There comes a point where you miss someone so much that you can
hear their voice echo in your head & you can hear the names that they
used to call you; the words they used to tell you. You memorized their
laugh, their smile & their silly ways. You can also feel their arms around
you & you don't want to let go even though you know that it's just an
illusion. Every time your phone rings, you smile because it's them that's
calling you. Every time you hear their name, your heart beats a hundred
times faster & sometimes, you can't even breathe. You knew that looking
back on the tears would make you laugh but you never knew that looking
back on the laughs would also make you cry. And all you would want is
to go back in time. Not to the time that you first met, to the time that you
were known as nothing but strangers. But no matter what, you're in denial.
You hide your feelings, so no one would know. You put on a fake smile
& don't let a single tear break through. You're so used to hiding your feel-
ings that you don't even realize the pain you're causing for yourself. Your
thoughts become invisible. It's still there, but no one knows. Like a love
as i stand here looking at you,
i wonder if there will ever be a day when i get over your smile,
when i will let go of the hugs you gave me that i continue to feel..
a day when i forget the words you said to me,
forget what you meant to me, or forget how much i love you.
but no matter whatever happened to us.
i know i could never get over, let go, or forget you