so my love its 10:54, you'll be here in three days one hour and six minutes and idk how many seconds!!!! and omg am i ever excited to see you<3 first thing ima do is wrap my arms tightly arond you and kiss you<3 five days together<3

oh chicky you dug yourself a whole, i intend to burry you

oh darling, eleven days? i think?

i fuckin love being hammered snd balling my eyes out

losing you as a friend used to be the hardest thing for me
i guess after all the shit we went through together i just felt like you were the one person i could always go to without having to worry about being judged
but i guess i was wrong, you're fickle, and act like im completely worthless now
thanks for being an awsome friend, not that we really were towards the end anyways but ya, thanks.

im realy tired and i need to sleep but i can't, you always do this to me, thanks so much, im not retarded... okay?
i miss you so much, i hate missing you, it hurts so much, but i love you so i do it anyways<3 why cant you just come here tonight? i dont know:( but you cant and it sucks
chantal i miss you so much be as mad at me as you want but i really do miss you, were best friends and have been through everything and talk to each other about everything!
Tyler thanks for making my day today, i really needed someone to talk to:)
new favourite song is for sure Wake up<3 makes my day

i really miss you today, this morning and especially tonight.
ill miss you tomorrow, three days from now
and even when im in your arms
im always going to miss you
it's hard without you, but we have plans to create happily ever after,
right now we both know were as far from that as we possibly can be
but the best endings always have difficult beginings right?...right?

what the fuck, why the fuck, why why why does this keep happening
like, im so sick of fighting with you, i want things to be better
but i can't be okay with being the "problem" in our relationship
i fell in love with you three years ago..thats a really long time
and ive been in love with you every single day since then
but in the last month our relationship has been progressivly going down the drain
we dont talk as much, i love you has become les freequent
neither of us have that much patience for each other
i want things to go back to the way they used to be
i want it to be Goober and Zuzu forever
i want that back:(
not this mess:(
i just hope its not so far gone that it can't be fixed
i love you<3

i miss "i love you Danielle", even though its only been half a day, i miss being called zuzu, cause no one else but you called me that. i miss the way things were, i have so many texts from you saved that talk about forever, and how you loved hearing i love you even though you could never forget. i miss the way we used to talk. i miss how you never used to get mad at me:'( but now when you do, i end up feeling like the biggest peice of shit, and it sticks, i havent forgotten one thing you've said to me. i know i deserved all of it, i was such a bitch to you. but it still gets to me. the hardest part is probably you telling me i dont love you. i cry so much, i tell you i love you all the time, i care about every little problem, i overreact when youre sick, i worry when you dont reply. i don't love you?...okay

Thursday, August 27, 2009
Friday August 28, 2009
Monday August 31 2009
Wednesday September 2, 2009
Sunday September 6, 2009
Tuesday September 8, 2009
Saturday September 12, 2009
Saturday September 26, 2009
Sunday October 4, 2009
Friday October 9, 2009
Monday October 12, 2009
Saturday October 17, 2009
Sunday October 25, 2009

oh baby a bottle would be soo nice
45 percent if you please,
with cranberry juice to mix.
i actually just want to sit here and talk to you and cry till i can't anymore

every phone call
every i love you<3
every day that goes by
is a day where its harder to be without you
and i've never been good at being patient
but fackk, three years waiting, two more to go
i think i can make it.