CHARface;; - 18, Female, Nanaimo
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I'm actually so frustrated with this Dead Saints stuff. Like, I understand that it's a pain in the ass, because the show was originally set in Vic, but I didn't see any Nanaimo kids complaining that we didn't have a date to begin with. We were all perfectly content with bussing down to Vic for a sick show, because we've accepted that the scene here is dead. But, Vic kids are possibly being offered a shuttle bus, and they're being offered free shit, and they're still complaining. Nanaimo isn't that bad. I honestly prefer it. Hardcore dancing is a joke here, lol. I lived in Vic, that's where I started going to shows. I know both scenes. I saw the one in Vic die, and the scene in Nanaimo still thrived. They've just switched roles. CB Booking has done an amazing job in Victoria with the scene there. I admire them for bringing it back. I have a lot of respect for them. I'm happy that they took the time out of their lives, to go to every possible length they could to make this show happen. It's just irritating that a lot of the Vic kids aren't even supporting the work that CB put into it. Not to mention the last minute details Candlefish must have gone to. I'm happy there is still an island date. And selfishly, yeah, I am happy that it's in Nanaimo, because it gives hope that the people who show up for this show, will enjoy themselves, and come to more. We haven't had a REALLY good show here in so long. The last one with an amazing turnout, was yet another Candlefish production, because Evan actually knows what he's doing, unlike everyone else who has tried and failed here. Shows are the one thing I can always look forward to, and it's been that way fro so long. It's the one place where we're all happy, and we all forget about all the stress we're under. And we're all together, having good times. I love them more than anything. I don't want to see them go.

None of this even made any sense because I'm so annoyed.
And no, I'm not perfect, and no, Nanaimo kids aren't SO MUCH BETTER THEN VIC KIDS. I love my friends from Victoria.
 

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Uhg.
I just wish everything would just go back to normal.
I want everyone to be happy again.


 

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And now, to facebook again.
Deleted everyone I don't talk to on nex, and the people who never go on, lol.
I don't know why I don't just delete it, because nobody uses it anymore.

I know that nobody cares about nex, and it's not a big deal, but I thought I'd just
make it clear. The people I had on here, that aren't actually my friends, aka; I
never ever talk to you. Ever. It's nothing personal, I just post my personal shit on
here, and I don't feel like sharing that with the entire world. That's what twitter is for.
 

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Suffokate all day.


My heart is broken over Ricky Hoover.
I'm glad that he's leaving the band on good terms,
but to me, he is Suffokate, and the band is now pretty
much dead forever. I hate it when band members leave
so much. Hopefully he's happy in life, and does something
else just as amazing and perfect as Suffokate. </3

"As of yesterday I announced I will no longer be in the band Suffokate. This has nothing to do with the fact I’m currently going to school. This was a mutual decision, both the band and I feel this is in the best interest for everyone.

Over the last 4 years I have done and seen things I never would have gotten the chance to if not for the band. These have been the best years of my life and I won’t ever forget all the great memories and all the amazing fans. I am very sad to let this all go but could no longer continue due to other reasons I won’t get into. I have no bad feelings or ill will towards the band and will always have love for them and the music I was fortunate enough to help create. I have poured my all and given everything I have into these last two albums and will always be grateful for them and everyone who supported me.

No matter what happens the guys in Suffokate will always be my [brothers]. I will do whatever i can to help them out. They are some of the greatest people I have ever met and I’m truly thankful I’ve gotten to do this with them. This isn’t the end for me musically, I plan on doing more in the near future. I have some personal things I need to take care of and priorities to work out in my life before i can do that. I will always have a passion for music and lyrical expression and will never stop writing. Music will always be in my life and a part of who I am. I’m very excited to see whats in store for me so be on the lookout for my future musical endeavors.

To the fans: you are the reason I’m still here and you have helped me just as much as you say I have helped you. I’m extremely fortunate that I’ve been able to have such a strong connection with you all. If it wasn’t for you guys I wouldn’t be who I am today. I will still have my personal twitter, tumblr and instagram under the name @iamrickyhoover so check those for any updates of what I’m doing"
- Ricky Hoover
 

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Things you should know about me, and if you don't, you're an idiot.
  • My boyfriend, my friends and my family, ALL come before me.
    I try really fucking hard to make the people in my life happy. I'm
    a bitch, and I know that, but I'm not selfish. Everything I do there
    is a fucking reason for.

  • I've become damn good at hiding my emotions.

  • I was forced to grow up too fast and thrown into the real world.
    I've lived it, and I understand it. I've gotten damn fucking good at
    reading people. I'm not an idiot. Don't take me for one.

  • I don't believe in second chances anymore. Fuck you, if you fuck up.

  • Music is the one thing that I truly believe in.

  • I'm harsh. You either deal with it, or get the fuck out.
 

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2 days until I am finally done highschool. Crazy.
I honestly didn't think I was going to do it. I'm
3 assignments and 1 exam away. A year or so
late, but fuck that. I'm finishing. I'm so proud
of myself for finally figuring my shit out.

And now, I can start my life. I'm going job hunting
and waiting for my acceptance letter into VIU. I've
got my fingers crossed for that, but I'm not getting
my hopes up. 3 months until I turn 19 and am finally
out of ministry care. It's scary, because I literally
have nothing to fall back on, but now I can really be
an adult, and really live my life. I'm responsible for
my portion of the food, the rent, and the bills. That's
not something I ever thought I'd be happy about, but
I have a place in the world. I have importance. I have
a reason to do something. I have things in life to hold
on to. I have reasons to finish school, get a good job
and get a career. I have things to look forward to.
I have a life to live. It's going to be stressful as fuck
for awhile, as it has been, but everything will work out.
I'm excited.
 

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Cobwebs.
"How many years have passed me by? Since I've stopped to take
a look at all the changes in my life. So many friends have come and
gone but all those summer nights still burn inside my lungs. I hope
you will not forget this either. Forever. And I bet I'm not the only one
who thinks I'm stuck in the past with all the friends I'm losing. I regret
not holding on closely. The past it the past, and I'm letting it kill me."
 

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Merp.
Who even hacks people on MSN and Nex anymore.
Loser.
 

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(:
Need new music.
No dubstep or electronic, please.
Unless it's similar to InnerPartySystem, etc.
Go.
 

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^_^
I love my life, I love my life, I love my life.
Everything is going amazing.
 

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:)
"Elysse can't come to the phone right now, cause she's gettin fuckin' railed."
 

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jngrlnh.
Sometimes I wish I could just start over. Not get rid of the people
in my life, but make it possible for them to forget the old me. I have
new morals, a new outlook, and a different perspective then I did back
when most of you were getting to know me, and I know that it's difficult
to get past that person. I have a hard time getting past the people I used
to know as well. We've all grown. We've all changed. We've all polished up
our acts. We view things differently now. We've grown up. I just wish our past
selves didn't have to drag down the people we've become. Maybe one day.
 

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2 years down and a life time to go. <3
I never thought I would get this this point. I never thought that I would be where I am today. I shut the world out and I left myself to wither away in the dark. I didn’t trust anyone, and if I made the mistake of letting them get close to me, I would push them away like they never even mattered. I was so tired of the world shitting on me, I never gave anybody the chance to get close to me, to hurt me. And then there was you. You were something special, you were something different. You were something real. You’ve got the kindest heart, and you took my heart that had been beaten and broken, and you mended it. You made me feel beautiful. In reality, you make me beautiful. You made me feel like the only girl in the world, but most of all, you made me feel like I was worth something. I think I would miss you even if we’d never met. There was always something missing, I just didn’t know what it was. But it was you. You showed me what love was, and I never thought I could feel it. I fell so hard for you, I fell so fast, and it scared me. Despite how hard I tried to push you away and how hard I tried to let you go, I couldn’t live without you. Until that moment, I’d never had anything that I’d fight so hard for. I fought against myself, my friends, my family, and everything that was holding me back from being with you. Every night, I had to hear your voice. I had to have some connection with you. You were the only light in my life. I opened up to you, and I let you in. I decided to take one last final chance, and I gave you the opportunity to hurt me, but you took that opportunity and changed it into a chance to show me a whole new world.

Two years ago today, I was running into your arms… and we collided. At the moment, you were mine, and I was yours. Nothing else mattered. We were the only two people in the world. When your lips met mine, I melted; I had been waiting so long. I had missed you so much. My heart was no longer broken, because I was no longer aching. I had you by my side, and I’ve had you by my side ever since. Every single step we take, we take it together. The good and the bad, we’re there, and we stick through it. We wade through our mistakes together. You’re the one constant thing in my life that never changes, because I could never stop loving you. I knew from that moment on that one cold December, that I was in love with you. I had butterflies crawling up my spine, and there was nothing that I could do to stop them. And you know what? Every time you kiss me, I still feel the same way.

I cannot believe how lucky I am, waking up next to you every day. Every morning you look at me the same way you did, the day that I fell in love with you. You are the reason that I wake up in the morning. No matter what happens that day, I know everything is going to be okay, because I’ll end the day in your arms, and start the next day there. You make everything okay. You make everything worth living through.

Everything you hate about yourself is just another thing for me to love. Your so called “imperfections” are what make you, you. You are literally perfect. I’m in love with every single thing about you. Yeah, even your curly hair. Everything about you takes my breath away. The tiny dimples the compliment the cutest smile in the world, and that grin you get when you laugh. Your laugh is the most wonderful thing. It is impossible to be even the slightest bit unhappy when I hear your laugh, because you’re just filled with joy, and you can hear it. Your eyes outshine the stars. I love the quirky little jokes you make. I love our tickle wars, and all the weird things that we do. I love the way you kiss my cheek every morning, before you go out for your smoke. I love the way you pop my cheeks when I blow them up. Or when we both do it, and pop them in our kissing game. I love that I can distract you with my ninja kisses. I love that you’ll stay up all night when I’ve had a bad dream, even when you’re super tired and just want to die. Uhg. I love everything about you. You’re so perfect. I love that we can be weird as fuck around each other, and it’s perfectly normal, and we don’t judge each other for it. You’re more goofy then romantic, and it’s the cutest thing ever. Romance feels so awkward, but nothing about you is awkward. Everything about you is genuine and real.

I love the feeling of being anchored to you, because you’re one of the strongest people I know. You keep me standing tall. I’m forever devoted to you. You make me stronger. I love that the second you pull me in and embrace me, every bad feeling vanishes, simply because you’re holding me. Falling asleep in your arms, with my head on your chest, listening to your heart beat… that’s all I ask for. That’s all I ever want. I could spend the rest of my life without speaking, as long as I hear your heart beating. I am so thankful for every moment that I get to spend with you. There is nobody else on this planet that could ever make me feel the way I feel for you. You’re the only one for me.

This last year has been a test for us, but we’ve made it through every struggle that comes our way. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, and I have so much faith in us. Every day, you remind me that you’re here. You remind me that you’re not going to run away. You’ll always be by my side. Do you know how much that means to me? To know that I will always have you gives me all the security in the world. Without you, I am nothing. I know who I am without you, and I never want to be that person again. I promise that I will never leave you. I promise to spend my life making you happy. I promise to love you until the day I die. Jordan, you mean more than the world to me. You’re all that I think about every second, of every minute, of every day. You’re my best friend, my boyfriend… you’re everything. I love you so much. You will never break my heart, and I promise you the same. I promise you forever. “I wouldn’t ever let you fall down”
 
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You're fucking pathetic.
 

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The upsides of 2011. <3

 

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