There's no more time to be wasted,
cause I've wasted my whole life.

I can't even remember the last time something ANYTHING worked out the way I wanted it too. I grow more hopeless, cynical and downtrodden day after day. THe worst part is I know some of you feel the same and understand but when the time comes to actually sit and talk I put on my mask and pretend nothing bothers me and Im infallible. I've walked all the way to the edge and peaked over and what I saw destroyed me, the rest of my life, no matter how short or long, will be spent trying to regain the openness, confidence and pride I once had around/in other people.