I walked in the door
I heard her scream
my heart in my throat
she's in trouble i believe
I love her so much
she just can't be hurt
i will protect her,
i would give my life for her
So i heard her scream
I had to come quick
I opened the door
She was riding his dick
turns out i wasn't
the first one to come
Tbilisi is a disease
i'm the first one to leave.
Heartsick, this bullshit
I just can't believe it.
she was kissing him
and i happened to see it.
When she goes dancing
i feel so alone
but its not the dancing i mind
its whats bound to follow
what follows the dancing
is thoughts of romancing
it brings talking to a close.
with there lips just too close.
The thoughts of romancing
turn to more than just thoughts
But the thoughts in my head
keep me up Just like thoughts
when i think, i can tell
that i need to think.
Think these thoughts through
so i can think like you do.
This is a poem
i wrote to tell you
That I'm not coming home
you know that we're through
wish i could have thought this through
never coming home to you
i walked through the door
i heard myself scream
my heart on the floor
I'm in trouble i believe
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if i get ten yes's i'll blog it
i'm at 7 right now
You can’t find the words to tell me
That nobody cares
And they will never find your body
nobody cares
A cause without a motive
And a motive without a cause
Don’t bother me darling
To deal with your loss
Don’t come to me
When you can’t see
My eyes were lost to better
Than you have done to me
A bullet in his head
Your lover,
Your lover and your martyr
Two 9’s in his brain
I hope he felt the pain
All your god dam blood
Running down the sewer drain
How cryptic can I be
And have you understand
This wasn’t meant to be
Cuz I’ve done everything I can
These soothing melodies
Carress my empty head
Forget about these things
We’ll prolly wind up dead
Like the butterflies and bullets
Whizzing past my head
I wont come back
Running through the trees
Hiding from your memories
Everything was mine
Everything is on the line
I’m not surprised
I could see it in your eyes
I’m coming back
I’m coming back
Look into the mirror to see
A breathless horror staring back at me
He taunts me woundingly
But you don’t see
Im almost free
i want to be there
when your world comes crashing down
when everything you know,
explodes and hits the ground
so fuckin
DROP DEAD
you don't know
how it is, so
just go, go low
fight for the fight
and you fight like a pro
my home is no home
never been so alone
so long, go on
and your getting close
close to the sky
you won't see me
I'm too dam high
so fuckin DROP DEAD
the weight of my life
pressin down too bad
gotta fly, so high
can't die, it'll never jive
can't get down,
can't drown, no sight, no sound
can't find the ground
hate me, your my enemy
im different, drastically
cuz i can tell its a lie
when it's every word you speak
us is metaphorically
if you have somethin to speak
speak it to me
all you are is hurt
so all i do is curse
every god dam thing
only makes it worse
and i can't take anymore
no more, can't lie, i tried
and theres no more doors
dead on the floor
fight to score
for
every child that died
every mother that lied
every wreck that survived
and every wretch that has cried
and on every single wrong
i keep comin back to you
cuz of everything you've done
and now everything you do
this is what you said
so fuckin drop dead
to the demons
the demons in your head
your empty life has let me down
so with heads bowed to the bullets and dread
i'll be laughing when you
DROP DEAD
i believe i can take all of this hurt
and bury it with all my unspoken words
time and time again you make my world spin
and no matter how i try to shine
i learn the hard way your not mine
[chorus:]
no one knows that i
can rip the stars from the sky
and i came
just to say
that i will try today,
i'll shine today
this is getting pretty dam hard to take
now i can't take it
no matter what you make it
i can't seem to escape it
i'm not perfect and i HATE IT
LETS RIP UP THE BATTLE FIELD
LETS BURY OURSELVES IN THE MINE FIELD
ITS WHAT WE ARE
LETS SHINE LIKE THE STARS
(it's what we are)
we will shine
(it's who we are)
all our lives
i can't stand the thought of going on like this
what have i done, to you, to me, to this
for the sake of argument, i fucked up
lets shadow this, the audience can make it up
[chorus]
do you feel the same?
do you know what its like?
am i slightly insane?
do i shine in the night?
when you sleep do you feel me
when im thinking of you
when i whisper to you
when im wishing for you...
[chorus]
30 minutes to, to, midnight
25 minutes to the end of my life
the end of my night
and i need you
ohh, now i bleed you
do you know what its like?
i was dead and saw you
do you know what it's like?
do i know that you lie?
we drop like dead
hit the ground and bled
in a pool of red
we drop like dead
we dropped and bled
[chorus]
and no matter how i try to shine
i learn the hardway your not mine
oh you poor soul, you look so deprived
crucified by your lies, you looked better alive
sticky as sex in the back of my car
just leave the blood and come as you are
a romance so cold and a flower so bold
every line dropped in the river Styx flow
damned be the virgin who lies to my god
beneath the weight of all they have wrought
fortune and fear creeping brought death to tears
a dumpster out back holds something once dear
someones little girl turns cold with the night
rotting with the garbage as her killers take flight
fighting to breathe and beginning to seize
its time to believe that everyone bleeds
chorus:
believe
that time can heal this
this won't last forever
child please remember
that we
have wrote our own story
of sinners and saviors
so don't put us in danger
and i lie just to feel something
and thats life, it means nothing
if i could die i would
and the sun has never felt so good
OWWW
WALK AWAY
consolidate
bring me closer to home
renew to leave me alone
you can't imagine the pain!
cuz ive done the best i can
im a reject, you forget
you disrespect and ill eject
your wrecked and bedecked
i collect and neglect
reconnect with the effect
of lookin so upset
ATTENTION WHORE
ill give you more
this is what i fight for
[chorus]
you
dont know what i am
but thats fine by me
this
bite sized tragedy
is fiinee byy mee
this feels so wrong
why have you been gone for so long
your eyes haunt me in my dreams
and now my life.. nothings what it seems
dont bother trying to save me
im a lesser kind of man
and i can't believe i can remember your name
inside the fire im forever damned
[chorus]
believe---------------------------------------------------------i can't forget
that time can heal this-------------------------------------that nothing can come of this
this won't last forever--------------------------------------we were never together
child please remember-----------------------------------im bleeding forever
that we---------------------------------------------------------all my regrets
have wrote our own story---------------------------------are all i have left
of sinners and saviors------------------------------------I'm a piece of this day
so don't put us in danger---------------------------------in danger of flying away
i know you feel alone
but I am too far gone
these clones need a meaning
but this time no ones leaving
im not okay with this reality
ive lost all thats human in me
my demon's hold on too strong
ive been covered in scars for too long
im every broken home
im every shattered bone
Abel and cane are fading to gray
yes i love you
but you've hurt me too
i won't stop fighting till i fade away
My angel of death
im proud of you child
you've made it through a world
that has driven me wild
everything i did
every time i lied
everyone that hid
everytime ive died
everytime ive died
Im the demon that your world fears
im indestructible and you can't stop me
prowess and promise to tears
my words fall hard on deaf ears
my shadow walks with me
the only friend i have
the only one to listen
yet no one understands
in all my deepest dreams
im left with your screams
its only getting worse
fear the ashes of the fire
a fire of retribution
lit by a nations desire
for meddling absolution.
failing to me
would you wait for me
we're going down
the sky is coming down
All i can be
when im lost in me
together we can
but then again
against
the newer and better
that i can't be
baby you wouldnt believe me if i told you
that this isn't why im doing this, oh no
leave me and my decisions underground
no marker for me, for now
my lovers have gone
my life here is done
sunk in the hardwood
distraught if the knife could
run now,
get out
as free as can be
in the land of gasoline
I still can't comprehend everything thats ever chanced
lying with foreign lovers, fluttering tongues in an ambulance
cuz im bleeding on the sheets, and they're suffocating me
life holds on to my heart, so you can watch me fall apart
sweet hearts, and sweet lust
ive fallen for nothing
brandished a scar line
withholding still something
witless and friendless
i can't let it go
ill overcome your distress
if i die let me know
we were so close
ive looked into your eyes
and its like falling in the sea
and even tho i can hardly breathe
you know your saving me
laying in the grass under a sky so blue
this postcard love is all i have for you
with the sun in the sky, and a twinkle in your eye
i promise you now ill always be true
show me what forever is
please hold me like I never wanted
unfitting like me, loving this
stay till you'll never leave me behind
chorus:
Believe in you
because i know you'll follow through
To hide in a love as bright as the sun
and running away from all ive ever done
now turn it up!
scream it out
and its alll i think about
the running free
now just to be
your coming home to me
Im sorry for everything i meant to do
and im sorry im not always there for you
and now i guess it all depends
I'll just believe until it happens
[chorus]
And if i stumble tonight
its cuz im oh so right
when holding your hand
is the best dam thing
[chorus]
well this songs prolly gonna get trashed, i really don't have a theme here
in progress
Scream: Take Me From Here!
drawn in here, and dug into my arm
a tragedy I've seen and felt for Soo long
emotions killing me, cuz i can't set you free
Scream: Take Me From Here, Take Me,
No She Never Smiled At Me
To look into the seeds of time is something i can't do
no one gives a shit about me, but i know whats best for you
oohh, never asking what the tables hold,
oohh, my cards can't stop me from falling down below
Scream: fuck the world, my shoulders are sore
i won't hold you up, not anymore
ive forgiven the father and son
buried in what they have done
Im at, the end of my rope again
starving, dying to them again
please don't, ever stop trying
left here, Scream: screaming and crying
you can say your ok
but a prison holds its prisoners
left alone again
with iron bars and fears
scream: I Can't Trust you
I Can't Believe you
Never Forgive you
Forever Deceive you
Remember
what you are
ive forgotten
what I am
Remember
what we can
DO
I want to
PROVE
what i am
never
and forever
crashing down among the sand
lying
and hiding
doing all i ever can
leave me
ALL YOU
that is all you ever do
breach me
unleash me
everything is falling through
[chorus:]
never again will you find me like this
asleep in my fears, never defenseless
breathing yet lifeless, im trying to do this
in my own rue morgue, i can pull through this
im sorry, if i ever let you down
holding, on tight so i don't drown
leveled, in humility
stand up strong now, proud and free
why, did she have to be
his, everything,
when im right here
yea, im right here
why, did she have to be
the blood soaked mistress
of me counting down the days
scream:
Stand up, scream out
Do not fall down
truth and hold your brazen lies
to die and look towards the skies
(i figure this is a good time for a guitar solo XD)
[chorus]
i can see the lights
brought concrete and metal tonight
insidiously creeping burning concrete pyres
protective death to sell out liars
did your revenge taste as sweet as his tongue
the sweat and liquor of forgetting me in the moment
scream: underlying stress, doing nothing wrong
a bad decision, growing, gnawing, torment
[chorus]
scream:
never again, no,
never find me
breathing and bleeding
steel to the temple and deal
under construction
am i awake now or in another fever dream
is this wreck of a life as bad as it seems?
you warned me not to cut you out
i warned you not to hear my screams
there was never an option here
ive done all i can
there was never anything to fear
i saw you and i ran
im in a world with shades of gray
this was black, i cannot stay
requisition of my sanity
i know im alive, because i know i can bleed
whats done is done, and i cant take it back
but who says i would, im not far off track
you may think ive done you wrong
but when push comes to shove, im too far gone
i thought i could trust you, problems prevailed
set aside the prestige, crucified with 4 nails
sweat blood and sex, you and he in a bed
i cant take my eyes from what i see in my head.
FUCk this shit, im sick of it
this is no step in stride
i cant, not close, cant deal with it
not on the inside.
this ground that i tread
this land of the dead
i don't belong here
standing amongst what i dread
this automatic rifle is all that i know
but i guess i did this, i reap what i sow
im now an instrument of all i resent
coming for you as i hear your lament
i left my heart with a lover I've left
entering a life filled with death, rape, and theft
i don't understand why you left me here to die
would it terribly spite you if i chose to survive?
well this is our time to shine, this is why we were built
lets do what we came for, exterminate without guilt
a bullet to the mouth of every man, woman, child
we've got a country to go.. we could be here a while
13 coils and a knot at the top
one short drop and a sudden stop
hanging there from the tallest tree
a maiden we've come to call Annabel Lee
this is the life of the walking end
a mushroom cloud decorates my sky
come now, come now, join me friend
either way you die.
