_-~-Shit head-~-_
+ Lettin' me use his 220w light
+ Gettin' seeds
/Sprout
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\Grow
.Time.I$.Money.
Kay you know what
im done
done with bullshit, done with stress, done with being blamed with shit I didn't even do.
Done with cops, done with shit going down like twenty 4 seven, done with fucking up.
I'm done with everything, bullshit, bitches, stress, occused, shit goin down, done with some guys, lies, everything.
So fuck all this bullshit
Oh how about im done with life too yeah.
Fuck all the bee S.
/ - Blamed
\ -Bullshit
/ -Drama
\ - Cops?
/ - Stress
\ - People
/ - In T
Life Always Has It's Stupid Ups n Downs...
Kay look I just don't wanna date right now okay
and I don't wanna date you I don't like you in that way
just a friend and that's it,nothing more
and that's how it's gunna stay.
There's just stuff going on right now and I wanna live it up insted of being
brought down.
So stop asking me the same questions over and over cause it's starting to get annyoing and adding more stress then I already have.
I am not going to give it a chance cause it's just not worth the pain, and other reasons.
Not trying to be a bitch or anything, I just don't wanna date for awhile,
so in other words
stop trying to hook up with me cause
I'm not giving it a chance and I just don't wanna date right now
and it's gunna stay like this for a long time.
So get this through your head.
FINALLY Found My Play Boy Zippo Lighter After 7 Months yeyeah!
--Today
/ Goin to the yards
/ Gunna work on the quad
/ Youth tonight?
/ Tabb
/ Jay
/ Smokes
/ Chill
--Friday
/ Spendin nigth at buddies
/ Oh man good times
/ Knowing us we'll made it fun
/ Wacky Tabacky
Jess Is A Cocky Marfuckah But That What Makes Him Funneh!!
So on
/ Well fun at first
/ WOW! that was a real cold move man fuck you
/ Yea kno what i'm glad you got hit more than once you diserved it
/ Your a fuckin doushe so yeah it's not even worth it assclown
/ Yea other fuckers, maggz u kno who... yeah you can't rlly call someone a slut if their still a verggie dumbshit so yeah fuck you too.
/ Man there were so many ppl cryin that night like woah worst yough niight ever
-- Wow youth sucked shit asss!
I'm sorry for what happend
Imma miss him too
yeah I'm pree upset about it also
imma miss the way he always calls me "bud"
imma miss his personality
imma miss the way he always cheers me up
imma miss us goofing off
imma miss the way he's always there
imma miss my buddeh
hes a great guy, full of fun and laughter.
Atleast he'll come back
5 years, hopefully 6 months
yeah this sucks, it hurts.
Each time imma come over for work
it's gunna feel like somethings positive is missing,
something that helps make me happy will be missing,
someone who's always there for us will be missing for the time while being,
it feels like apart of me is missing.
Without him, I thought I couldn't have as much fun priceless times, he cracks me up with his ahmazing hilarious personality, he's a pree great guy, but I hate it when bad things happen to great people.
I miss him alot already =[
I'll always remember the times that all of us have shared together, more to come.
Fangango's was amazing thank you guys and the crew.
See ya soon, can't wait for him to be back.
Miss ya buddeh!
Kay so gotta go to work on Friday-Saturday
be there for my boss(long short story)(personal so fuck off)
Saturday hair gettin dyed up
Top=Light Irish Red, Middle=Forbidden Red, Under=Truffle Chocolate Brown
Prop leavin next week.
Im sorry oh kay but im not changin my mind.
scratch out the tounge peircin?
Miss ya lots budz.
Gunna Get...
+ Tounge Peirced
+ Left Eye Brow Peirced
+ Both Ears Peirced Up Top
Total=14
Have Fun With Tha After Care.
Tatties...
17 Yearz Yung.
+ Stars-Along Left Side Upper Body
+ Dragon-Iight Hip
+ Snowy White Tiggah-Lepht Ankle
+ Dragon Skull-Iight Ankle
+ Music Notes-Behing Ears
Total=6
Discount Yo
Yee Boy Ya Know It.
+- Probibly changin schools.
+ Gotta talk to princibles.
+ It's all iight with mum.
+ Getta be in Mr. Knights class again yo!
+ Fresh new start.
- Sorry <3
+ Uncle Allan back from camp trappin yea
I know way too many really beautiful girls who think they don't look good... It hurts... because it's guys fault, guys I mean. They make girls feel like they have to be perfect. You know what I mean, flat stomach, big boobs, round booty, long legs, sexy lips, and on top of all that, they have to dress like a whore, and be one as well... nobody can measure up to that... and its not fair... because nobody should have to. The little imperfections are what make people special. If everyone was perfect the world would be so boring, variety is what makes life interesting. So guys, stop making girls have to live up to your deluded fantasy visions of perfection. Stop acting like boys and start being men... realize that women don't exist to fufill our sexual desires. Stop talking to them solely to get with them, be nice to them because you want to be their friend, not because you want to hook up with them. Say nice things about them not to flatter them in hopes that you'll get some, but because you know they like to hear them. In short... guys need to grow up and stop acting like freakin retarded little boys
Truth is… love sucks, it hurts like a deep gash, and a broken heart never heals what so ever. Behind every bitch there’s a guy that made her that way. We suffer through this hurting pain and happiness to search for “the one” even though in the end you always get hurt. Love, you don’t know what’s going to happen until the time comes, it’s a crazy ride that makes you feel up high in the sky to down 6 feet deep in the ground. People are going to want you, need you, expect you, take you, love you, hate you, play you, rate you, save you, brake you, but that what makes you. But through everything you learn a bit more, how to solve some problems, how to give better advice, how to sacrifice, and so on. There’s a reason why the rose is the flower of love, it brings a warm feeling to your heart giving you butterflies, it’s beautiful, and it has razor sharp thorns that’s filled with pain. Yea it is attractive, but it hurts, just like love. A guy that you really did love is just another thorn on a bloody red rose. They’ll play you, hurt you, break you, pretend that they care when they actually don’t give a shit, they’ll be a total assclown to you too. At times yea they make you feel special, like you’re the starts up in the night sky, and make you think that they can’t live without you, but you never know what’s going to happen in the end till what ever happens, happens. It’s all filled with drama. Your try to remember all those great times, but you really want to forget and move on. It’s hard to forget when there’s such an empty space when they’re gone. It takes 3 seconds to say, “I love you.” 3 hours explaining it, and a lifetime to prove it. Sometimes they will want to take you back, sometimes it will be too late. Then it's up to you if that you really want to fall for them again with all this confusion logged into your head, should I or should I not? Deciding if it will be the right thing to do or the wrong, will it be better or will it be worse? They've noticed what they have done and feel that's it's their fault cause the fact that it's true, they want you back because they have lost you and they wish that never happened. You can give a guy you care, your love, your body, even your heart, but you can never give them your power. Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow we must fail in order to know that sometimes our visions clear only after our eyes are washed away with tears. A broken heart does hurt as much as it sounds, we let out tears flow into a river filled with pain to help get it out, it hurts. Long distance relationships never work out, well you can try it if you want to but usually they never do. Fall in love or fall in hate. Get inspired or be depressed, Ace a test or flunk a class. Make babies or make art. Speak the truth or lie and cheat. Dance on tables or sit in the corner, Life is divine chaos, embrace it. Forgive yourself, breath, and enjoy the ride. It hurts so much to love them the way you do, and then look at them realizing how much they don’t care. Never get your hopes and dreams up, sometimes if you do, they get crushed into pieces. If someone says they love you, look them deep in the eyes and see if you can find the truth. Love is nothing like a fairytale, those only happen in the stories. If someone loves you, make sure they love you for who you are, and not just for your looks. Make sure that they actually care, and not a phony act. Make sure they love you, and not someone else. They love you not because of who you are, but because of who they’re when they’re with you. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart. Try not to frown, even when you’re sad because you never know who’s falling in love with your smile. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can’t have them. To the world you may be one person but to one person you may be the world. Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened. Don’t try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them you know you. Honestly right now, I think there’s no such thing as “true love”, you’ll always get hurt no matter what. What’s the point of love? Well, I guess it’s for the feeling of happiness, being loved and cared about, feeling like someone’s always there for you just like friends, someone that’s important to you as well as you are to them, how to get through some of the toughest situations, how to keep it strong, and so on. But in all together it carried another feeling in between points of times, a feeling called pain. It will never go away, instead we try to make out selves happy, or we’ll party it up and forget about it for the time being, and move on. A guy that you really did love is just another thorn on a rose.
Behind these dark shit brown eyes,
and all this make up,
is a bitch with never ending pain.
Trying hard to be happy everyday,
hiding the built up pain deep within.
A beating heart that feels like it skips every other beat,
pumps out an act, but it's not all an act,
it's not like a magic show.
Knowing all the feelings from the horrible past
and all the bullshit from then and now keeps
on going like a train on tracks.
Just keeps on going and going,
life with all it's ups and downs,
its like a farris wheel, a roller coater, a marry-go-round.
One moment you'll be happy go lucky, then the next you'll be the opposite with
a rush of stress and pain flowing to your head, and sometimes through your eyes.
Dealing with all this stress, bullshit, and pain,
its hurts like a deep slitted wrist.
Bottling up each and every emotion as well as the hurting past
deep down like a 10 foot deep grave.
Behind each smile, sometimes is atually a frown
with tears of a clown.
Trying to hide each drop of tear in the eye, trying hard not to break down and cry
while trying to not let the tears flow into a river filled with pain
at times.
Trapping the real emotion behind ever smile, every laugh, most of the time,
while giving out the phony emotions.
Just another hurt girl who walks in shame
comebined with somewhat hiddin pain.
