I finally got my first tatty lol ...and its gr8..best first one to get...my daughters name lol...pic on profile...its gr8 lol ...well l8er

So...
Matt is down now YAY! and keeping my job for a bit and dealing with Quinns bullshit but w.e ... umm, going to see family for a week, found out my grandma is not doing to good and found a lost long relative who is my auntie... so ya lol idk ... ttyl

Well, I broke up with my bf cuz I couldnt take the bullshit ne more. Yes I love him but im not gonna take the bullshit. Love only goes so far and thats not putting up with Emotional, Mental and verbal abuse...
I wanna get outta this city but kinda hard wen the person u need help from the most, wont come right now...
Well I think im gonna be quitin my job here pretty soon and just gonna find a way to go somewhere, then find a vehicle and come back for my stuff...
Well so ya Idk...we will see I guess...

I have a job now and a house and a bf. But I dont think its gonna last much longer bcuz we have been fighting way to much for me to handle and im not gonna take it anymore. Im tired of being walked all over and gettin treated like shit. I dont get nothing from him, but he expects everything from me, well gues what buddy, it works both ways not just one, so shit starts changing or its OVER!...im tired of not feelin he loves me, I dont get no affection or nothing, we go out and its like he avoids gettin seen as a couple. I want someone who isnt afraid to go out with me and have a good time and b together. I dont care how cheesy it sounds, but I love a guy who knows how to give affection and holds my hand all the time and says I love you. shit like that . I dont think I ask for much...And for you Matt, I love you and if shit doesnt change, you will be the FIRST person I call. U mean alot to me and TY for being with me every step of the way, it means alot....Well, thats all for now...*PeAcE*

I feel so lonely most of the time, seeing other couples together makes me cry inside so no one can see how I feel.
I know I have my daughter, but its not the same wit a relationship, no one understands that.
When will it be MY turn to be with someone who will love me and my daughter for who we are and want to be with us forever.
So tired of not having ne one, ready to just up and run away where no one will find us....
Well...ya .. dont know ne more...peace

Hoping to go to Swift for a couple days on the 20th....See family and friends hopfully lol ...only there till about the 24th...so ya not much time but enough lol ...if I didnt have to work id be there longer lol so hope to see most of my friends...well peace...

New yr...was going good....but i dont think so ne more...
Mhm bday is gonna be in 4 days(Jan 4)...shitty also cuz none of my friends are comin...
Mhm and ya ...I dont know wat 2 do ne more ...

FINALLY got back onto my Nex ARGGG!! it was making me mad lol
I PASSED MY GR 12 GED,...Yay me hehe....
I also cut my hair for the first time EVER cuz I am starting the new yr fresh lol....so ya haha

Im sso BLAH I dont know what to do ne more....................BLAHHHHHHHHHHHH

If he wants to keep me the way he wants to be with me/ he better move down here soon........Which means this month. He has a place and can get jobs here and everything he just NEEDS to get movin.....

Well there is this guy here who I am good friends with and he is starting to fall for me. But then I have someone in PA who wants to be with me to and I dont know what to do ne more im so torn u know......
the one in PA is my bestfriend and I love him to death and he wants to be with me but its kinda hard wen he's out there and then there is this guy here and they both have kids to so they know how it is and shit and they both have had rough times to so ya I dont know ne more.......HELP!!!!!!!!!!

GEEZ well OBVIOUSLY he doesnt know how much im likeing him.....he wont come out here and he has a place and everything. lotsa jobs here and he STILL wont come...well I dont know what else to do...

Well he's not staying out here now so Oh well .....No long distant relationship for me ......

Well now.....
My "bf" he knew how much I liked him and that and he knows I dont do long distant relationships so he said he was gonna move here. He had a place and a job and everything. Well, once again I guess I was wrong about someone I liked......
Thats fine, cuz I know he has family and that where he's at so im not gonna make him do something he doesnt wanna do......I think part of the problem was also my kid but thats ok cuz Im not gonna force him to be in a relationship with me cuz I know he doesnt wanna deal with something like that till hes ready.....
I liked U alot U know Sheldon, but I dont do Long Distant relationships so Im srry......
I want u to be happy where u are and keep doin what u love to do, I will always be here for u no matter what. Maybe it Wasnt meant to be, but u know what thats ok cuz friends are better than nothing right?¿?
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There is this guy, he means alot to me. Hes an amazin person. He makes me smile, laugh, blush, lol u name it ......
I dont know what it is but im happy wen talking to him and I guess I never really saw it in the beginnin cuz once again im BLIND.......Well maybe something will change and I can FINALLY have someone who cares, but im just scared something will happen ALL over again like it has before, but I guess we'll have to wait and see......
Hopeing he will be moving here in with us since the other one's not here ne more, so it'll be fun lol....
Well . I guess thats all for now.....PeAcE