we met at school and only saw eachother eyes. only till after when it was near the end of our highschool years, till then didnt we fist start to talk. We became good friends witch was only bound to get better. We dated at some point near the beginning and I had that feeling. The feeling everyone longs for. The one that fills the heart. I thought it could have been puppy love but I just knew it wasnt. I got up the courage to tell you that I fell in love you. That was a mistake because I only scared you away.
You ended up moving away and we rarely see eachother anymore. We have grown older then we once were and those feelings I once had for you, have never left me. They have only grown stronger. I'd do anything for you and always will. I will keep our friendship threw thick and thin. Sometimes I secretly wish you were single. I know I could make you happy. But what can a guy do. I hope who ever your with, they could just make you as happy as I could, if not more. As long as your happy, then so shall I be.
I have loved you, and I always will. I have never met girl like so, and I don't think I ever will. I hope to fall for some amazing lady as I did for you. I wont wait forever but there is always hope. That someday I may just have a Second chance. I'll be there for you any chance I can and hope that its me making you laugh and smile when your emotions have shattered. I will try my best. My best for you. ....

I looked at a flower without judgment or thought, love was there. A bird a river and a tree, still love in the silence of the present moment. I look upon man and the burden of the mind is deep. Always analyzing with a clouded head, I now instead feel with a heavy heart. I know judgment was not there for the other things because they were free of the individuality and complexity of the human mind. Realization occurred when I thought of all the issues of the world that weighed on me. The bird lived in the same world yet in a parallel one so liberating without conscious thought.



Although the chaos is very real, the burden of the issues is one that must be tackled within rather than externally. I thought I knew who I was, what I was, and the world for me was built around those definitions. You and I are not so different; we come from the same world of information and ideas that form our present thought. Although our memories have allowed for great enhancement in our world, ability to think in multiple times has aggrandized our burden as well. For every moment we look forward or back fear is there; fear of not having what we had, not getting what we want, getting what we had and did not want again. Simplicity is in the moment and for many the moment they think they want rarely comes. Our predefined definitions on how we should feel in any given moment trap us in memory. Always doing in the moments to get to a better moment.



I know now that the mind is only one tool in something far more. We are plugged into the earth as well as each other. My happiness is yours as yours is mine, my pain is yours and yours is mine. I now see that pain exists within many, although they do not see. We do not understand how to look in therefore we reflect our pain onto others and in judgment our mind allows us to recognize the pain however traps us from the realization that it is our own. To look within yourself is vital and a simplistic task; however it was never taught. In school we were taught to grow the mind, to build knowledge. Never truly taught to be conscious of our bodies outside of what we could see and clearly feel; never taught to look at the space in a room that allows the room to be. Never shown true compassion for one another without judgment. Never allowed to be who you are for the world around us by some narrow definition tells us what we should be. Addictions in many forms can be seen in the masses such as food, drugs alcohol, sex, and anything else used to distract our minds from running our lives; deep down our bodies know that that is the root of all the insanity and if it can only be distracted for a moment you could have peace. I’ve learn that the reason I could never break free of those addictions that hung over me was because they were not the problem but rather the symptom of the problem. Find yourself and the symptoms simply fall away.



To recognize these ideas is to bring balance back to our earth. Too long have we stood apart as individuals afraid of who we are by someone else’s definition. I am me and I stand tall with love in my heart, I know it’s in you to, I feel it always when I look into your eyes.



Be Well

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet Death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not to long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be sodramatic, but it is quite true. Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life.Don't be traped by dogma wich is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise see of others'opinions drown out the inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. they somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.