hey boys n girls! im a jerk and a douche bag, i have alot of cred but hey i dont wanna brag, now hold up one minute i aint ready to toss up that white flag, ppl talkin shit are just a bunch of fags, i roll with the best, and i feel quite blessed, yall know who you are, now lets sit back relax and smoke a cigar, and chill like the homies that we are, im a douche bag yah so what?, dont put our names in your mouths so keep it shut, yall walkin around like you got somethin shoved up your butt, bitch please we know who we are, were a couple high rollin Ma'Fucks cruisen in my car, we like the ladies and ladies like us, im sorry but we all have licenses so we dont roll ina bus, dont yah just hate ppl hatin on you, be careful we will eat you up and spit you out like a tin of chew, im tired of ppl hatin on me n my boys, hahah we like to drink smoke and make noise, we are the baddest kats in this shit hole of a city, other ppl try n beak us so they can seem witty, but in reality there just itty bitty, im outta here, have myself a couple beer, paYce
By:Sean Mercer

If You Fear To Fall, Then You Must Dare To Jump, For There Is No Right Time..

by: Sean Mercer

Through these past few days i`ve been reminiscing back
it`s the first time I couldn`t understand what we had
was it love? was it passion? was it all a waste of time?
now it`s hate, now it`s pain, now it`s all this shit combined
I can`t force my self to erase all our memories
but when i`m thinking back I always feel like you fooled me
nobody to blame but myself for being blinded, crying in my sleep
hoping this hurting passes by, iv`e been told how
these girls are all the same, but you had me so convinced
that my world suddenly changed, you always made me smile
but a smile isn`t forever, I guess it`s unpredictable like change
in the weather, I thought we`d work this out, I`m still young and I`m still trying to stay true to myself, my dreams have disappeared & now my lifes scattered apart.

By: Sean Mercer

You’re running guts all over the street
Not human your veins are full of concrete
The beast will cut you into pieces
Suffocate you to death with Reece’s
You pull a out a gun and pull the trigger
Your dead just like another grave digger
There’s nothing you can do
The beast he’s coming for you
He’ll slice your throat pick at your brains
Drain every single one of your veins
Bleed to death while you sit in shame
Where the fuck is the beast
He’s at your friend’s house having another feast
On her face, you spray with mace, but all you can do
Is think of your imaginary place
You’re bleeding and you smell something putrid
He’s stuffing your body with squid
You shoot the beast in the head
Fuck that your already dead

By: Sean Mercer

Hurt

Im Broken and Torn
Young and Hopless
You Have Torn me Apart

Im Breathless and Motionless
Strengthless and Hapless
My Soul Is Disappearing

I Thought you Were my Everything
The Light in my Darkness
Now i sit Alone to my own Demise

By: Sean Mercer

Somtimes i wonder, does true love actually exist?
When you find someone who is everything that you've ever wanted,
someone who makes you want to change for the better, it seems you
can't help but care for them. Despite all the promises you made yourself,
despite all your beliefs. When you finally find that somone you think may
be different, you're able to look past all their flaws and see them as perfect,
your able to forget the past and look forward to tomorrow, but sometimes
tomorrow isn't some thing to look forward to. Sometimes tomorrow is when
the person you thought was your world shows her true colors and turns your
world upside down. All of a sudden everything that meant so much to you,
all the promising things that were said, all the laughs that were exchanged
are now nothing but a memory that you couldn't do without. A memory that at
one time brought happiness now ony brings you pain and embarrassment.
Embarrassment cause you thought you saw some thing in her, some thing
that wasn't there, you allowed yourself to get hurt again because of all the
effort gone to waste and the lies you were made to believe. Now instead of
staying up all night thinking about how Beautiful she is, your up wondering
where you went wrong and what you could have done to save it.
But the truth of it is,It couldnt be saved cause there was never really anything there to begin with. These are my thoughts of...discontent

Change for love

What is change
is it rearanging your clothes
or your mind about something

would it be for parents
or flipping around your lifestyle
maybe for someone you care about

If it ment taking a chance
and being with that someone
would you change for love...i might

by Sean Mercer

my most recent one

Hopeless

Im so Hopeless
So Tired and Lonely
I Feel I Cant Be Freed

Im so stuck on you
Please loosen this noose
Im so Breathless

Help me I cant let go
Im drowning in my sorrow
This is not fair

My heart calls out
You turn your head
You Look at him instead

Your the reason why
It is your fault
Im so hopeless

By Sean Mercer

Love?

Is it no more than expression
Nothing more than a sign of gratitude
Or is it when you want what’s best for someone


Love is nothing more than an action
It is something you never forget
Its something you never let go


So when you find that someone don’t let go
When you find that someone never forget them
Express this in every way possible…I love you



By: Sean Mercer

i chillen at this place, seen you come in the door
that was the first thing I wished for
was for you to come there
it was like a breath of fresh air I swear
my heart beated faster and faster
you could probly tell I was already plasterd
but that doesn’t hide that im feelin you
but you probly didn’t see me, im just see through
the music started bumpin,
I noticed you were already jumpin
I tried to hide my feelings
But I was bouncing off the ceiling
Then you pulled me over to dance
So I thought id take that chance
I sat down and asked you to come sit with me
When you did my heart pounded with glee
The touch of your hand in mine
That’s when my true feelings for you started to shine
I tried to saver every moment with you
This is something we can work through
Im going beserk
Common we can make it work
Now I seal this with a kiss

Last...
01. Last Cigarette: dunno
02. Last movie: some nazi movie
03. Last Cry: my cuzins funeral
04. Last Library Book Checked Out: dead water zone
05. Last Movie Seen In Theatres: yes man
06. Last Book Read: dead water zone.
07. Last Cuss Word Uttered: fuck
08. Last Beverage Drank: milk
09. Last Food Consumed?: noodles
11. Last TV Show Watched: family guy
12. Last Time Showered: this morning
13. Last Shoes Worn: timberlands
15. Last Soda Drank: coke.
16. Last Thing Written: name.
17. Last Words Spoken: unno
18. Last Annoyance: my dad

Body...
01. Piercings: nope
02. Tattoos: nope
03. Height: i duuno, 6'1
04. Shoe size: 13 1/2
05. Hair color: black
06. Eye color: green

Last...
01. Movie you rented: doing hard time
03. Song you listened: poetry in the streets-necro
04. Song that was stuck in your head: take on me- reel big fish
05. Person that called you: Kam
06. Person you were thinking of: no one inperticular

True or False...
01. You have a crush on someone: true
02. You wish you could live somewhere else: true.
03. Think about suicide: false
04. You believe in a God: true
05. You want more Piercings: false
06. You drink/have been drunk: true
07. You do/did drugs: true.
08. You smoke/have smoked: true
09. You like cleaning: false
10. You like roller coasters: true!
11. You write in cursive: false

For or Against...
01. Long distance relationship:depends
02. Teenage smoking: for
03. Doing drugs: against
04. Driving drunk: against
06. Someone uses someone for their goodies: against

Have You...
01. Ever cried over the opposite sex: yup
02. Ever lied to someone: yup
03. Ever been in a fist fight: yup.
04. Ever been arrested: been put in the back of a squad car but not arrested

Number...
01. Of times you have been REALLY in love? none
02. Of times you have had your heart broke? once(just recently too)
03. Of hearts you have broken? couldnt tell yah
04. Of different drugs taken? 2
05. Of people you consider your enemies? no idea
06. Of scars on your body? 17 or 18
07. Of things in your past that you regret: to many to name.
08. Number of things your addicted to? alot

Random Questions.
Your Nex...
1) Is your username from a song?: nope
2) Do you have over 100 friends?: i think so
3) Do you have pictures of yourself?: yup
4) Do you get 1-3 comments every day?: yup
5)What does it mean?: huh??

Would You and Your Friends...
2) Sleep in the same bed?: no idea
3) Rob a bank?: fuck yah
4) Team up together and kill someone?: heck yes if needed.

In Your Room...
1) Do you have a wood floor or carpet?: carpet.
2) Are your walls painted bright colors?: nope
3) Do you have artwork hanging up on the walls?: nope
4) Do you have clothes on the floor?: yup
6) Do you have a hidden stash of candy somewhere?: nope
7) Do you have your own TV?: yup
8) Do you have over 100 CDs?: nope.
9) Do you have a bunch of pictures of bands and celebrities?: nope

Do you...
1) Sing a solo?: nope
2) Take an hour-long shower?: yup.
3) Smoke pot just to be cool?: l dont smoke pot
4) Spend all night on homework?: fuck no

Do you like...
1) More than one person?: not really no.
2) Daisies?:nope
3) To paint your fingernails?: fuck no thats for homos.
4) Music?: yup
5) Black raspberry ice cream?: nope
6) The beach?: yup
7) Cats?: fuck no they suck

Now...
Is your hair up?: i dont have any hair, my heads shaved
Is your phone right beside you?: nope
Do you wish you were somewhere else?: yeah
Are you cold?: noope.
Are you excited?: yeaah
Are you watching T.V.?: noo.
Recently done anything you regret?: don't think so.
Ever lied?: ofcourse.
Ever trip over your own feet?: yeah
Ever thrown up because you cried so hard?: nope

This Week...
Have any plans?: hmm unno
Have you yelled at someone?: yup.
Have you called more than 3 people?: yeeah

Random...
1. First thing you did this morning?: checked my phone
2. Do you consider yourself good looking?: i dunno that depends on others opinions
3. Do you have a crush?: yup
4. What's something you look foward to in the next six weeks: NEWYEARS.
5. What's annoying you right now?: my dad he wont let me play x-box

I use to walk down the hallway and look at you and fall to pieces
And when that happeneds everything else ceases
You crushed me so hard I fell real fast
I was always wishin that it would last
But I have found a new light that shines brighter than the sun
That’s even more sweet than a cinnamon bun
And if feels like ive just been spun, on a Mary go round
Heck I was lost but now ive been found
This feeling I cant ignore
Im pretty pretty sure you’re the one I care for
I cant help smiling when I look in your direction
I cant ignore this deep down affection, for you
Everyday I have thought this through and through
Its you I wanna be with, we go together like marshmallows and fondue


Roses are red violets are blue
Fuck all that shit, that shit aint true
Because its just me and you
Holding your hand in the moonlight is all I wanna do
Looking into your eyes is what imma stick too
Yous got the cutest smile
Please let me stay for awhile
I may not have much to give you
My undying attention is all I got cuz I miss you
Your touch is so unbearable
It sends shivers down my spine
Oh how I just want to make you mine

To end a love
Is not to end loving.
A tear will not erase
The pain that separation brings,

Nor will a smile
Banish the sorrow
That fills your heart.
Time may dim
But never tarnish
My memories of you.

So cry your tears
Or bravely smile.
To each your own.
I will simply
Cherish what was
somewhat briefly beautiful.

I'll live with hope
Of a brighter tomorrow.

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a B?
not that i know of?

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
dont really know

Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
my bed

Have you held hands with anybody in the past week?
yup
Do you like to cuddle?
yup

What color shirt are you wearing?
dark blue

Ever go camping?
heck yes

Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
women

Have you spoken to your mother today?
yup

When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
yesterday to my sister

Have you ever thought you liked someone, and then found out that you really didn't?
yup almost all the time

Where were you an hour ago?
sleeping

Do you have any piercings?
nope
Do you fall for people easily?
not really no

When is the last time you saw number 1 on your top friends?
what?

What are you listening to right now?
young mc

Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward?
not really, i make the best of those situations

Your ex REALLY needs you at 3 am and you have a way to their house, would you go?
nope

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
during my football game

Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to and you're sure they wont tell anyone?
yep

Who did you hangout with last night?
everyone

How many hours did you sleep last night?
8 hrs

Could you go a day with out eating?
haha fuck no

Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
thats a retoricle question

Is there someone you want to fight?
nope

What did you do today?
nothin yet

What is your mood?
relaxed

Are you waiting for anyone to call right now?
yup

Do you secretly like someone?
yup

Have you ever kissed anyone with a name starting with J, M, B, or C?
dont remember

Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?
yup, anyone really

Who was the last person to call you?
dont know

Where is your cell phone?
on my computer desk right beside me

Who was the last person you gave up on?
couldnt tell yah

Do you feel comfortable with answering personal questions?
yup

Have you ever fainted?
nope

Would you rather gorgeous eyes or a gorgeous smile?
not sure. both

Where's the person you miss most?
Heaven

Where's the person you first fell in love with?
other side of the city

Looking back, did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
fuck yah

Ever kissed under water?
yup

have you ever felt like you were "falling apart" ?
indeed

have you ever felt like nothing would ever get better?
that i did

why are you doing this note, honestly?
cuz im bored

when you're upset and hurting, do you run to friends or drugs/alcohol?
friends then alcohol

love: good or bad?
Good

can people see what you're feeling by your eyes?
i sure hope not

are you a good liar?
in particular situations

losing people: are you okay with it, or do you cut deep with that type of thing?
its fuckin hard

who are four people you could trust with anything?
just close friends and family

what if your mom just walked out on you right now, what would you do? where would you go?
i honestly have no idea, i would be in shock

is it hard to look at yourself in the mirror because you don't like the way you look?
unno sometimes.

what did you last eat/drink?
five alive

do you ever question yourself as to why you make the choices you make?
all the time

ive been let down so many times before, but i keep comin back for more and more, that feeling was just to hard to ignore, and so hard to brace ones self for, my friends kept tellin me to stop wasting my time,but i was to stubborn to realize it at the time,now i feel like a god damn mime stuck in an invisible unlivible box, where theres no one around for blocks n blocks, why is it me thats always torn apart, its you who took my internal body part, now i have to replace this empty space, wbut with whaat its just like gettin straight punched in the gut yous was acting all affectionate and what not, i knew you lied to me cuz you just got caught, fuck you i hope your happy but i guess you can tell that im feelin a bit crappy, but i wonder why, tellin me you tried to say that shit, fuck your nothin but a lie, i should of listened to my friends i knew with you there was to many odds n ends, i was too fuckin stubborn and now look im really fuckin torn, fuck you fuck this, excuse bitch while i go piss