~All the desisions i make~
It makes me pissed off......because every decision i do make i hurt people.....And i FUCKING HATE IT....little decisions or big....

I pick one thing and end up losing someone.....
I pick the other, and lose someone anyways....ITS SO STUPID....How can people say there is a god? People get depressed and end up losing all grip on reality.....then what happens? You will never see them again......because they say goodbye.

I always wish i was never born....because if i wasnt i would have never lost ANYONE i actually cared for.....

people say that things will get better but.....i say FUCK THAT nothing has been getting better......i have waited a long time for things to get better but it is never going to happen because of decisions. I do somthing good and then "Karma" kicks me in the ass and somthing bad happens.....

Everyday you have choices that can crash you down or lift you up......make you or break you.....eaither way no matter what decision you make.....usually someone gets hurt....

~The only good thing i have going for me is.....well nothing really.....there are few people that actually care for me.....the rest even if i killed myself....non of them would even know i was gone. They say friends last forever? well not for me.....iv lost to many to believe that stupid fucking bullshit....

Sometimes i want the easy way out....buy a gun....load it....and pull the trigger....that way once done there aint anything anyone can do about it.....Its not like many would miss me....but i bet alot of people would be happy i was gone.....