Love is the issue on mind this evening, the fuck is it? Does it exist? Or is it just a fairy tale we tell our children and decide to live for ourselves?

I've certainly never felt love towards anyone, in the "true love" of Cinderella or Snow White sense in the friendship or family ways, nor in the relationships of the modern age, only the fondness and liking of the rare individual. Did we evolve beyond it or does it not exist at all? Animals don't feel love, they feel the need for survival and want of sex, they don't fall in love. They just fuck. What the hell makes humans so different? Why are we so much more emotionally driven and compassionate to one another that we develop a comparatively spiritual bond with one another, why do we need such bonds? Why do they fall apart so easily?

Am I just heartless and sealed off? Tainted beyond my years? Or too immature to understand the mindset of productive members of society? Maybe, but even if that is the case I'm still human, shouldn't I be entitled to the same feeling of devotion to one another as anyone else? Shouldn't I be capable of falling in love?
Does anyone actually fall in love? Or do we just settle with someone barely tolerable like my parents did?

I'm sick of being alone, sick of living without love, sick of being depraved of what I want and sick of being granted that which I need, apart from "Love."

I don't know anything anymore.

Just thinking out loud. ._.