you know that i love you
and you say that you love me too
but i just don't feel it
or see it
because there is no effort
its so one sided
and it hurts to be in this constant state of confusion and possible rejection
do i make myself to available?
or not available enough?
not flexible enough to work around your schedule?
well guess what i have a schedule too
I cant keep bending mine to fit yours
I'm about to break
and i cant do it anymore
I'm giving up
yes, me, the one that always makes the effort
constantly
no matter what
maybe thats the problem, i seem needy/clingy/whatever
but i don't think so
maybe you just don't know how friendship should work
maybe you've always been the person that everyone calls
and wants to be around
and never has to put in the effort to pick up the phone
or have the anxiety of thinking about why calls/texts haven't been returned
maybe you just always have so many people wanting to spend time with you that you don't think about me
or anyone besides yourself