When you take a step back, you see all the answers,
you realize that person, that thing, that moment you
were obsessing over really wasnt that special.
dont let your emotions get to you because we are all young
and waiting to grow up, of course were all gonna slip a
little and break down but that is what makes us all human!
keep a smile on because either way you win, its gonna either
make others smile or piss someone off who is trying to bring you
down. Who cares about the haters, in a few years are they
really going to matter? no . the ones that matter are the ones
that no matter what are always there !
LIVE LIFE LIKE YOU WERE DYING !!! [/i]
you realize that person, that thing, that moment you
were obsessing over really wasnt that special.
dont let your emotions get to you because we are all young
and waiting to grow up, of course were all gonna slip a
little and break down but that is what makes us all human!
keep a smile on because either way you win, its gonna either
make others smile or piss someone off who is trying to bring you
down. Who cares about the haters, in a few years are they
really going to matter? no . the ones that matter are the ones
that no matter what are always there !
LIVE LIFE LIKE YOU WERE DYING !!! [/i]
They tell me im lucky, they tell me i have a great
and loving family. but do they see behind these four walls?
Sure, i'm lucky to have this house, to have the things i have
but i would give it all away for a family who loves.
i would rather live in a cardboard box then have to
deal with this daily. . i come upstairs and the first thing
that happens is i see an empty place , cold, but i can
still hear the screaming , but then it only becomes real
she walks around looking for something to bitch about and
of course.... its me. she bitches to and at me everyday
and i can only hold back for so long
he asks me why i dont like her, he asks me why i want my own
place but he doesnt see the way she truly treats me.
ill never be good enough
i just want to leave.
and loving family. but do they see behind these four walls?
Sure, i'm lucky to have this house, to have the things i have
but i would give it all away for a family who loves.
i would rather live in a cardboard box then have to
deal with this daily. . i come upstairs and the first thing
that happens is i see an empty place , cold, but i can
still hear the screaming , but then it only becomes real
she walks around looking for something to bitch about and
of course.... its me. she bitches to and at me everyday
and i can only hold back for so long
he asks me why i dont like her, he asks me why i want my own
place but he doesnt see the way she truly treats me.
ill never be good enough
i just want to leave.
when you look back on the past
and think of all the places you
messed up and things you could have
changed, things that would have
made things easier in the long run
i know we are just kids and were suposed
to make mistakes and learn, but
what happens when your ready to become
an adult, what happens when your ready
to start your life and settle down
but your stuck in this body who is seen
as a kid who doesn't understand life yet.
what sets us back is the lies and rumors
its the way people think and the way they act
i just wish i could speed up time or at least
see what is next for me because this wall that
was finally torn down is being bult again
and isnt coming down because these tears i shed
are ones that i dont want to be shedding
they just dont understand.
and think of all the places you
messed up and things you could have
changed, things that would have
made things easier in the long run
i know we are just kids and were suposed
to make mistakes and learn, but
what happens when your ready to become
an adult, what happens when your ready
to start your life and settle down
but your stuck in this body who is seen
as a kid who doesn't understand life yet.
what sets us back is the lies and rumors
its the way people think and the way they act
i just wish i could speed up time or at least
see what is next for me because this wall that
was finally torn down is being bult again
and isnt coming down because these tears i shed
are ones that i dont want to be shedding
they just dont understand.
5HTP.
Caffeine pills.
Sleeping pills.
Kinda getting me through life right now.
Finally losing weight. Finally letting myself do things I've been scared to do. I need to stop being so goddamn stubborn, and I need to stop being so closed and out of character. Half the things I do aren't even me, it's just a cover. I'm done with this shit, it's time for a change.
Caffeine pills.
Sleeping pills.
Kinda getting me through life right now.
Finally losing weight. Finally letting myself do things I've been scared to do. I need to stop being so goddamn stubborn, and I need to stop being so closed and out of character. Half the things I do aren't even me, it's just a cover. I'm done with this shit, it's time for a change.
I don't want you to go.
I don't want you to leave.
I don't want you to leave.
R.I.P Lewis.
I miss you,
and I've constantly found myself thinking about you, and now I very much regret not getting back in touch. You were an amazing boyfriend, and an amazing guy.
I loved you, I love you.
Rest in peace, love.
I hope you find happiness. You deserve it.
have never been so upset with myself... I hurt the one I loved the most and I am paying for it.... I really don't want you to leave... I love you so much.. If I lost you I dont know what I could or would do with myself.... I love the life we have built each other.... I love the life I dreamt of having with you, I can't think of what my life will be with out you... \
im so sorry
im so sorry
ESCAPE THE FATE.
ATTACK ATTACK
THE WORD ALIVE.
looooveee ♥
ATTACK ATTACK
THE WORD ALIVE.
looooveee ♥
The only thing I ever do on Fridays is stay in my room,
why must I have no friends?
why must I have no friends?