I never thought I would get this this point. I never thought that I would be where I am today. I shut the world out and I left myself to wither away in the dark. I didn’t trust anyone, and if I made the mistake of letting them get close to me, I would push them away like they never even mattered. I was so tired of the world shitting on me, I never gave anybody the chance to get close to me, to hurt me. And then there was you. You were something special, you were something different. You were something real. You’ve got the kindest heart, and you took my heart that had been beaten and broken, and you mended it. You made me feel beautiful. In reality, you make me beautiful. You made me feel like the only girl in the world, but most of all, you made me feel like I was worth something. I think I would miss you even if we’d never met. There was always something missing, I just didn’t know what it was. But it was you. You showed me what love was, and I never thought I could feel it. I fell so hard for you, I fell so fast, and it scared me. Despite how hard I tried to push you away and how hard I tried to let you go, I couldn’t live without you. Until that moment, I’d never had anything that I’d fight so hard for. I fought against myself, my friends, my family, and everything that was holding me back from being with you. Every night, I had to hear your voice. I had to have some connection with you. You were the only light in my life. I opened up to you, and I let you in. I decided to take one last final chance, and I gave you the opportunity to hurt me, but you took that opportunity and changed it into a chance to show me a whole new world.

Two years ago today, I was running into your arms… and we collided. At the moment, you were mine, and I was yours. Nothing else mattered. We were the only two people in the world. When your lips met mine, I melted; I had been waiting so long. I had missed you so much. My heart was no longer broken, because I was no longer aching. I had you by my side, and I’ve had you by my side ever since. Every single step we take, we take it together. The good and the bad, we’re there, and we stick through it. We wade through our mistakes together. You’re the one constant thing in my life that never changes, because I could never stop loving you. I knew from that moment on that one cold December, that I was in love with you. I had butterflies crawling up my spine, and there was nothing that I could do to stop them. And you know what? Every time you kiss me, I still feel the same way.

I cannot believe how lucky I am, waking up next to you every day. Every morning you look at me the same way you did, the day that I fell in love with you. You are the reason that I wake up in the morning. No matter what happens that day, I know everything is going to be okay, because I’ll end the day in your arms, and start the next day there. You make everything okay. You make everything worth living through.

Everything you hate about yourself is just another thing for me to love. Your so called “imperfections” are what make you, you. You are literally perfect. I’m in love with every single thing about you. Yeah, even your curly hair. Everything about you takes my breath away. The tiny dimples the compliment the cutest smile in the world, and that grin you get when you laugh. Your laugh is the most wonderful thing. It is impossible to be even the slightest bit unhappy when I hear your laugh, because you’re just filled with joy, and you can hear it. Your eyes outshine the stars. I love the quirky little jokes you make. I love our tickle wars, and all the weird things that we do. I love the way you kiss my cheek every morning, before you go out for your smoke. I love the way you pop my cheeks when I blow them up. Or when we both do it, and pop them in our kissing game. I love that I can distract you with my ninja kisses. I love that you’ll stay up all night when I’ve had a bad dream, even when you’re super tired and just want to die. Uhg. I love everything about you. You’re so perfect. I love that we can be weird as fuck around each other, and it’s perfectly normal, and we don’t judge each other for it. You’re more goofy then romantic, and it’s the cutest thing ever. Romance feels so awkward, but nothing about you is awkward. Everything about you is genuine and real.

I love the feeling of being anchored to you, because you’re one of the strongest people I know. You keep me standing tall. I’m forever devoted to you. You make me stronger. I love that the second you pull me in and embrace me, every bad feeling vanishes, simply because you’re holding me. Falling asleep in your arms, with my head on your chest, listening to your heart beat… that’s all I ask for. That’s all I ever want. I could spend the rest of my life without speaking, as long as I hear your heart beating. I am so thankful for every moment that I get to spend with you. There is nobody else on this planet that could ever make me feel the way I feel for you. You’re the only one for me.

This last year has been a test for us, but we’ve made it through every struggle that comes our way. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, and I have so much faith in us. Every day, you remind me that you’re here. You remind me that you’re not going to run away. You’ll always be by my side. Do you know how much that means to me? To know that I will always have you gives me all the security in the world. Without you, I am nothing. I know who I am without you, and I never want to be that person again. I promise that I will never leave you. I promise to spend my life making you happy. I promise to love you until the day I die. Jordan, you mean more than the world to me. You’re all that I think about every second, of every minute, of every day. You’re my best friend, my boyfriend… you’re everything. I love you so much. You will never break my heart, and I promise you the same. I promise you forever. “I wouldn’t ever let you fall down”