i say im okay, i say im alright
i say she's never the reason for those tears i have at night
i say i'm always feeling good, never felt alone
i say all of this bullshit, everyday on the phone
i say i have the will, well i hope i do
i say i will never stop lovingg you
i say i've never been hurt, i say i never listen to breakup songs
i say i've never blamed myself for the thigns gone wrong
i say the heart is never broken, my love never dies
but how can i say all these things when all those words are lies
the heart that shatters, the pieces left to throw away
the pain and the hurt, for everything she says
the feeling of hope, despair in the dust
the cry for help, the feeling of being crushed
i never fucken want to feel that again
no more of that sad and lonely shit
no more sadness fuck it all
all that work picking those bits of my fucken shattered heart
i want no more, but i wont give in
this game i can never seem to win
i keep losing, the score keeps going down
no wonder i keep falling always hitting the ground
no one to catch me, cuz i keep fallin inlove
maybe one day i'll actually give up, but when will it be enough?
It seems like im walkin the earth, with no path to have
the hope i seem to have is based on feelings and laughs
i try to understand it, and make an explaination for it all
the reason i keep crawling back whenever i fall
i dunno why i think this, but it seems so fake
that the love i have is a fucken mistake
though i try to hide it, and make a reason for this
but why does that answer keep changing after each and every kiss..
Why do i care, and leave my heart all scar-ed
the pain she makes me feel, like getting hit by a car
i kno i should end it, but i kno i wont
but i cant keep sittin here wondering "what's the fucking point?"
she tells me she loves me, i think it's all a lie
cuz love is nothin if you cant see it in their eyes
you cant believe that things are true
if you spend the whole time on the phone with nothin but " i love you"
It seems im always lying to the ones i care most
The feelings i have for the comments she posts
The things she says to others, and the things she says to me
Seems like the same as i can see
She treats me like shit, well that's what i feel
How can i tell she's the real deal
But the love i feel, i think it influences my pain
Nothing to lose, nothing to gain
Should i give up, or keep on trying
But i know for sure, i'm just gonna end up dying.
ppl always say, " jordan you're always laughing" and you kno why? im tryin to hide the fact how depressive i am. I laugh becuz sumthings wrong, i feel hurt becuz of the one i love, i need comfort that cannot be helped. ppl say " jordan you're always eating, you're gonna get fat one day" That's becuz that's my comfort. i eat to feel better. I laugh to hide the facts and i eat and eat, not to gain weight, but to atleast forget why im sad for a few moments as a crunch away on a cookie....
you kno that feeling when you feel like breaking down, but the pain aint great enough to make you cry. The feeling of goosebumps past down from your head and linger at your heart. You spend the whole time thinking " why the fuck do i keep tryin to believe im alright" We cant except the truth. We want things to work out for the better. We want to have sumone just to SAY we have someone. Is that love? when we say " i love you" But im not just saying it for the hell of it.. i love her seriously.. but arghh.. i think im jealous, that's why im always sad and depressed. It's like feeling heartbroken, but you have sumone so it's like taping a cracked rock together, it's so heavy, it breaks the tape..
I tell myself not to worry, that everything's alright
But the things she says to others, makes me cry all night
why am i jealous, why am i so hurt to even tell her what's wrong
why am i thinking that one day she'll be gone
i dont wanna lose her, i dont wanna die
that's the fucken reason i still wanna try
She says she's kidding for the things she says
But the things she says to others feels like a bullet through my head
girls wonder why guys are always overprotecting and wont leace them alone
but it's cuz we cant stand losing the one that makes us feel at home.
Why am i still with the one that makes me feel like shit
break apart my heart into fucken little bits
am i crazi to believe things will actually work out
but what i really understand is my life needs help
cuz i love sumone who hurts me
and doesnt understand my pain
cuz the world pretends they dont see
how my life aint the same
i'm fucken cryin in my heart
i just want to go back to the start
so i can erase the memories of loving you...
It's bugging me, it's killing me, it's soo easy to get hurt
is it cuz im jealous, or gettin treated like dirt?
who the hell am i to suggest nothing's wrong
but the reason's cuz of her i listen to slow songs
i wanna stay calm, but the pain is soo deep
i cant just forget it by going to sleep
the pain just never seems to go away
The emotions i have i just keep pushing it down
Hold myself just so i wont cry when noone's around
i say im okay, i say im just fine
just so you'll stop asking and change your mind
but the thing is, i've only felt hurt..
in my life i wonder, is anything worth it at all
does love understand, and come when she calls
i fucken love someone i cant even trust
dont even kno if it's love or if it's lust
i gave up on tryin, don't even want to mack
take my fuckin feelings and push it all back
run away and hide, jump over bridges, curl up and die
rather have nothin, then me hurt and want to cry
i told myself no more, never fall again
but sumthin wont stop telling me, i want her as a girlfriend
fuck!!// these emotions are hurting so bad
but how can i feel that way for sumone i never had
never had somebody to hold in my arms
never had a wish, time all gone
never been in soo much pain in all my years
never knew i needed sumone soo bad and want her rite here.
The best thinggs in life, always have consequences
rather feel pain, then my emotions and senses
love hurts, but it can feel good
why have sumone when pain is all they could?
share with you, and help you make things rite
but how can that be, when all you can do if fight
hurting eachother, loving one another
is that the same in your eyes?
it probly is, since you let the love die.
WTF is her problem, holy shit, why do i love?
a smack in the face, and told to fuck off
it's fuckin killing me, i should fuckin give up
becuz i kno my fucken pain isnt just luck
she's playin me, i fuckin kno it, it's probly true
but why cant i stop, thinkin the way we do.
when you're preparin for the worse
gotta pray for the better
cuz the hope we have can never live no longer
the love we had, shit, was it there?
the tears i cried, the nights i waited for your call
the battles i fought for you, was it meant anything at all
never thought i had to worry
cuz i believed we be true
but i cant expect lies from sumone saying " i love you"
it there a point to this all
i wanna kno why
cuz is the meanin of love suppose to let my heart die
so many fakes in this world
Bitches and little girls
tryin to pretend, making a life not real
playing people over, not caring how they feel
fuk this shit, im tired of it all
no one to catch me whenever i fall
people so easy to like, n after awhile
tell their real age, call you a petefile
wtf is that, accuse me of that shit
guess what now bitches, i fuken quit
given up on love n makin new friends
stick wit my homies til the fuken end
peace out
