Emily My mom

Which one is your very best friend?:Emily

Your skin...is it fair, medium or dark?:fair?

How often do you really "go out"?:rarely

Have you ever lost anyone you loved?: yeah

Ever been in love?:once...well twice

On a scale of 1-5 how organized are you?:3ish?

Do you excercise regularly? If so, how often?:everyday is a work out with a 2 yr old

Zodiac sign?:aries

Have any nick names? If so, what?:not going there]

Name a couple of T.V. shows you watch a lot.:the real world

Movie(s) you can watch over and over::titanic...fight club

Do you have tattoos? If yes, how many and where are they?: 4..left shoulder blade right calf right arm left ankle

Any piercings? If yes, how many and where are they?: nipples and eyebrow

Wear glasses?: contacts

Have braces?: no

Do you have siblings? If so, how many?:2 sisters and a few half

Are your parents still together?: nope

What is/was your worst subject in school?:history

Your best subject?:Math

Do you currently play any sports? If so, what?:nope

Do you like to dance?:sometimes

Sing?:yeah

Favorite color?:purple

Favorite Holiday?:halloween

Where, outside of the U.S. would you like to visit?:Paris Ireland Amsterdam

Do people tell you that you act older, younger, or your age?: my age?

Ever have an imaginary friend as a child?:haha yeeah

Ever been skinny dipping?: maybe

Did/Do you enjoy highschool for the most part?:it was alright

Do any drugs? If yes, what?:used to smoke the herb..not anymore

Drink? If yes, how often?:yes..not often

Smoke?:yep

Ever been in a physical fight? If yes how many and who were they with?:a couple..with some assholes

Have you ever cheated in a relationship?:nope

What's your definition of cheating?:kissing/fucking someone

Do you wear pajamas to places other than at your house?:haha yeah

Have you ever stolen anything from a store or from someone?:nope

Ever cheated on a test?:yeah

Ever been in any legal trouble?:not really

Do you regret anything?:yep doesnt everyone?

Name 5 of the most important things in your life.: Emily K.C. friends my house not dying...

How many languages can you speak and what are they?:1 and barely do that haha english

Are you a touchy feely person?:i can be if it feels right

Do you take showers in the morning or at night more?: morning

Do you trust easily?: sometimes

Any phobias?: clowns!

Are you a heavy or light sleeper?:light

When did you make your myspace profile?: dont have one

Any disorders you've actually been diagnosed with (O.C.D., A.D.D...)?: disorders? ADD wanna ride biikes? a killed a cat for some licorice..wanna go shopping?

Are you a morning person?:hardly

Sunrise or sunset?:sunrise

Ever had surgery?: nope

Ever come close to death?: yeah plenty

Ever broken any bones?: yeah haha arm right now

When you die, would you rather be burried or cremated?: cremated

Play any instruments? If so, what?: guitar and drums a bit

Have you been told you can sing well more than once?: nope

3 physical features you get complimented on a lot:: eyes...hair...teeth

Your least favorite feature:: my nose

Clothing store you shop at the most:: lots

What is/are your heritage(s)?: Ukrainian

What is your religion or do you not really have one?: more spiritual

Ever been cheated on?: yeah

Ever had a one night stand? If so, how many and do you regret any of them?: once and kinda

Current friend that you have known the longest:: Troy

Name someone you can tell just about anything to.: Troy...K.C.

Sweet or Sour?: sour

Where were you born?: at home

Do any of your close friends have children?: one

Are any of them married?: a couple

Have you ever taken any antidepresants or anxiety medication?: yeah

Ever seen a therapist?: yeah

Did/do you transfer schools a lot?: yeah

Favorite animal to have as a pet:: dog....PENGUIN

How many floors does your home have? How many bedrooms and bathrooms?: 2 floors 1 bathroom 2 bedrooms

Do you live in a neighborhood or in the middle of nowhere?: neighborhood

Favorite food:: i like it all

Do you like to shop?: sometimes

How often do you go online?: everyday...so i can talk to him

How sexual are you on a scale of 1-10?: 7

Something or someone you miss the most from childhood:: my bestfriend when i
was little RIP

Have you ever slept with somone 10 years or more older than you?: maybe

Over 10 years younger?: nope

Are you usually late, early or right on time?: early

Are you happy with your life for the most part right now?: i guess

OMG k it's Emily birthday soon! omg...what the am i gonna do...SUGGESTIONS???

1. Made out for more than 3 minutes? definetely
2. Slept in a different bed?: yep
3. Made out in a movie theater?: no
4. Made out in the forest?: a bush count?
5. Thought your cousin was hot? er no
6. Slept naked?: yes
7. Taken a shower with the opposite sex?: nope
8. Gone over the speed limit?: yup
9. Painted your room?: hell yeah
11. Danced in front of your mirror?: everyday
12. Gotten a hickey?: nope i think there tacky
13. Been dumped?: yeah
14. Stolen money from a friend?: never
15. Gotten in a car with people you just met?: kinda
16. Been in a fist fight?: not serious ones
17. Snuck out of your house?: when i was little
18. Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back? yeah
19. Been arrested?: kinda...
20. Made out with a stranger?: maybe
21. Left your house without telling your parents?: when i was young
22. Had a crush on your neighbor?: there an old couple..haha
23. Ditched school to do something more fun?: back in the day
24. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?: yep
25. Seen someone die?: No
26. Been on a plane? yes
27. Kissed a picture?: haha yeah
28. Slept in until 3pm?: yeah its been way to long
29. Miss someone right now?: totally
30. Laid on your back and watched the cloud shapes go by? haha yeah
31. Made a snow angel? helped Emily make one?
32. Played dress up?: hahaha yeah..wont go into details
33. Cheated while playing a game? nope..Emily always wins.
34. Been lonely?: yeah
35. Fallen asleep at work/school?: nope
36. Been to a club?: yeah
37. Felt an earthquake?: no
38. Touched a snake?: yeah
39. Ran a red light?: once?
40. Had detention?: nope
41. Been in a car accident?: yeah
43. Witnessed a crime? maybe
44. Been lost?: yeah haha
45. Been to the opposite side of the country?: Ireland once upon a time
46. Felt like dying from embarrassment?: a couple of times
47. Cried yourself to sleep?: yeah
48. Sang karaoke?: haha oh yess
49. Done something you told yourself you wouldnt? a few
50. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose?haha more than once
51. Caught a snowflake on your tongue?: Yup
52. Kissed in the rain?: yes
54. Had a dream that you married someone?: yes
55. Glued your hand to something?: hahah yeah
56. Got your tongue stuck to a pole?: nope
57. Ever gone to school partially naked? yeah...pj day way back when
58. Sat on a rooftop?: yup
59. Been a cheerleader?: nope!
60. Didn't take a shower for a week?: sick..i like smelling pretty haha
61. Ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone? kinda? most likely lied to get close to someone haha
62. Played truth or dare: of course
63. Played spin the bottle?: yeah
64. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger?: Yes
65. Broken a heart?: dont believe so
66. Been easily amused?: all the time
67. Laughed so hard you cried? haha yeah
68. Cheated on a test?: nah
69. Forgotten someones name? haha yeah..im good with faces suck at names
70. Kissed a stranger?: not really
71. Played a prank on someone?: all the time
72. Gone to a late night movie?: been a while
73. Made love to anything not human?: haha hell no
75. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat?: uhm no?
76. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours straight?: yeah..a few little breaks here and there
77. Celebrated the 4th of july?: Nope
79. Felt like killing someone?: wouldnt go as far to say kill..but hurt..badly!...yes
80. Thought about running away?: Yes
81. Ran away?: when i was young
82. Had detention and not attend it?: nope
83. Made your parents cry?: once
84. Cried over someone?: yes.
85. Owned more than 5 sharpies?: yeah i own like 50
86. Dated someone?: Yes
87. Have/had a dog?: yup
88. Played an intsrument?: yeah
89. Been in a band?: yep
90. Drank more than 15 pops in a day? haha god no
91. Broken a cd?: yes
92. Shot a gun?: bb
93. Been on myspace for more than 5 hours?: I dont have myspace
96. Had a crush on someone when you already had a boyfriend/girlfriend? sorta?
97. Slept for 24 hours straight?: nope..i wish
98. Been cheated on?: yeah
99. Told someone you love them and really mean it?: yeah...you know who you are
100. Do you like anyone right now that you would want to eventually date?: totally and 100% yes

WOULD YOU RATHER?
1. Pierce your nose or tongue?: tongue
2. Be serious or be funny?: both
3. Drink whole or skim milk?: skim
4. Die in a fire or drown?: drown
5. Spend time with your parents or enemies?: with my mom?

DO YOU PREFER
1. Flowers or candy?: Candy
2. Gray or black?: black
3. Color or Black and white photos? doesn't matter.
4. Lust or love?: love
5. Sunrise or sunset?: sunrise
6. M&Ms or Skittles?: M&Ms
7. Staying up late or waking up early?: staying up late

DO YOU PREFER
1. Sun or moon?: ; moon
2. Winter or Fall?: Fall
3. Left or right?: both
4. 10 acquaintances or two best friends? two best friends .
5. Sunny or rainy?: both
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? both

ABOUT YOU
1. What time is it? 5:09pm
2. First Name?: Sean
3. What do you want? that special someone
4. Where do you want to live?: where ever he is
5. How many kids do you want? maybe one more
6. You want to get married?: one day

UNIQUE
1. Nervous habit: biting my nails or my lip
2. Are you double jointed?: i don't think so
4. Can you raise one eyebrow? yeah
5. Can you cross your eyes?: yep
6. Do you make your bed daily? usually

RANDOM
1. Which shoe goes on first?: left
2. Ever thrown a shoe at someone? definetely

OTHER
1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: Twirl
2. Have you ever eaten Spam?: yes
3. Favorite ice cream?: maple walnut
4. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet?: like 4
7. Do you cook?: everyday

IN THE LAST MONTH HAVE YOU?
1. gone out on a date?: no
2. Bought something?: ya
4. Sang?: yes
5. Been hugged?: yes
6. Been kissed?: on the cheek
7. Felt stupid?: plenty
8. Missed someone?:totally am
9. Gotten your hair cut?: no i need too
10. Danced?: yup
11. Cried?: yup
12. Lied?: no