i get to see my sister for the next week i seen her tonite i love her so mch dad said she would play shy with me hahah BULL S HIT she spent most of the night with me hahah shes so cute my steo moms a bitch fucking with my dads head fuck her hahaha tell my dad i am stupid and a drug addict cause you no i am like that defintly its no tlike im carrying a baby or anything dumb bitch
i dont need the drugs i dont do the drugs i want a healthy baby bitch

my gourgus little sister krystyna i love you and i miss you i havent seen you in over 2 months.. youll be home soon i promise and ill be there for you soon as soon as i can i will have you as well as my baby

so i lost someone that i cared about so much.. to tell you the truth it hurts more then i would have ever had thought. i miss you baby.. im going to miss the sound of your voice the smile on your face. hell im going to iss everything about you
i still like you so much and you are still my baby and im not going to replace yuou until you replace me.
i like you so much
and i miss you so much.

happy 6 month anivercery... or almost . we almost made it .

you know i like you alot
you know im not going to cheat on you
you know i do what i can for you
you know i miss you even when your around
you know im happy
you know that i try so hard to make you happy
you know that im scared to lose you
you know that i care about you
you know i would never try to hurt you
what you dont know is i almost said i loved you.

Me: hello.
Zarek: hey hows it going.
Me: good whats wrong?
Zarek: i just wanted to hear your voice.
Me: why do you think i call your phone and i no your not going to answer its almost the only other time i get to hear your voice other then 6:30 every night.
Zarek: i miss you baby..
Me: i miss you to.

I miss you sweetie...

I GET MY ULTRASOUND DONE NEXT WEEK HOPEFULLY

me: when im with the girls everythings diffrent i no that i dont have to impress them.
Zarek: what do you mean?
Me: well i feel that i have to impress you all the time.
Zarek: baby you dont have to inpress me anymore if i wasnt inpressed i wouldnt be with you.

So you think I'm a stuck up bitch..
Want to hear what I think of you?
Hating me won't make you pretty.
Whore.

People say when life hands you lemons make lemonade
But....
the there times when life pulls down your pants and runs a Belt sander across your bare Ass
and then pours lemon juice into the gaping wounds
In those situations i dont see how a cool citrus beverage is going to help

please dont tell me not to cry.
please dont say there is a reason why,
you dont no how im feeling
or how much i hurt
the wet spots are tears on the coller of this shirt
you think i should go on with life
forget about it and be strong
but deep down im sad i dont want to go along
i dont expect you to understand why
for no apernt reason i break down and start to cry
my life has changed forever you see
this is why im not acting like the same old me
so please dont try to act like nothing has happend
because its my life changed forever
i will never be the same again
not today or tomorrow but never
the best thing you can do is always be there for me
just like always, my friend
my broken heart is hurting bad
and it will never mend

when i look in the mirror, i see a girl who's been
through so much, and yet, still finds a way to smile at
the past. she still loves with all her heart, or what's
left of it. and when you see her walking in the hallway
i can guarentee you she'll have her head up high
faking a smile just one last time. and for all those
people who try to break her, you never will.