its just making me more eager.

she's the villain in this story.

LOVE;

it USED to have a BIG meaning,
that was only said with passion.
it used to be a word that would take breaths away,
that people craved to have.
this word,
has been abused over the years.
this word,
is just some letters now,
that people feel obligated to say when they are dating someone.
it's horrible,
and i pity that word.
that word should be cherished.
"i love you" doesn't mean anything anymore,
the passion to that word has died,
the beauty in the way people say it has ceased from exsistance.
FOURTEEN boys have told me they loved me this year ( from summer 07', to now ).
and if one more boy tells me he loves me,
i'll snap.
people have abused this word to the feeling of disgrace.
instead of love being the farthest thing from hate,
its now in the same book, on the same chapter, on the same page, in the same paragraph, in the same sentence, just a couple of words to seperate them,
how much closer can they get?

I wrote this,
if you want to repost it,
go for it.
and if youre a guy who has told me he's loved me this year,
and youre reading this?
next time think about what love really is,
and if your feel this way about me for the next couple of years,
because i'm sick of being polite,
and if i hear it come out of your mouth again?
i'll clap you in the face.
their is only ONE boy,
who can say he truely loves me.
and twenty bucks says?
youre not him.
fucking idiots.

I think boys should stop liking me kay?
I'm not looking,
and I'm DEFINATLY not desperate.
Might as well just stop trying,
because you're not going to get anywhere with me.
kay?
thanks.