I dont understand why this happened, its one thin that i dreaded. I avoided every path that could lead t this destination and yet i still ended up in this horrible place. You seem to think that i dont care for you but i do for her and that me and her have a special connection... which we dont, i feel like i have so much more of a connection with you and i enjoy your company so much more, i care about you so much and to have this happen is confusing. i'm hoping that you will realise everything i have said to you is true and none of that other bullshit, i wouldnt lie to you. i hope that it will sink in and you'll start to forgive me of something that isnt true and you'll reaslise that i care about you so incredibly much that i would never do that to you. It is among my greatest desires that you will forget everything that has happened and take what i said and take me back. This is coming from my heart and i am just writing fluintly and as i am not very adept at it it probably doesnt make much sense and i'm going to end this now because i will just end up repeating myself over ad over again