Dont it suck when the people that you love the most turn and run
I cant stand people when they leave u lost for words so bad
that theres just nothing left to say
or atleast to say directly to them
its like being lost alone not knowing where you are and someone putting a hold infront of you that you cant go threw and theres no way to break that hole.......
impossible....
i dont think i have ever been this frustrated in my life to the point of not even looking back.....it just sucks like i said when the people you love most can make you feel the worst at times........
I do love him, i really do, but fuck this shit is fucked....
i wanna keep him here but im not sure if he even knows how to love
one thing i know he knows how to do is to, walk away and run when things get to tough
well i just want everyone to know that knows us that i am in love with him and that probably wont change, i could never hate him.
But whatever he wants is what he gets, i hope one day he will realize that hes missing out on something good in life......and that to want to and know how to love......\
im sorry i had to make this decision but i do hope it gets better i dont just wanna throw a year away.................
I love you Jai
lots and lots and im sorry for what we went threw
it was pointless and there was absolutely no reason for it...........
but i guess theres a reason for everything that happens u just have to find it out?
My grandma passed away today at 5 37
as i sit
i wonder if my lifes jus gon to fuckin shit
thinkin and remanisin back to the day i first saw your face
thats a memory that cant be erased
i think about the old times we shared
and i know inside you really cared
now i cant see your face
and i long for your embrace
...............
but now i know your in a better place
I wish we could have been there by your side
i remember when you said not to cry
All the days that have been lost
but its your soul that God came across
your in his house now and there u stand
i hope one day all of us hand in hand
God granted you your wish
Granny you will be missed
just remember this
we all love you and we give u a big kiss
I LOVE YOU GRANDMA
Some eyes are blinded but i can see...
just what is life really meant to be?
To see the past,
to wonder what love should be and what it never was
to hold everything above someones head just because,
to think of old times..whats the use
cause this is the life i guess i choose,
i think back to if were really meant to be,
but maybe thats just me
maybe you dont see,
i wonder if what we had would really last,
i look back at pictures from the past,
but right now their just ripped pictures in my thoughts,
thinkin back to the times that we fought,
wondering if we could have changed lifes destiny,
wondering can it be again just you and me,
you still sit in my mind like a lonely child,
wonderin if i should come hold you, if only just for a little while.
You race my mind,
still i sit there to find, that passion might be just a waste of time,
i long for your touch, that one i miss so much,
things usto be so happy before,
now its in the middle, my heart just sores,
thinkin if i should ever just close that door,
but its hard when i sit there,
just to think of you over again, i wonder if maybe thats considered a sin,
i wonder if maybe that was a mistake that i made,
but now my heart is left in that grey cold shade,
shades of every color,
but when i think of you i see a rainbow like no other,
last night when i went to bed,
the sweet thoughts of you filled my head,
so many tears fall, and i wonder if their all for you,
someone, everything i miss so true,
so i rolled over just to find instead of my pillow your the one i should be hugginn,
i long for that old cuddlin.
I never thought our love could be so strong,
strong enough to hold, just to never let go,
i know my feelings for you no longer show,
so my tears fall like that silent snow,
the way we usto laugh, hug, kiss, and make love,
like that heavenly glow you only see from above,
my motivation in life is you, those words you tell me so true, baby i love you
when im over my head in tears,
cant take the time to swallow my fears,
when i am drowning in them and can no longer stand,
i know that you should still be my man,
only i think im dying in my own sorrow, wondering about tomorrow....
i ponder on the things that meant the most,
wonder if my heart has just turned to a ghost,
forgive me if i do not try,
no more tears or silly allibies,
please forgive me if i cry...
my surroundings are beautiful but our love is wonderful,
but see you are my surroundings and you are my beautiful,
you are my tears i spill....if i took a leaf for everytime that i have thought of you there would be no water left, there would be no sea, without you there would be no me!
the mysterios pain i wonder what this could be,
i think its the thought of you not being next to me,
but i really wonder about what we had wonder why it ever went bad?
but then i sit and watch the snow, thats how we melt, this i know!
we might be blinded, we might be dumb,
but all this we do together as one.
I love you with all my heart and ill love you till the end,
threw the fights threw the pain, threw ur fame,
this is just the begging of only our beautiful love pain.
Hey the say Karma come back to bite you, well that one guy, u know who u are,
u fucked around with some boyz family a while ago, didnt know till that night, and u got ur fuckin ass beat, Karma bites BITCH!!!
this message is in behalf of the guy that got his ass beat,
and for the ones who it was on the mind for
BRANDO< EVAN AD HIS BRO's
Why Cant things just go back the same
all when the friends wanted the fame,
tired of them runnin this stupid game
i hope they hold their fuckin heads in shame
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Wish thing would just go back to the way they whurr
i miss my friends and the way things usto be!!
ill always have love for you guys,
i would never change
everyone i was ever friends with still have my respect,
well most of it and most of them!!
AND U SAY DONT SAY SHIT AND THAT UR DIFFERANT......THATS BULLSHIT.....U PISS ME OFF
U WHURR SO DIFFERANT AND SAID U MAN UP TO THINGS
WTF IS WRONG WITH THAT SAYING:::: ILL NEVER CHANGE!!
WOW...............
when u have a feeling of love does it ever go away
or threw a life time is it there to stay?
something are lost on a path or somewhere along the way!
I dont know if i wanna stay of if i wanna go
well im confused...someone help..let me know
Im in a stuggle in life dont know if im going anywhere
i wish i had a dream..one that would take me somewhere.
Are things really meant to be the way they are
or are the things you reach for just to FUCKIG far?
I say to myself let the nightmares end but they get worse
someone take my life drive me away ina hurse
im sick of the nonscence..sick of the pain
straight up sick of this life...wait just call that shit a game!
i love you and this explains us so good and you deff look like him lmao
but ur sexier
i love you baby and this is deff our song!
i love you baby
always will it will never go away
IM FUCKIN BORED CANT WAIT TO SEE SCOTT AND EVERYONE......LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
