ApathyInABottle - 18, Female, Kamloops
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25 Relationship Questions.

1. single, crushin', interested, or in a relationship?
In a relationship

2. are you happy with where you are?
Yes

3. when you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
Well, I dunno, depends on if I've met the right person

4. have you ever had your heart broken?
Of course

5. do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating would be ok?
Not in a billion years

6. would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
I have and it was a terrible mistake.

7. have you talked about marriage with another person?
Yes

8. do you want children?
Yepp

9. how many?
No more than 4

10. would you consider adoption?
Of course, those kids need love too

11. if somebody liked you right now, what do you think a cool way to let you know?
I dunno?

12. do you enjoy playing hard to get?
I dunno if I play hard to get? o.O

13. be honest, do you play the "game" when you are dating?
Damn it I lost the game! Whats this "game" you speak of?

14. do you believe love at first sight exists?
Yes

15. are you romantic?
D= Again, I dunno.

16. do you believe that you can change someone?
I think I can be the reason someone changes, but I don't believe I myself can change someone.

17. if you could get married anywhere, money not an object, where would it be?
In Canmore in the middle of winter

18. buddies - good or bad?
Well, if you mean the kind of buddies that try to cuddle up to the person I'm dating and act all 'you're the most amazing person in the world' then bad

19. do you easily give in when you are fighting?
Are you kidding? Me and Jon are both very stubborn, if we fought, it'd probably go on for a very long time XD

20. do you have feelings for someone right now, whether they know it or not?
Yes

21. have you ever wished you could've had someone but you messed that up?
<_>

22. have you broken a heart?
Yeah

23. what will happen if you come and find another person in bed with your partner?
I dunno, 'd probably smash a few things, scream a lot, but then leave and try not to listen to them when they try to fix things.

24. would you ever fight somebody over your significant other?
Yes

25. what would you say about your last ex?
I'd say nothing.


1 - babe or baby: Neither, I don't like pet names much
2 - sweetie or cupcake: Sweetie
3 - darlin' or sunshine: Both
4 - hot or beautiful: Beautiful

PRESENTLY -

1 - is your hair wet ? No...
2 - is your cell phone right by you ? well, it's in my room which is right by me
3 - do you miss someone ? Mhm D=
4 - are you wearing chap stick ? No, but I should be.
5 - are you excited for tomorrow ? Well, I'm hoping there'll be something to be excited about
6 - are you watching tv ? Nope.
7 - are you wearing pajamas ? I'm wearing what I sleep in, but they're not PJ's
8 - do you smile often ? I think so.
9 - do you wish on stars ? No
10 - do you untie your shoes every time you take them off ? Hahahaha, no. Most of my shoes don't have laces
11 - when did you last cry ? I almost cried at my family reunion last weekend, but i didn't.
 

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NOOOOOOOO!
D= my plus is gone D=
 

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I dunno, I'm INSANELY hyper.
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BOOBS!
<_< >_>
 

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Pressure
Pressure is a weight
Caused by gravity,
feelings,
words.
Pressure is crushing
Holds you down
Drowns you.
Pressure is what snaps hearts,
bones,
minds.
Give in to pressure
And break.
Give up to pressure
And fold.
Push against pressure
Grow stronger.
 
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So, I don't know if you're all going to think I'm totally insane, but I think I've achieved complete happiness. A while back, I was sitting on the bus, going down to dance, and I started thinking. I started thinking of how small human beings are compaired to the earth. Then, how small the earth is compaired to our solar system. Then, how small our solar system is to the whole fucking universe. I mean, it would take MILLIONS of our sollar system to fill some of the stars out there (And you have to admit, those are huge-ass stars) and then, if you look at it, a persons problem usually only involves a few people, but those few people wouldn't even be a speck in some of those stars. Our problems are too small to worry about, so why do we? We allow ourselves to worry. Don't take this the wrong way, even though it'll be very easy to, but humans are so selfish. It's me me me all the time, they barely ever think about someone else, or something else. We spend all our time making things easier for us no matter what the harm is done to other people, or other things. We make ourselves out to seem so much bigger than we actually are, so much more important, when we're just a tiny speck, a smudge in the universe. So why are we so important? Why do we think we're important enough to throw our earth away? Why do we make our problems out to be so big, when they're only as big as we are? You're probably all thinking I've totally lost it, if you've even read this far, but it's so true. Our problems are too small to worry about, so I don't let them bug me. All the problems in the world could possibly have a small impact on the universe, but not big enough to actually matter. Why do people say 'I've had a rough life'? Theres someone else out there thats had it worse, and someone out there thats had it worse than them! No one will ever have such a bad life that it will impact the whole universe. Maybe the world, yes, but remember, the world is fucking tiny. And besides, having a rough life will only hurt you if you let it. yes, I may be insulting many people out there, but your parents saying 'no' to one or two things doesn't mean you have it rough. After that, I thought about what I have. I have so much to be thankful for, and believe me, now I am. I might not live in a mansion and have a sports car and get everything I want and I might have to struggle sometimes, but God dammit I have a lot. Yes, I lost my dad to lung cancer, yes I was never supposed to walk, yes I'm a part-time mom to my older sisters baby, yes I have to work for the money I want to spend, no, I don't get driven everywhere, and yes, sometimes I have to fend for myself, but I have a family that loves me, a roof over my head, food in my mouth, I have friends that care about me, and a boyfriend I love, and I can do what I love. What more can I ask for? What more do I need? Nothing! I'm happy, I have what I need and then some, why ask for more? because it's in our nature to want what we can't have, to want MORE. What is more? Once you have everything, what more can you have? Nothing, and you won't be happy. I think you have to experience having nothing to understand that you don't need everything to be happy, and no, I haven't experienced that, but I can imagine it, and I know that I'm strong and I can live through it with a smile on my face. Happiness is what you make it. Everything is what you make it. Joy, sadness, anger, depression, faith, strength, weakness, feelings. It's all what you choose to make it. You're happiness is in you're hands, not anyone elses, so why not just remember that you don't need everything, and you're problems are as big as you make them?


Okay, so basically what all that is about, is how small our problems are, and how big we make them because we're so self centered, and we don't care who we hurt to achieve happiness. Theres no such thing as a rough life because someone has it worse, and you make it what it is. I have so much to be thankful for. I have as much as I need and then some, even though I don't get everything I want at a snap of a finger, thats okay. Humans won't let themselves be happy because we always want more, even if we have everything. All things are what you make them. You can choose to be happy, you can choose to be sad, or angry, or stressed, or whatever.
 

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hahahahaha Brendon and boobs.
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
I was gunna sing just keep swimming, but fine!
Hatchet.Thug says:
mel equals erection
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
O_O
Hatchet.Thug says:
no singin
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
JUST KEEP SWIMMING, JUST KEEP SWIMMING, JUST KEEP SWIMMING, SWIMMING, SWIMMING. wHAT DO WE DO, WE SWIM!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:

Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
:
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:

Hatchet.Thug says:
NO!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
....Boobs.
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
NO BOOBS?!
Hatchet.Thug says:
frustrated i am now
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
XD
Hatchet.Thug says:
i want boobs!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
No frustration! Happiness!
Hatchet.Thug says:
i miss boobs
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
D=
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
D=
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
D=
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
D=
Hatchet.Thug says:
i need a hot gurl and fast!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
They're just boobs.
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
O_O
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
Bye bye
Hatchet.Thug says:
?!
Hatchet.Thug says:
no!
Hatchet.Thug says:
they arnt just boobs
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
Well, that cuts me out, so ima go.
Hatchet.Thug says:
they are a gift from god!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
O_O
Hatchet.Thug says:
u r hot!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
Wow. You take boobs seriously, don't you.
Hatchet.Thug says:
yes
Hatchet.Thug says:
they are a work of art
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
XD
.....
Hatchet.Thug says:
HURRY CURRY!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
I AM!
Hatchet.Thug says:
GOOD
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
But I'm not curry. Just hurringi
Hatchet.Thug says:
omg!
Hatchet.Thug says:
im nicknamin u
Hatchet.Thug says:
CURRY
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
O_O
Hatchet.Thug says:
yay!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
PENIS!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
I duno why
Hatchet.Thug says:
u want mine!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
O_O
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
/)_(\
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
8wimpers*
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
*
Hatchet.Thug says:
awe!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
Scratch the penis thing! XD
Hatchet.Thug says:
dont scratch it!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
We're no longer talking about penis'
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
And thats what I've decided.
Hatchet.Thug says:
nope
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
No, I won't scratch it, I'll cut it off with a sharp knife!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
I KID!
Hatchet.Thug says:
\
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
D= I sorry, I kidding!
 

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brendon and I again
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
hehe
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
....
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
Boobs.
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
XD
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
i love them!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
Oh, I know
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
i miss bein able to play with someones
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:

why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
what funny!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
I have boobs and you don't! Xd
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
XD*
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
dont tease!
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
im serious
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
i miss feelin and kissin them!
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
i want boobs!
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
fuck why cant i get another gurl frined
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
Cause girls are all insane?
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
mehhh
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
i need to feels a girls boobs again!
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
they are so soft andwarm
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
nature's pillows!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
BLOW UP DOLL! XD
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
real ones!
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
i wanna feel real ones:
 

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Brendon and I
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
How would you look down my shirt, I only wear neck-high shirts
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
id pull it down!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
O_O
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:

Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
You abuse me
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
how!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
SEXUAL HARASEMENT!
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
so!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
I'M YOUR FAKE BIG SISTER!
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
so?!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
INCEST! XD
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
hell ya!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
HAHAHAAH!
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
?!
why does every fuckin bad thing happen to you?i wish i could take the pain instead of you says:
i call it bonding!
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
lol



Hahahhahahah XD brendon, you make me lolz
 

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hahahaha Brendon's funneh!
Im the figure in your nightmares mutha fucka says:
if u dont give a fuck u can do such things as
Im the figure in your nightmares mutha fucka says:
grow a moustache
Im the figure in your nightmares mutha fucka says:
wear sweatpants in public
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
I'll wear sweatpants in public
Im the figure in your nightmares mutha fucka says:
pee on children then yell at their parents for trying to stop you
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
O_O
Im the figure in your nightmares mutha fucka says:
have hookers for lunch everyday
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
O_____O
Im the figure in your nightmares mutha fucka says:
masterbate using stolen cheese
Professional Stunt Melanie. says:
HAHAHAHAAHAHAH!
Im the figure in your nightmares mutha fucka says:
and much much more!
 

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UGH!
You will NEVER know how it feels to feel like the ONLY thing holding you UP is the seat behind you, and how it feels to feel like their are no BONES in your arms and no MUSCLES in your legs! You will NEVER know what it FEELS like to feel EMPTY all the time. And that is what sets us apart. So don't tell me you do
 

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There is No Way Out
Silence.

Breathing.
Nothing.

There is no way out.


Cannot break the
Silence.

There is no
Breathing.

Nothing


Significance?

I think not.
But

Someday
Silence.

Breathing.

Nothing.
THERE IS NO WAY OUT!


Addiction
Is gone.

Forgotten
there is
No
Way
Out

Poison

Acid
Silence

There is no way out

Destruction

Smash
Nothing

There is
No way

Out


potential disturbance
BANG!

No breathing
There is no way out.