WHY CAN'T I WRITE THIS GOD DAMN SPEECH
i feel like dying.
fuckfuckfuck. LOVE SUCKS. SPEECHES ABOUT LOVE SUCK EVEN MORE.
WHAT THE HELL SHOULD I GET DARIUS.
this isn't the fracking "most wonderful time of the yearrrrr."
I'TS STRESSFUL AS SHITTTT.
screw you, ancestors, for making christmas into a EVERYBODY HAS TO BUY EVERYBODY ELSE A GIFT TIME instead of just leaving it as a happy time for religous people.[/font]
edit;; I got him stuff.
LIIIIIIIIFE IS SO FRACKING RETARDED.
it's like, argh.
I've totally screwed this all up.
but shit son, we've all changed.
my old friends? yeah, i love them, and they helped me through a lot of shit,
but really, what do we have in common?
they're all smart, and normal, and obediant.
My new friends...
we're mostly all screw-ups who are out of our minds and can be spontaneous.
And yeah, okay, maybe I've said a few choice words about my jr. high life & friends,
but you can't tell me you haven't had problems with me.
My new friends MAKE OUT WITH KIDS ON FIRST DATES;; RUN AWAY TO SHELL AND TAKE THE 73 EVERY ONCE IN AWHILE.
THEY LIVE A LITTLE.
because of these kids, I'VE LEFT THE HOUSE IN THE PAST THREE MONTHS.
and it wasn't to chaperone a fucking date.
I'm acutally kinda sick of trying to fixx everybody's problems.
fuck.
God, I can't even express all the feeling I have right now.
Just know, I still love you all,
just not as much.
I GREW UP.
"Have a good day, Amita."
04.11.06 best night ever.
he cares.
he held my hands, because I was cold.
and even when they were hot,
he didn't let go. he knew they were warm, he had to.
but he didn't let go.
and he kept telling me,
if anything happens, call me.
call me.
and his hug
and his scent
i am out of control over him
30 ways to make a girl smile
Those that have an "x" beside them apply to me, those that don't don't apply to me.
[x] 1 . Tell her she is beautiful. lying isn't cool, except in this case.
[x] 2 . Hold her hand whenever you can. yay.
[x] 3 . Kiss her on the forehead. yay.
[x] 4 . Leave her voice messages to wake up to.i'm a sucker for messages
[] 5 . Always tell her shes the only girl you wanna be with. i just don't like this line.
[x] 6 . When she is upset tell her how much she means to you. well, don't go off on a rant. "oh you are my life". say it as an after thought, after finding out why i'm sad, and how i can fix it. then say "well, you still mean bunches to me." then i'll be happy. most likely, atleast.
[x] 7 . Recognize the small things . . . they mean the most. i like white chocolate.
[] 8 . Call her baby. babe, if anything. call me some stupid nickname. I love nicknames.
[] 9 . Sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is. please don't.
[x] 10 . Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with.i'm a scorpio. i get jealous. easily.
[x] 11 . Write her notes. see number 4
[x] 12 . Introduce her to friends as your girlfriend. hi, this is my girlfriend, >insert my name here<
[x] 13 . Play with her hair. jsut don't make it tangly.
[x] 14 . Pick her up, tickle her and play-wrestle with her. and steal my things and make me chase you.
[x] 15 . Talk to her without having to kiss her. you're also my best friend.
[x] 16 . Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, just tell her jokes. yay.
[x] 17 . Tell her when you miss her.as an after thought.
[x] 18 . Let her fall asleep in your arms. and if I start drooling, don't wake me up and say "ew ur drooling" (don't do that when i wake up either), lay me down on my pillow or something. i drool. people drool. it's a fact of life.
[x] 19 . Open the car door. occasionally. don't make me feel physically handicapped and do it for me all the time.
[] 20 . If she's mad at you, kiss her. if i'm mad at you, don't look at me. only when i'm pouting may you kiss me.
[x] 21 . Give her piggyback rides. yay.
[] 22 . Randomly tell her when you think she looks her best. just no.
[x] 23 . Treat her the same around your friends as you do when your alone. damn rights.
[x] 24 . Look her in the eyes and smile. and laugh when i make funny faces at you.
[xxxxxxxx] 25 . Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants. me = camera whore
[] 26 . Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing. no. i prefer not to look like a freak.
[x] 27. Dont ever ignore her, no matter who is around. duh. don't do that to anyone.
[x] 28 . Kiss her in the rain. yay.
[x] 29. Tell her EVERYTHING thats going on your in your life. just don't tell me abut taylor's sex life. no.
[x] 30 . When you fall in love with her . . . Tell her well, just say "i love you" adoringly. dont sit me down and be like "apple, i fink i lub u." cus then i'll be annoyed.
Flip.
Remember grade 7 day?
we had about half an hour to run around the shcool like chickens with our heads cut off looking for all the items on the scavenger hunt.
and then when we started
mrs. ballentine? and how she was only there for two weeks and never came back? and then there was that fat lady and then Mr. Fensom?
and how none of us could figure out fridays.
my goth trip? and how it failed?
and my braces, and all the advice i got?
and johnnythong and Tina making my life hell.
The Science fair disaster..
lee and I hating each other's guts,
greg, maria, andrada. kat, kirdy, shayshay.
grade eitght... seas!
Darshan, flitz and captain Jack.
Mrs. Alcock and how she dissapeared and we got Mr. V?
and Mark pulling on my earring...
and my obsession with Jere and I thought Blair liked me.
Lee and Keith.
Mrs Goett's breast cancer
Muter's leukemia, <3
and Banny's craziness and sudden illness?
Tiffany, Chelsea making my life hell, whoo-hoo
fish, chey, hunter, leelee, kat.
Shay moves back! and we change her name to Shaii
and we eventually loose her to the downtown core.
I didn't have to move to Kelowna,
and kat, kirdy, shaii and i were in the same class?
and how i hoped for us be together again?but no, toni was here to stay
My first year of Rosten and Portelli //gag
Shaii discovered Alty, and I felt alive for the first time in years. She actaully wanted to do something.
the chinese cultural centre
and my only good picture of Blair
and dancing with him in dance hahaha
Pop rocks being thrown at Mr. Rosten's head
I was in love with Blair
then Shaii quit.
then Kirdy.
Then the Joel microwave incident,
and Vee fainting.
gradd, jace dancing with me
AND THE END.
fuck.
FAKE FRiENDS: Never ask for food.
REAl FRiENDS: are the reason you have no food.
what about friends who ask if they can eat?
FAKE FRiENDS: Call your parents Mr/Mrs
REAl FRiENDS: Call your parents DAD/MOM
what about friends who call my parents by their names?
FAKE FRiENDS: bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong.
REAl FRiENDS: Would sit next to you sayin "Damn ... we fucked up ... but that shit was fun!"
what about friends who bail you out and ask what you did this time?
FAKE FRiENDS: never seen you cry.
REAl FRiENDS: cry with you
what about friends that are your shoulder to cry on?
FAKE FRiENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.
REAl FRiENDS: keep your shit so long they forget its yours.
kay wtf, i want my shit back
FAKE FRiENDS: know a few things about you.
REAl FRiENDS: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from you.
what about friends that know enough about you to fill out one of those HOW WELL DU U KNOW ME things accuratly?
FAKE FRiENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
REAl FRiENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.
what about friends who will stick by your side if the crowd leaves you?
FAKE FRiENDS: Would knock on your front door.
REAl FRiENDS: Walk right in and say "I'M HOME!"
kay wtf, what if i'm nekkid
FAKE FRiENDS: Are for awhile.
REAl FRiENDS: Are for life.
what about friends who are there for a few years?
FAKE FRiENDS: Will take your drink away when they think you've had enough.
REAl FRiENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place and say "Bitch drink the rest of that you know we don't waste shit."
what about friends who chug it down for you?
FAKE FRiENDS: will talk shit to the person who talks shit about you.
REAl FRiENDS: Will knock them the fuck out
FAKE FRiENDS: Would ignore this
REAl FRiENDS: Will send this to all there real friends and hope to get it back!!
what about friends who have enought brains to realize what a huge peiece of crap this is?
your ipod on shuffle, and use the various songs that come up to answer the questions.
Add various comments if you like.
No cheating!!!
What is your love life like?
I'll do the driving
What's your life motto?
Find the River
What do your parents think of you?
Signs
What does your best friend really think of you?
Pharoah
What's your favorite hobby?
Joy in Small Places
What's the worst thing about you?
Friction
Describe your mind.
Won't let you sleep
How will you die?
Mean Girl
How does your crush/S.O. feel about you?
Pieces of the Night
What is your wedding going to be like?
Better Life
What about your honeymoon?
Caterwaul
Describe the last day of your life.
11:11 PM
Why does life suck?
Til I hear It from you
Why does life rule?
Strange
What will you be famous for?
Kind Of Birds (wtf?)
Choose a band/artist: The Postal Service
Answer the following questions ONLY using titles of their songs.
1. Are you male or female: Clark Gable
2. Describe yourself: Natural Anthem
3. How do some people feel about you: Brand New Colony
4. How do you feel about yourself: This Place is a Prison
5. Describe your ex boyfriend: Recycled Air
6. Describe current boyfriend: Nothing Better
7. Describe where you want to be: Such Great Heights
8. Describe how you live: Sleeping In
9. What would you ask for if you had just one wish: The District Sleeps Alone Tonight
10. Share a few words of Wisdom: n/a
11. Now say goodbye: We Will Become Silouettes
WRATH
o1. Who did you last get angry with? Dad
o2. What is your weapon of choice? Lightsaber
o3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? Uh, yeah
o4. How about of the same sex? sure
o5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? Jake
o6. What is your pet peeve? Which one?
o7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? Holy crap I keep grudges
SLOTH
o1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a while? um... wash my face properly
o2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? 1ish at Shaii's lol
o3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't. Um... Lorin?
o4. What is the last lame excuse you made? I don't remember
o5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through? maybe?
o6. When was the last time you got a good workout in? like, never ago
o7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? n/a
GLUTTONY
o1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? yupiid?
o2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat? white
o3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? a couple gulps of my dad's beer when I was like, four
o4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? no
o5. Do you have an issue with your weight? sure
o6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? all of the above
o7. Have you ever looked at a small pet or child and thought, "LUNCH"! ew. no.
LUST
o1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? none... no wait mark... so one
o2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? ...
o3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? lol yes
o4. What is your favourite body part on a person of your gender of choice? nose.. don't ask
o5. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? No?
o6. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? No
GREED
o1. How many credit cards do you own? 0
o2. What's your guilty pleasure store? D-tox? Spencers?
o3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? buy clothes and plane tickets
o4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? both
o5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? maybe... probably not
o6. Have you ever stolen anything? no
o7. How many MP3s are on your harddrive? alot
PRIDE
o1. What's one thing you have done that you're most proud of? um...
o2. What's one thing you have done that your parents are most proud of? um...
o3. What's one thing would you like to accomplish in your life?
Fucking meet all my friends
04. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? yeah
o5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? I don't recall
o6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? sure
o7. What did you do today that you're proud of? joined the 4 hr long msn convo lol
ENVY
o1. What feature of your friends would you most want to have for your own? Sara's friendlyness
o2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? Kat probably
o3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? um...
o4. Have you ever been cheated on? sort of
o5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? probably
o6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? unno
o7. Finally, what is your favourite deadly sin? Lust lol
