Got a new phone
Have a great boyfriend
Great friends
a job
new glasses
summer plans, tattoo idea, and more goals.

things are going pretty good

getting my shit together pretty well here.
my goals sorted out.
such and such. nothing very exciting.
got my tattoo touched up. want mooore right meow
im just needing something more. a little more wonder
excitement and enthusiasm.
hm

fuck you get out of my dreams. you dont deserve to take up my dream time right now asshole

Mr. PeePee.

I had you since I was six years old, my obese cat. His body would fill the bathroom sink. He would cuddle with me for hours while i had a nap, and would lie flat on his back on the floor, all sprawled out like a starfish, but with much shorter legs. He could stll catch squirrels and mice. He squeeked like one, my Mr Peepers.
I will miss you every day. You're in your jungle forever, where you would want to be
<3
i love you

Are really the only reason i ever go on nex anymore.
so thanks guys
for your blogs.
haha
<3

I'm a fucking idiot for not going to Shambhala. WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHH. im freaking out.
/need to dance hard in Fractal with J Gib, Katey and Alyssa.
this isnt right. what the hell am i doing.
working ten days in a row, what the FUCK!?
ooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhh my goooooodddddddd
kill me

kinda
sorta
wondering

when its going to just be good enough.
because this cant go on forever. its a little unreasonable.
think about it

Feels like a great big pile of dissapointment.

I think that
I would feel a lot better if I could talk to you
Just for a moment.

</3

this is where.
we could just fall apart.
and the world will stop moving.
can you deal?

I've had this deathening feeling in me all day. And I don't know what it is.
I think something really bad is about to happen. maybe? worrying too much...

ablah,
whats going on here now? hm?
what the fuck.
just... life be normal for once.

I'm wondering if it's worth it.
I'm not ready to be hurt in any way shape or form.
I'm mentally super vulnerable at the moment, and the smallest things are bothering me when they shouldn't.
Maybe I should just save myself the risk
FML

Who can assist me with a ride to Shambhala? I will pay the costs of gas money for my part.

<3!

Okay, so, I'm now working at Dairy Queen, and also Quiznos for the next two weeks.
So, probably working 7 days a week for the next bit. I'm sorry if I seem to dissapear off the earth for a while.
But when I return, I'll be money bags muahahaha!




.....That silent sense of content that everyone gets, just dissapears as soon as the sun sets