So, here's my question. What makes me so damn wonderful? I'm nothing. Honestly. I'm just another girl, doing what she can to make believe happiness. And, it's not working. But, somehow I managed to convince everyone around me that I am. And they say they love me. But, how can they? What they see isn't me. It's what I pretend to be, because its what I'm told to be. But, I'm not happy. I'm not nice. I'm mean. I'm evil. I say things and do things that hurt myself and hurt people. Deliberately. Because, I can. And because it's supposed to make them all leave me alone so I don't have to pretend anymore, but they don't leave. No, instead they continue to believe I'm happy, perky. When I smile they believe me. When I laugh they think it's real. And they think they love me. But, they don't know me. They know who I pretend to be. But, how do you love something that's not real?

When you think that nobody loves you, you forgot about me...




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~ I AM ~ peirced
~ I MISS ~ not having to worry about money
~ I HEAR ~ the tv in the other room
~ I SMELL ~ nothing
~ I CRAVE ~ eggs (thanks again rob for turning me normal!)
~ I WORRY ~ about my sister
~ I REGRET ~ nothing....bad to base life on regrets
~ I L0VE ~ having rob's arms around me
~ I DANCE ~ whenever i can
~ I SING ~ only when i know the words
~ I CANT STAND ~ annoying people
~ I LIKE ~ being held close
~ I LISTEN ~ to anyone who needs to vent
~ I HATE ~ liars
~ I NEED ~ more focus
~ I KN0W THAT ~ life is a journey
~ I H0PE ~ to be happy
~ I WANT ~ my own place
~ I AM ALWAYS ~ thinking of him
~ I WISH ~ truth would travel faster then lies
~ I CRY ~ way too much
~ I FALL ~ when you don't catch me (DUH!!)
~ I BELIEVE ~ in love at first sight
~ I NEVER ~ will forget...







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You Know You Live in 2007 When;
1. You go to a party, sit down and take Nexopia pics.
2. You havent played solitaire with real cards in years.
3. The reason for not staying in touch with your friends is that they don't have Msn/Nexopia.
4. You'd rather look all over the house for the remote instead of just pushing the button on the TV.
6. Your evening activity; the computer
7. You read this list, and keep nodding and smiling.
8. You think about how stupid you are for reading this.
9. You were too busy to notice number five.
10. You actually scrolled back up to check if there was a number five
11. And now you're laughing at your stupidity.
12. Repost if you fell for it. You know you did

Shoutouts

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COUSINS

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yes, they get a special place, cause they know me best!

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Jenny

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Breanne

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*Rob - my bc buddy! you have been there for me forever and i love you for it. you have been the person that i have gone to for whatever problem i have had, as you have with me. We have been through many rough times, but always seem to come out of them just as strong, if not stronger then when we came in. Our friendship is strenthening as time goes by, and without you, i don't know how i'd be standing on my own two feet right now, fighting for myself like you have taught me how. I am super excited to see you, as i never have yet, but i know that the time we spend together will forever be the bestest time ever! and no, you are not paying for it. i can pay for stuff myself you know! we have known eachother for 5 years now, and everytime we talk, i learn something new. you taught me how to laugh after Dan took all that away from me, and you taught me how to be stupid, and silly once again. Know that although you swear like 100 truckers in the same room, you are super and lovable, and a great guy. dont ever change. you have a special power...you have love. you care about me in ways i have never been cared about, and even through our un-wanted fights as you put it, we have remained friends. life will not always be easy, but know that i am always there to support you, and to listen. regardless of if its someone being a "pickle dick" or a low life piece of scum. i am always there. and i always will be.You know what to say to make a dark day seem bright, and shine the sun through the clouds. This last year before we meet might go by fast, or very slow, but i want you to know that you will always be in my heart, and my soul.<3


Learn Chinese in 5 minutes...(Read them out loud with the accent)
>1) That's not right .......................... Sum Ting Wong
>2) Are you harboring a fugitive?.............. Hu Yu Hai Ding
>3) See me ASAP................................ Kum Hia Nao
>4) Stupid Man ................................ Dum Fuk
>5) Small Horse ............................... Tai Ni Po Ni
>6) Did you go to the beach? .................. Wai Yu So Tan
>7) I bumped into a coffee table .............. Ai Bang Mai Fa Kin ni
>8] I think you need a face lift .............. Chin Tu Fat
>9) It's very dark in here .................... Wao So Dim
>10) I thought you were on a diet ............. Wai Yu Mun Ching?
>11) This is a tow away zone .................. No Pah King
>12) Our meeting is scheduled for next week ... Wai Yu Kum Nao?
>13) Staying out of sight ..................... Lie Ying Lo
>14) He's cleaning his automobile ............. Wa Shing Ka
>15) Your body odor is offensive .............. Yu Stin Ki Pu
>16) Great .................................... Fa Kin Su Pah

ABOUT MY NAME: it's german, and it means truth and noble...pretty accurate, eh?

You Are a Sensitive Kisser

For you, kissing is a way to connect

And you need lot of care, attention, and privacy

It may take you a while to kiss someone...

But when you do, it's total fireworks



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-untrustworthy people....or people that pretend they can be trusted, but can't. this has been happening a lot lately, be it limo money, grad dance marathon money, broken promises....it has all happened, and is extremely annoying. no one likes being lied to, and having promises broken, but yet people are constantly doing it.

-when two amazingly good friends fight over stupid things. i dont know if its just the random pms that hits both of us at the same time, or something else....but whatever it is, it really sucks. why can't two people be friends without fighting? what is wrong with the world today? where is the love?

-homophobia....k, fine. i understand some people get uncomfortable around those that are gay/lez, but honestly! do people really need to walk on the other side of the street, point, laugh, stare and poke fun at homosexuals? they are just like everyone else, and should be treated as such. just cause you are all dicks, and can't accept who someone is, don't put them down for it!

-when people write things about me on their profile, and i am forced to harass them with as many comments and messages a day until they deleted what was said about it...honestly, can it be that hard? i am all for speaking your mind, but if it is restricting freedom on someone else's rights, then it is WRONG!

-guys who cheat on their g/fs, and vice versa. after all, if you aren't happy with the person that you are with, then doesn't that tell you something anyways? why cheat? i think one can keep their sex drives under control until you break up with that person, before going for another, right? i know i sound like a hypocrit, because i too have cheated. but i have learned from that, and changed. i hope others do too. the worst feeling in the world is loving someone, and finding out that they "loved" someone else (aka...had sex with them)...there is no need for it.

-people who try to make all this big mess for people, for no reason. i mean, hearing from people that i've been saying shit about Stef L...i mean, common! we rarely talk, and when we do it's on good terms...what the fuck would i have to say about her? people are evil, and try to turn things on people to fuck up their lives, but don't worry...it'll come back ten fold. that's God's great design.

-guys who think that because they are the men, that they should TRY to tell their g/fs what to do...don't put up with that shit girls...you deserve better then those pricks can give

-people who do not know when to shut up and just listen to a friend. i mean, if someone comes to you for advice, why go and tell the whole world? they trusted you...and you kill that trust. and i'd know from personal experience...it takes a long time, even YEARS to get that back....

- people who have abortions because it would be "too hard" to have a kid.....YOU SHOULD HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT THAT BEFORE SCREWING SOME GUY! if you're going to have sex, cheers. have fun! just don't kill a kid because it would be too hard....it's not his fault his mom is a *****, and his dad doesn't know how to wear a rubber! i know this part might offend some people, but this is my opinion....if you're mature enough to have sex, you should be mature enough to accept whatever life dishes out to you....including the possibility of a kid. so think before you screw. and i'm not writting this so i get loads of comments, or people think that i'm talking about them. cause i'm not. it just upsets me when a kid gets killed cause his parents made a mistake....if you have an abortion, you're making the second mistake in a row...3 strikes and you're outa here! haha.