W00t!!!!!
today was amanda's first beach day in the summer. it fuckn took me forever to even get on the beach but it was a good day anyways. ended up at english bay and kits beach. i brought the b-dawg with me. you know b/c shes so effing cute. and i brought her into the water with me. she swims well :)UMMMM had the new mc.'ds milkshake. strawberry-banana oh my god sooo goooood.
went to the night market a few nights ago with sam. haven't hung out with her in a while. it was pretty sweet. we both got sailor moon t's no joke 5 bucks each. fuckn sailor moon. it was a blast. and the had like 3 full stands of dog clothing. love it.
so i got my lip pierced. i like freaked out 3 times before letting the guy do it. but he was really cute so it made up for it. im leaving my job. now i know i say that all the time but im REALLY doing it this time. my other job started in teo weeks. so fuck it i hate it there ne ways. UMMM thats about all for now. peace!
Ever get the feeling that one day everything is fine and shit and then out of fuckn no where it hits you that you had a billion things to do and they needed to be done last week? fuckn story of my life rite there. so right now its 3 in the morning, and i cant sleep. not that my body won't let me go to sleep pfft, i can do that rite now. but if i go to sleep i won't wake up untill 3 in the afternoon SOoo i can't let myself sleep. in the morning 7:30 i need to go make photocopys of my firstaid shit and bring all my paperwork to sfu. fuckn WAY over due like last weds. and i keep blowing it off. you know why..... b/c im lazy thats why. so besides that i took two exta shifts ontop of my 3 already. why... why do i do this to myself. Last nite i was up cleaning untill 2:30 in the morning. everything was driving me nuts about this house. SOOOO messy, and trust me if I can;t stand it no one can. but thats what i get for moving into a house ran by a bunch for guys.
I think im spending too much time with this new boy. it's not like i don't like to, hes great. I just miss my friends. like i was playing Zelda and out of no where i missed katie... this is bullshit... I always do this. Base my fuckn day around a guy. thats what i did LAST time, and look where is got me, fuckn downward dive into the bastment crying to myself about nothing and everything. I'm so overthis. maybe i should just work more. Sometimes i love and hate my job, depends on the day. I already have a fulltime job for the summer so i don't know if im staying there or im leaving or what im doing.
On the upside my hair is now black. It looks good, I like it. it finally desided to grow for me so thats pretty sweet.
I don't know if i miss my ex. I miss him as in being around him and talking to him. We many things we think alike on. but i don't miss everything else. like the doing nothing all the time. and sitting around waiting to understand whats wrong with us all the time, and thinking everything was my fault when it clearly wasn't. but he was a really great friend to me and before the last few months helped me with a lot. thats the part i miss about him the most the old him. not the self absorbed him.
My baby is doing great. we need to go get one of here baby teeth pulled soon. its not falling out. but shes learning things really fast and comes to me when i call her now. well most of the time. shes looking at me right now bored out of her mind b/c the cats just got fixed and she cant play with them. so im going to go put her to bed.
i'll vent more later. no one even reads this shit anyways unless they really have no life. Or they are jsut REALLY really bored.
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General
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly.
[ ] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.
Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
School/Work
[x] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[x] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.
Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[ ] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public.
Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[ ] I've been to Asia.
Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've been an abuse victim.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[ ] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[x] I've been snowboarding.
Relationships
[ ] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've had someone cheat on me.
[x] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of commitment.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[ ] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've neglected to tell someone I love them because I wasn’t sure they loved me back
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I love to flirt.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.
Honesty/Crime
[x] I am a terrible liar.
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[x] I've shoplifted.
Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[x] I've smoked weed.
[x] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I'm a stoner.
[ ] I've snorted cocaine.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I’ve railed E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I have been diagnosed with depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying.
[x] I've cried myself to sleep.
[x] Seeing a therapist.
Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.
Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I own something from Hollister Co.
Political/Social Attitudes
[x] In general, I don't like people.
[ ] I'm a feminist.
[x] I'm outgoing.
[x] I listen to political music.
[ew ] I'm Democratic.
[ew] I'm Republican.
[ew] I'm liberal.
[ew] I don't like Bush.
[ew] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[1/2 ] I am religious.
[x] I dress fairly modestly.
[ ] My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it."
Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ringtone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[x] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails occassionaly.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
ok so where did i leave off, me and this boy [ we will call him D] meet at the ville near my house. seeing that he does only live like ten min away from me. not really my type of guy. with the camo jacket and all. but well groomed. so i guess is made up for it. we bussed it to metro and ended up watch lucky number sleven. What a sweet ass movie. theres like 20 deaths in that movie counting the ones that u thought were dead and came back to life. so sweet. what a great date movie LOL. so i ended up spilling about my whole past relationship and saying that im not ready to be dating yet. and he was a great guy about that. we just desided to spend the nite getting to know each other. but that nite i met like 9 ppl that i knew. i was really funny. he was like " fuck u know everyone" lol. we bussed home and he walked me to my door. even tho i said i didn't want him too. he met my cuz and that was that. the nite ended with a hug and nothing more. a really great nite over all.
Today was the first day of my new classes down near science world. so i woke up and was on my way. Just down the hill from my house a boy got on. i was like Fuck this is weird i have seen this guy EVERWHERE. two nites ago i went out for a few games of pool with my friends no where near my house. [ i won them all! SCORE!] and went to the Timmys after. now this was at like 1:30 in the morning, and who walks in but this random guy i see all the time. creepy. a few months b4 this me and christy went to the starbucks at waterfront, there he was working. and then a like two months b4 that after working graveyard with moh he was there again. Plus the number of times ive seen this guy on the bus. but ne ways this time i was like wow this is way to weird. i went and got on the skytrain, and the only seat free was the one next to me. so he just sat there. and in my head i was like " ok this is bullshit now im saying hi to this guy. i see him everywhere. we are pretty much bff. LOL" i tapped his sholder and just randomly started talking to him. we talked about movies and school all that junk. THEN he's like "can i get ur number we should hang out sometime." sooooo in my head all that was going on was. "wow, stuff like this really does happen? weird" so i desided to give it to him. and then he's like "well im not working tomorrow" and i am also not working tomorrow soooo yeah thats my day end of story me and him are meeting up tomorrow [ friday ] and probly going for coffee. lol seeing as he does work at starbucks. it's a little weird hes dosen't seem my type at all. but im just going to see how it works out. maybe thats what i need someone not my typ. b/c clearly what i think IS my type isn't working out.
Well tonight i went to the movies with thomas. and for the first bit we had no idea what movie we were going to see. just that it had paul walker in it lol. so we got there and its called like Running Scared and were like what? is he like scared of running. w/e man we are just going to call it that movie with paul walker in it lol. n e ways WOW what a good movie. i really liked it. kinda gore filled. wicked cam. angles. sooo good. and it was my FIRST 18A movie. i was so proud. [ my birthday was yesterday ] n e ways when the movie was over me and thomas had to walk home from metro. SOOO scary. never again. ever. then we went back to my house and chilled with christy watching napolean D. what a sweet movie. lol and thats where i am now. thomas just left and now im heading to bed. peace out home dawgs. oh yeah and running scared SOOO worth paying for.
