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09:28pm | Jan 04, '07 | Public

Cailin has a baby carrot..
haha
jk.. hunny
and i dont remeber writing that...(below)?

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Miss Courtnee Leigh

03:05am | Nov 16, '06 | Public

Hi Its court. i like nexopia.com it seems to be my addiction.
I want to be something that everyone does'nt want to be. It seems that everyone wants to Be A ''individual'' i want to be nothing of the sort.Cause they are all teh same no matter how hard they try. I move with the flow of my own ways and do what i want.I enjoy music alot. Something along the lines of Metal.Country.techno.rock.new wave.POP.lol and i think you get the point. So also, i enjoy live concerts, I love summer and winter..
anything in between is just crap. I dont beleive in Capital letters. I use them though cause it looks nice.I love grammer. Its better then "Lyk33 0MFGG D1D U S3 D4T GUYY! H3 T0T41Y CH3KK3D U 0UT!" like wtf?!lol. I like the lovley transparent blue water that you would find in the tropical places. The Color GREEN. Inside jokes are cool. Im totally confident in myself.My middle name is leigh. I hate it.But no other name would sound so pretty.I dont like how guys are obsessed with ass, tits, and sex. But at the same time I Totally am to.I like orange juice. I hate horror movies. Yes im a pussy. But hey who wnats nightmares.
I like when im in public and people look and stare at me, to me its a sign of jealousy and envious people. Does that make me conceited?
.Everything about me is fake, But im just perfect.I smile because i dont know what to say. Im afraid of silence.I dont need another half to make me whole. Although i always have time for love. I trip.I fall.I crash. Call me grace. Belives that dreams do come true. I Laugh as much as i can and apologize when i should. I have 5 different smiles. And ashlee and cailin are cooler than a freezer.
Stay classy...
Courtnee..

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Sweetness

06:42am | Oct 17, '06 | Public

My Chocolate cake

And Pumpkin pie

and im the whippin cream on top

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LOVE

11:47pm | Oct 15, '06 | Public

*Cailin Briggs*Ashlee Leung*

So I just cant get enough of yous!
You ladies are one of the greatest things that have entered my life..
And i would probly be flat on my face without you by my side..
I love you girls alot..
Its just so hard to explain in words but i do.
And i want you to know that..
*You guys are my bestfriends*! :love:

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Everything..

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09:50pm | Oct 15, '06 | Public

Never Forget The Ones Who Were There From The Start

C.B A.L

Cailin Briggs:
Girl You never stop rocking my world..
Even When times get Tough..
You still make me smile..
Your the love of my life lol..
So keep on shining...
Xox LOVE YOU!!!!!!
(thats me yelling at you)

Ashlee Leung:
Your The reason We are all friends today..
Its just not the same without you ..
So just keep on truckin...
Cause we're all smilin for ya down here..
And dont worry we'll be coming for you!
XOX Love you so much!
And more memories to come..
My gorgeous one!

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Five years and counting ladies!!

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wake up

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01:03am | Aug 25, '06 | Public

Wake Up
Wear the darkness
Like a winter coat
And weep
For the end of innocence
The darkness of a man's heart.
Wake up
No more skies
As broad as an untroubled forehead.
No more sipping the days
Like lemonade.
Wake up.
They told us to touch the stars
And now, only to dream
Within the possibilities?
To stay within the lines?
Tell us we're happy.
Happiness is sitting on my shoulder
chattering in my ear like an ape
always
a breath
out of reach.

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12:31am | Aug 25, '06 | Public

I breathed a song into the air,
It fell to earth, I knew not where;
For, who has sight so keen and strong
That it can follow the flight of song?

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DONT

12:28am | Aug 25, '06 | Public

Don't try to fix me, 'Cause I like to be broken,
Don't file down my edges, 'Cause I like them sharp,
Don't pick me up, 'Cause I wanna stay down,
Don't think you're my savior, 'Cause you're not even close,
Don't give me your heart, 'Cause it'll come back in pieces,
Don't even try to steal mine, 'Cause you won't keep it,
And don't you tell me you love me, 'Cause nobody ever means it

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07:49am | Jul 18, '06 | Public

what are you feeling why do you always run from what you want? you always want what you cant have..why dont you just accept what i have given you, not throw it back in my face. we are meant to be together , i can feel it within my soul. i think about you when im not with you so much. iv tried to hide behind my feelings for a long time now but i cant hold it in. i want to go on top of a mountain and just scream that i love u and i want to care for you for the rest of my life. i want to see us get old, and knit our way into heaven. i want to have kids with you and watch our kids have kids, making us grandparents. Just think about it . im crying right now just thinkin about that rockin chair. i really wana make a life with you. look deep inside yourself and find out what you want, and stick with that feeling. dont let a second mood change your mind on your feelings. love is forever babe. we are forever.

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$$$$$$

05:49am | Jul 18, '06 | Public

My eyes...stay dry
to be the dusty reflection of will
sandier than the tough jolt of sin
my eyes... stay cool
freezing all hell that danced within my soul
stopping all activity that made my brain spin
my eyes... are dangerous
there is no howl of defeat upon them
nor is there any dance of victory
look closely...
and see that i have given up hope
the gleam that you see is not of joy
but of frozen expectations
i see everything in a light, that mocks the sulking shadows
yet my light is artificial
for a moment it simmers than is taken away in self indulgence
I lay alone... left to battle and find my way around teh dark
My eyes... are confused
darting left and right with all the grace of a flailing bird
whatever they capture in their gaze they hold in self denial
with mocking music towards the accepted
utterring curses when the captured turns them down
when my eyes are confused...
they become desperate
gasping in any expected air
that air is freedom
they choke it up liek a lifeline
but most of all my eyes...are hurt
The ice is protection, a shining layer upon a broken heart
The desperation of freedom, teh result of being broken apart

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(.)(.) TITTIES

05:17am | Jul 18, '06 | Public

More than angry words, i hate the silence
its getting so loud
well i want to scream
but bitterness silenced these emotions
its getting hard to breath
so tell me, isnt happiness
worth more than a diamond ring
Money cant buy my love
im willing to do anything
to calm this storm in my heart
Ive never been the praying kind
But lately ive been down upon my knees
Not looking for a miracle
but reason to believe
i love you
And those are teh words that burn with passion.

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04:59am | Jul 18, '06 | Public

Burn a hole into this auburn sky.
Let the water wash away those crimson tides.
Kill The narrow minded.
Burn teh road they walk on.
Watch the fire Fill your lungs
Bringing in the darkness of a tomb
Condemn them in the solitude of their room
Let them die
Fear the fight of the battlefield
as one by one we go
Take my heart, So cold
Take my Life, So weak
Not deserving to live
Not deserving to walk upon a road of ash
Feel the pain.

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Fallen

04:44am | Jul 18, '06 | Public

Fallen Angel, Down from heaven
Your light is dimming,Fading out,
Banished from the land of sunlight,
You knwo you shall never return.

Fallen Angel,You lay broken
Your wings stained with your own blood
The darkness threatens to surround you
But you knwo that you have been long lost.

Fallen Angel,Dying Spirit
Your time is drawing to a close
Lying in a pool of scarlet
You fade away into the night.

Fallen Angel, Tainted crimson
Your image still lingers in my mind
Your sins forgiven, but not forgotten
You knwo your death was no escape.

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Like Yesterday

04:37am | Jul 18, '06 | Public

I'd give my life for this to change
There's no excuse for what I've done
Now I must prove that I truly love
After all we said, how Could I lie
Disappointed myself
Disappointed you, for what
Ask for forgiveness
I'm so disappointed in myself,and so sorry for what I've done
all of that time I was so weak
blinded by lust I could not think
If you give me one more chance
I promise I will not fail you
I will stay never betray
I am sorry regretting what I have done
I need to fix this, make you see
You need to know, that was not me

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03/08/05

04:35am | Jul 18, '06 | Public

+So many moments,moments of stillness, remembering memories in the back of my mind.
Haunting me without knowing. I cry for all the unknown reasons. My heart still hasnt healed,
healed from every heartache and tear, anything that ever cause me pain, every moment i couldnt
breathe, or everytime i cried till i had nothing left. I remember all the bad memories over the good,
and i pary they will go away and i can forget the past. But i havent yet and i wonder if there is a
reason? Why must i suffer when there is so much in front of, around me that i can be happy for.
I realize that there will be bad things, but for me it seems as if its all i know.Today is just another day,
but it could be someday that it will be different, but until then, how do i find out what im supposed to do,
Live in my past, my nightmare, Be alone? I am alone, i have nothing. How long will this cloud shelter over me,
Darkening my soul,taking in every breath, reminding me of yesterday, today and tomorrow haunt me,
The more i try to change, the more i try and make things better, the more i try to believe im happy,
show me the way, and show me the future, make my thoughts disappear. I dont ever again wish to not
wake up, i dont wnat to wither away in the solitude of my room, Id rather not feel that cold sensation of death,
I wnat my heart to feel the healing pain which will prove im real. Im not a puppet or a doll, i am a girl.
I feel, I love, I care and i hate. I am real.So now im taking up the time,making up teh reasons to justify
how i feel inside, but all it brings me is more pain, hurt and hate. I wnat to be whole again. My Heart
has shattered.But ive learned my lesson and have nothing to prove.So to this world of new beginings,
I choose life, cause its definatley worth living. But only he can do that, only he can take my thoughts away.
Only he can waken the beauty and happiness life should be.+

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