soooo its OFFICIAL me n my babys dad r bacc togetherr! ive been waiting howw freakin longg! lol kayy i am so happy i wuz like dancing n almost crying in center mall =) my famillys comin bac togetherr finallyy n i cudnt be happierr =D jus thought id update yuu lol but ima crashh YAYYY mee ima kp every letter he gives mee lol it tk him ferevrr to get dis onee but ima send another wid moree pics lol wishh us luckk ppll cuz i relly fucking lvoe himm

fuck sakes i miss my babys daddy n my daughter so fucking much!
i got a visit this sunday fer 2 hours tho... i hvnt seen her in 3 wks so 2 hours is fucking HEAVEN
i found out my girls old parents were feeding my baby mcdonalds! im so fucking pissed shes not even 10 months old fer another 2 days n their feeding her mcdonalds??? im PISSED thats guna rott her fucking teeth out mang
i almost had a break down today on the bus.... i can feel my heart breaking it hurts so fucking bad.... im still waiting fer a stupid letter bac n i duno if im guna get one! :'( somebody plz smack me.....
FUCK i CANT wait to c my daughter :)_ she always can make me smile ima bring a camera jus so i can show her daddy how shes doiin... shes guna be famous in jail lol she is so fucking gorgeous i cant believe she came from ME?! anyways gota bounce on bethanys comp n my half hours upp pce out every1
n matt ifly wid all my jheart n ill nvr stop lovin yuu... n my daughter i fucking promise ima win yuu bac.... i wud rather die then lose yuu.

omgg i got a letter from my babys daddy!!! im so fucking happy i can barely type dis i mean i got it a a couple days ago but im writing it now omg omg omg!!! LOL im such a nerdd i sent him a lettter but i duno if he got it or not im still waiting fer his reply n i sent it like last sunday! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO but w.e thats how jail thingerrs work but OMG i got a letter from hiim!!!!!!!! n we mite be bac together!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i cudnt be happuier!!! im so fucking in love wid him mannng!!!!


otherr newss i found out my baby has bronchitis athsma omgg n i hvnt seen her in 3 wks i hope my babys ok fuckk....
my familly mite be gettin bac together! me my baby n her daddy! YAY omg i cant get over it LOL


at the end of this month ima be movin into one of the "my homes" i cant wait no more fucking bethany mroe visits wid my baby n workin to gettin mygirl bac :D:D:D my life is finally goin bac to HAPPY omg i fucking love yuu mathieu babcockk i got yurr initials tattooed to my arm to prove it haha n i love yuu n miss yuu my baby girl i got yurr name tatooed to my neckk.... don worry ppl my ddaughter will be comin home to mommy soooon! my lawyer says if i kp up wid da gd work i can get her in 6-9 months but at least less then a year so YAYYY meee anyways gota bounce only got a half hour on bethanys comps but they actully got comp-s now so YEYYAA lol update yuu laterr wid any gd news bout my baby or my babys daddy aka the love of my fuckiin lifee
PCEEE <333

My girl has 2 teeth! && she can say dadadada && she cant crawl... but she can stand hanging onto sumthin lol... shes Gorgeous! she has lots of blond hair and big chink blue eyes.... shes mommys lil snowflake.... i missher so fucking bad....


my babys dad sent me an email... it broke my heart.... i sent like 4 emails bac gawwd im fukked in da head.... that wuz like on the 2nd? now its the 8th... still waitin fer an email bac :'(


im in lloyd rite now lol i met this one guy named jeff he seems real sweet he makes me smile real lots lol... he knows what its like to lose that one person yew love so fuckin much... cept he wuz wit her fer 7 years... n his daughter is almost 2 years old... hes 20 lol n hes pretty hott (like hott dayuuuuuum) but who knows wus guna happ..... i mean i mite dump him fer my babys dad ... i wud if i had the chance... or at least i tell myself that... but now that i think bout it wud i really?

Is It normal to be absolutely head over heels in love with the one guy you can never have again?... hes my babys daddy but i cant forget him... i cant move on... hes like a curse or a drug that i want to escape but just cant... i fucking love him and its tearing me apart inside///
WTF should i do???? :'(

Ex Quiz.
See how many questions you can answer without lying.

1. What was his name?
Mathieu Babcock

2. How old is he?
Turning 16 soon

3. When is his birthday?
July 9

4. What color is his hair?
blonde

5. What color are his eyes?
blue

6. What religion is he?
satin

7.What is his favorite color?
purple

8. Any siblings?
yeah

9. When did you two meet?
grade 9

10. Who asked who out?
i asked him

11. Where was your first date?
just kinda chilled lol

12. Where was your first kiss?
mmmm in the school hallway

13. Did you meet his family?
yupperz

14. Did they like you?
i guess lol kinda no choice i gto his kidd

15. Did you like them?
his oma yeh lol && his auntie pams aiite

16. What was your first impression of him?
wow hes a grubby... but i fukking want him.

17. What common activities did you do together?
i duno lol

18. Name a song that reminded you of him:
i ferget wut its called. :'(

19. How long were you two together?
5 n a half months

20. Why did it end?
me preg. him drugz.

21. Did you share the same friends?
sum

22. Name a song that makes you think of him NOW:
its too late to apologize by wus his face lmao

23. Do you miss him?
...fukk yeh.. hes my world

24. When did you just know it was over?
when he walked away wit caspar for the last time && jordan.

25. How serious was it?
he wuz && is my world

26. Did you love him?
.. i still do.

27. Did he give you anything?
the greatest thing in the world.. my daughter

28. Did he cheat?
i dont tink so

29. Did you?
mmm no.

30. Why were you attracted to him?
i just felt this intense like string btwn us... i wanted him so bad i duno y

31. When you met, was it love at first sight?
YES

32. Did you ever tell him you loved him?
YES

33. Did you mean it?
more than anything

34. Did he ever tell you he loved you?
yeep

35. Do you think he meant it?
yes

36. What was so great about him?
everything.. i still tink hes my soulmate

37. What was the sweetest thing he ever did for you?
he did so many fukkin things..

38. Who broke up with who?
he dumped me

39. Was the break up in person, on the phone, online?
in person cet he got jordan to do it

40. Did you cry?
yeah, still do.

41. Did he?
iunno maybe.

42. When was the last kiss?
end of august of 08

43. Are you still friends now?
nopee

44. When was the last time you saw him?
2 longg.

45. Did he talk to you?
no

46. Does he have a girlfriend?
i tink so

47. Are you jealous?
YES

48. Has he changed since you two broke up?
yes

49. Do you regret ever dating?
FUKK NO i LOVED every minute

50. Did you cry over him?
YES

51. Would you do anything to get him back?
YES

52. Do you still think about him, HONESTLY?
i do all the time

53. Are you happy the relationship is over?
.. my world isnt bac to normal n i doubt it ever will be again

54. Do you think you'll date again?
i would fukkin be the happiest mutha fukker ever.. but i doubt itt

55. Do you wishsh things would have been different?
yes.

56. Do you think he thinks of you?
i dont know.

57. Do you think he still has feelings for you?
i dont know

58. Why or why not?
because... i dont know?

59. Have you both moved on?
i tink he has..

60. Can you see you two together again in the future?
i fukkin wish :'(

61. Are either of you dating right now?
im not i duno bout him

62. Did you share anything special?
my daughter

65. If he asked you out right now, what would your answer be?
id prolly cry like a big baby n say fuk YES

66.If you had one last chance to tell him ANYTHING, what would it be?
that i love him so much and i still wanna be with him more than anything.

1. Dated outside your race?
Guilty

2. Gotten a hickey?
Guilty

3. Dated your best friend of the opposite sex?
Guilty

4. Sung in the shower?
Guilty

5. Spit in someone's drink?
Innocent

6. Dumped someone?
Guilty

7. Opened your Christmas presents early?
Guilty

8. Seen "The Notebook" more than 3 times?
innocent

11. Ran through the sprinklers naked?
Innocent

12. Ate food that fell on the floor?
Guilty

13. Went outside naked?
innocent

14. Made out with a friends boyfriend/girlfriend?
innocent

16. Flashed somebody?
Guilty

17. Made someone cry?
Guilty

18. Been in a parade?
guilty

19. Been in a school play?
Guilty

20. Drank alcohol?
Guilty

21. Gotten detention?
Guilty

22. Been on a plane?
Guilty

23. Been on a cruise?
innocent

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i fukin hate u bitch! i cant fukkin ferget u! u fukkin make me cry every nite cuz i cant stop tinkin bout u! my heart is permenately wit u n i cant fukkin stand itt! y the fukk do i gota hurt so much over u... fuk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i jus wana fukkin die!

wgy cant i ever forget you or fukkin move on??
your like fukkin stuck in my fukkin heart n i wana fukkin move on so fukkin bad it hurts L(

the pain in my heart just doesnt wana go away... fuk i hate u so fukin much... u ahhhhhhhh!!!!!

arghh!
i duno wut to do anymore i feel so dead inside every time i lk at my baby girl i tink about her daddy and it likes rips me up into a million pieces over and over again..i duno if i even wana be alive anymore im just done wit everything.. im tired of the fukking lks i get from ppl and im tired of lking at my baby n crying n im just fukking done wit the screaming n yelling all around me!!
arggg n sum friends i got they tell me im FATT i mean i had my baby a wk ago let at least give me a month b4 u call me FATT geeeez! but im losing the weight soo fast so yayy 1 good thing going down u cant even tell i had a kid no more.
ARGGGG im going INSANE i just wana fukking fall over dead.... mabe i shud?