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I Need a Guy
Who is twisted
Who takes a moment from his busy day to watch a butterfly fly
Who looks at you with intensity and passion
Who is unafraid to hold anything back
Including feelings and thoughts
Who is intellectual and open-minded
Who knows when it's time to play
When it's time to talk
When it's time to stop and just think
Someone who is stable
Who is dependable
And expects the same from everyone around them
Who does not accept the negative thought spiral
Someone who has broken free of it before
Someone who treasures independance...
Honor...
Loyalty...
Someone who knows their girlfriend is just that;
Their friend and ally
Someone who demands excellence
And gives back equally...
Do you know this person?

~I've recently ( pronounced: five years ago ) developed a fascination with the S&M/bondage scene. I have a tattoo, my zodiac and planetary symbols (virgo/mercury), an industrial piercing, and a lip ring. I also have my bridge pierced. Soon I will get the rest of my alterations done. (Two more lip rings. A labret. Three eyebrow piercings. Two more tattoos; armbands.)

~Oh right, I'm not bi-sexual, I'm just open-minded. Thought I should clear that up in advance. I enjoy talking to most anyone, but women tend to be way too premenstrual for me to talk to without telling them to shut up and stop bitching. Sorry.

~I swear I'm really not insane. I can be normal, I can be mature, but life just isn't any fun if everyone is the same. Step out of your goddamn comfort zone already.

~I'm very blatant and I tell people what I'm thinking when asked. I'm an enigma to everyone including myself. I constantly become a paradox to myself.

~I'm not easily lead or controlled. If you wish to control me, eventually you will learn that it is indeed you being controlled. Dont get me wrong...if someone strikes me as being in the same mindframe as myself, I'm much easier to work with. It takes something special for me to have a comfort zone with people.

~I value my freedom.

~I am a feminist. Not one of those bitches. I believe that females are exactly equal. We should pay for dates, we should open the door for our male friends, we should not expect upper class treatment, we should be equal. In all ways. This does not mean men are there to "make up for past indescrecions", this means we should start anew without the gender gap.

~I have colorful language. I swear a lot.

~Anyone who meets me tends to describe me with words like "distant", "spacey", etc. I'm really not trying to be a bitch, I just stare into space when my mind wanders. I'm not ignoring you, my mind is just trying to turn itself off and cocoon me in.

~I get along with a vast majority of people. As long as you can get past the fact that I dress funny and I say weird things, you should be in the clear. I don't judge people on anything besides their personality. If you are capable of being a decent human being, then you should be fine.

~I am usually the moderator in arguements among my friends. If you ever ask me to pick sides, I'm gonna walk away and go have a beer. Why? Because I side with the beer.

ASSEMBLAGE 23:
~Document~This is a document; To prove that I was here; This is a document; To prove I was at all; And when my voice ceases to be; Will the echo still ring loudly?; When there's nothing left of me; Will my memory still go on?...Too late; We have lost the dawn; The signals loud and clear; But the transmitter's gone

ZEROMANCER:
~Famous Last Words~You never see my make the same mistake twice; You never see a tear; Coming out of these eyes; You never see me quit; See me disengage; And you never see me spit in your face; Out of rage; Famous Last Words

~I like art, I like drawing, I like reading and writing. I like things that make you think, and people that do likewise. I like philosophy and religion, astrology and biology; I like to learn new things. English and science are my favorite subjects, and I like hanging out at the bar. I like mystical and mythological things too. Imagination is good to have. I like BDSM and modern vampirism. I have a blood fetish.

~As far as music goes, my favorite genre is industrial, otherwise I like punk, rock, metal, classical, jazz, old pop (late 80's, early 90's) and most alternative. Can't stand country, I spent enough time in that hick town that I despise country. Favorite bands at this moment are: Stabbing Westward, Celldweller, Assemblage 23, Zeromancer, Gravity Kills, Mindless Self indulgence, Nine Inch Nails, Moist, Collective Soul, KMFDM, 30 Seconds from Mars, Green Day (vintage stuff, Dookie Album), VNV Nation, Skinny Puppy, Econoline Crush, and Silverchair. Personally I'll listen to almost anything from AndOne to Zeromancer. I love my music.

~I admire people who hold virtues like dependability and honor in high respects. If someone can not count on your word, then you shouldn't give it. Society has come up with enough reasons not to trust your neighbors; why should we have to fear our own friends?

~I like a wide variety of people, especially the goths and boys in makeup in general. Don't really know why persay, but people are attracted to some wierd stuff.

~Intolerance, greed, assumption, ignorance and all things that result from them. Remove your head from your arse people.

~I hate drugs. If they control your life, please don't talk to me. There's nothing worse than having "friends" who are completely undependable because they are too busy killing brain cells and ruining their future. There is a limit to everything. Don't exceed it.

~Country music-please see above. Nothing big against it, it just all sounds the same to me now.

~People who have not yet learned to speak the english language when they have graduated from high school. Please remember your speech gives an impression of who you are. Being unable to spell simple words isn't a good thing.

~My biggest pet peeve is those of you who have read most of the above information, and you for some god aweful reason think that I intend to chain you to a wall and bleed you dry. Because this day in age, not only is that illegal, it's also just plain stupid I refrain from doing such things. Without permission. I'd like to believe I can be a nice person, I fight for my friends, but I don't take bullshit well.

~So if you can't wrap your mind around the fact that good friends are hard to find, and the ones that are busy being cool will never really be there for you, then honestly just leave me alone.

~If you think you are capable of being an adult and understanding people are different in every way, continue to leave me a message.

~I hate, hatehatehate *despise* fake lisps. Please, if you weren't born with the lisp, don't use it...please.