My Hero,

I miss you... more then alot, more then words can say... ever. I am so proud of you though, for trying to do this for yourself, for trying to get better.

I just wrote a huge letter to you but then deleted it all...
...because none of that matters.

i love you sam. i miss you, and i need you.
...i need to know you love me too.
because you're not here to tell me that im wrong, to tell me you do need me too...

...do you?
maybe not... ...who knows.

when you're not here, i feel empty and stupid. my mind keeps going in circles.
i'll admit it. i am scared. no...
... i am more then scared, i am

.t e r r i f i e d.

that you'll forget all about me while you're gone. that ill be here waiting for someone whos never really
coming back... at least not to me.

im afraid this all sounds stupid, and that im acting like a child...
... i feel like a child.

sam, my hero... i am terrified that i will never feel you close to me ever again.
...that my heart will never feel as happy as it did when you were here.

...and i know this all sounds stupid, but i love you. i really do. it feels crazy to me. and i can't believe im sitting here like a fucking child telling you. because the more you love someone, the more of you they have. and if they know exactly how much you love them... then they have the power to break you...
...
so maybe it was all a lie. maybe you never loved me at all.
but every ounce of my soul wants to believe thats not true.

i love you my dear, and i need you... my heart and my soul needs you.
i need you to need me too though.
and when you're gone, im not even sure if you think about me. i keep thinking that maybe im fooling myself. that you don't even remember that im here waiting. after all... we barely had any time to be "together".


do you even remember that im here. are you reading this and getting more and more creeped out?
because theres some girl, that you vaguely remember from your past... telling you that she loves you
it's possible.

despite that possibility... i need to know i did my best to show you how i feel.

so at the risk of sounding like a love crazed lunatic... im going to send this to you.
...i think.

i wanted to come on here to change my facebook status. but what are we now?

...together - apart - forgotten ?

i think for the most part im just driving myself crazy because its what i do best.

i probably shouldn't send this to you. so maybe i won't.


...

im allowed to call you this thursday and its ... monday.
that feels like way too long.

haha...and the crazy cycle starts once again.


To my hero...
... the only one that could make me smile.

Regardless of what happens between us, we should both always know that what we had was real.
The time that we did have together was real, our love was real. So forever it will be ours to hold in our memories. No matter what happens with me and you, the memories we did have time to make will always be there to make me smile when i need to. The TwinRinks girls bathroom will never ever be the same to me... or purple sharpies... or fairy dust. I'll never forget feeling beautiful, even for a second every time you kissed me. every time.


Depending on what happens between us.. this could turn out to be my goodbye to you.
I hope instead it is just something for us to read together down the road and laugh because i ever doubted our love. haha. crazy right? hope so.

so call me crazy... most people do
lets sum it all up shall we...


Heres to the one who made me believe that fairytales do come true, and that every princess gets her hero...
...to the one that made me smile when all i wanted to do is cry, the one that feels like home. to the one that made my soul smile, gave me faith in mankind, and made me see that love is real...
To the small number of days we had together...they changed who i was, who i am, and who i want to be. made me see that there is nothing more important then being with someone you love, because they are the only people in the world that can mend your broken heart during the darkest times in your life... with nothing more then a kiss...

- "kiss me baby, i love you"



[ you made me feel beautiful, no one else can do that ]


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If you are reading this and we have gone our seperate ways... know that no matter where you are and what youre doing... there is someone out there who loved you for who you really are.
Know in your heart, that once upon a time, love was real. It couldn't be bought, shared, stolen, chooched, broken, smoked, snorted, shot up... it couldnt be replicated and it will never be the same.
I hope that if in fact we are not together... that you are living your life the way you deserve to. I would give my life to see you clean and happy baby. I hope you are happy with who ever you decide to love in life, but more so... I hope you learn to love yourself the way that I love you.
Please stay beautiful, stay strong.

I wish nothing but the very very best for you Samantha Chantal... take care.



I love you. Forever & Always....



your little princess,

Aimie Nicole.

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ohshitbitch

s p i n . m e . r o u n d.

sit and watch the world go by.

go hard or go home

//<3

s p i n . m e . r o u n d.

sit and watch the world go by.

.

go hard or go home

.

//<3

how can anyone say forever, when forever is so far away...

It was our little secret.

take a walk down memory lane,
hold my hand and wisper my name.

life was so much easier when we were younger;
scraped knees are easier healed then broken hearts.

s p i n . m e . r o u n d.