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The end of the battle
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The end of the battle
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BASICS

Height:184 cm - 188 cm (6'1" - 6'2")
Weight:87 Kg - 91 Kg (191 lbs - 200 lbs)
Sexual Orientation:Heterosexual
Dating:Dating
Living Situation:Living with roommate(s)
Location:Edmonton, Alberta, Canada
Join Date:07:37pm | Jan 06, '04
Last Active:12:20pm | May 19, '11

INTERESTS

Activities:Clubbing, Drinking, Driving, Gambling, Listening to music, Partying, Reading, Raving, Flailing, Dancing

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It is difficult for a fools habits to change to selflessness-Yamamoto Tsunetomo

The only constant in the universe is change-Carl Sagan

Pitter Patter
Too bright the shades of night,
too grand the proverbial piano.
Smooth the rough edges,
confirm even smoother action.

Fragmented slothful ambition,
slowly crawl toward intermission,
battle away at the war of attrition,
dip the ladle spoon fed addiction.

Played out jaunt portents of greed,
need one want not conformist bred seed.
Left to own device spoken true word splice,
left to own device spoken once thought of twice.

These Things
These drugs, taking over my life like one less hostage.

These formations, like clouds drifting slowly over a wasted afternoon.

These dramatizations, everyday life an act of mutalated desperation.

These tolls, cropped together like spent cigatourette's to be casually used.

These thoughts, forbearing a different stigma of propriety and grace.
The mourning night's after
Don't the lights binkle so twightly upon this morose soup of unsoberness.

Let the summer warmth radiate from the streets, for tonight we dine in proverbial landscapes of our own choosing.

Forgotten feelings dwelling with friends swell intentions swelling in unbecoming verbal masturbation.

Potential piousness subsumed by the fleeting rememberence of the waking lush, pushing the blood through the few membranes left.

Breathing the foul taste of borrowed cologne and clothing another demon left to death little to none of us mourning.

Okay...123 Breathe
Torrential overview sickening synopsis of the former fuel consumated creations toiling to cause souls to roil.

Condemned features and programed realities not enough context to protaganate a pretext.

Plot is changed due to mental corrections swarming foundations breaking this self created insurrection.

Cryptic rhythms with no current theme causing this soul to breem with the guilt, breaking fluent seems.

Creening, the self endowed creatures slowly draw close breathing the last of these window panes as the mind recoils.

Philoetry
Troubled concerns of trifle tribulations, the denseness of reality consumes.
Found formations of pre-conceived proses now smell of the rank intelligence poured into the digital, left to scramble at the base of our ignorance.

Folding cryptic meanings into simpler samples before that base becomes ludacris.

Posessing the power to prosticulate on the brazen attempts to praud at the core basis of why we need justice, not these concentrated efforts of kindness and frugality.

Teeming torrents overflowing with my own brand of abhorrence.
Loosing these thoughts like unlived moments to tip-tap on the hollowness of being truly empty.
Its Cold
Pretense filled with kodiak memories of snow drifting whipped into the street.
Some how the forgotten pathways in our brains shifting like tectonic plates causing destruction and abstract thought patterns.
Torrents of pain like waves of obliteration the shock wave before the flame seperating the real from spent restlessness.

Plain Magic
Plain magic in every days frequencies, the leaves of trees falling to the ground, mathmatic anomalies.

Where does this leave we?
Plain magic our own cant be seen.
Lost in the sheen of every days gleem
of trusted algorithms.
Pillaged forgotten waste,
nothing left now but the taste,
of shattered resting places.

Plain magic in every days frequencies, water falling on the leaves that had fallen from the trees, mathmatic anomalies.

More to the minds eye
Profoundness is found with the absence of your soul,
like lanterns I see the demons of youth glimmer.

Spoken truths uttered in shattered screams of development,
tangled mirrors twisting towards the once understood reality.

Forgotten landscapes of gray and orange dusk,
with nothing more than fault ready to demolish the intensity of the moment.

Unknown Knowledge
Flaunt the knowledge you have and question the knowledge you don't, for questioning leads to curiosity which is the home of true ingenuity.

For when something is known and bleeds from your soul like a virus riding red blood cells out of an open wound, then you "know" it.

So yes most of what is written is re-edited thought patterns, however isn't the only way a human mind can learn through repetition?

Habitual creatures are we, however those who chose to balk at the ones who write about our experience of habit are truly the ones who should be questioning they're unknown knowledge.

Misery is a Muse
Slamming my mind against the confines of reality,
sometimes is to much for simple practicality.

Misery the most ferocious of muses,
Joy and love are easy to confuse with this.

For being in bliss is aimless,
while dwelling the darkness consumes it.

Misery the most easy companion,
while not taking much to become your only champion.

For the fight is short and binds that tie are tightening,
leaving my mind thinking thoughts no other word for it, frightening.

So mirthless is the muse we call Misery,
leaving those behind in a wake of blind creativity.


The girl in the red shawl

And so I saw her on the lone hill,nothing but her red shawl snapping in the wind and the sound of the wind in the leaves of the fossilized tree.

Laying on a stone she beckoned me forward this dream reader I tell you was as real as waking in the day to my acheing joints.

Kissing her candy sweet lips I was swept into a crosswind of emotion pouring from my soul into hers and changed into a perfect oneness of being.

And so I left her on the lone hill, with her red shawl snapping in the wind, the sound of wind in the leaves playing the final notes of the longing I will always feel in my soul for the girl in the red shawl.


I'm not that hot
Im not that hot but I'm not that cold,

to leave you sitting upon the threshold.

I'm not that hot but I understand pain,

to be kicked in the face and told your insane.

I'm not that hot but Ive been living for awhile,

nineteen years is not a lot but is when living in denial.

I'm not that hot and now I understand why,

you need someone there to love you until you die .

Anonymous
Going softly into the ageless night
To sleep in the darkness and dream of the light

Does anyone have the same kind of plight?
To love and be lost while losing your sight

Time to leave at the end of a knife
I never thought I would end my life

Cutting deep the blood now flows
To where Im going only I will know

For heaven is something I do not deserve
While hell is full so happily will I serve

To take your soul will be my place
Into eternity I will fade without grace

So sweetly will the last notes play
When the blood finally drains on this my last day

The Brink

It feels like I haven't smoked enough weed yet.

It feels like its to soon to make another bet.

It feels like it wouldn't take much to show them that life isnt over yet.

So as I move forward to another time and place I sit back and edit my life like it was on a slate, to be wiped clean.

In my young age Ive grown bolder,colder, and it feels like I'm finally taking this weight onto my own shoulders.

Trying to build myself up when the world is taking its toll on the structure I stand upon.

It feels like I shouldn't care what they think.

It feels like my bag is packed and I'm ready to sink.

It feels like there are no more original thoughts left to think.

Standing on the brink.

It feels like standing on the brink.



I wrote this on march 21st/05 one of my better peices

Night
As I walk into this endless Night
Take away my blinding sight
Take away my friends the light
None of these will help me fight
This endless thing I call my Night

I wrote this when I first joined its not that good

Its Like
Its like being lost when you know your way there
Its like having friends but knowing they wont care
Its like stepping a crossed a threshold of pain
Its like knowing she loves you but you cant even touch her hair
Its like staring up at the sky when it rains,the tears drip down but they loose they're way
Its like trying to be an individual without loosing your bits of originality to some one else's version of it
Its like trying to talk to people when you know they hate you
Its like being me......nothing less

ICP Twizted Dark Lotus.....Hatchet family is needed if you have it you know it...

PEOPLE IVE KNOWN

Clan:

Liam(also known as the "irish-man" you brother are one of the best a man could ask for I want to thank you for dedicating your time to my page and please note your long entry into this bizatch)

Cody(Your a beast in the morning and a beast at night your head twitch is awesome and we should definitely get together sometime to get drunk i put you in here so that maybe you would put me in yours im not saying to but meh dont care)

Daniel(also known as Datto,Boone or Daniel-San...You have been there for some of the ruffest and best times of my life..I want to thank you for being such a good freind for someone who so desperately needed one as sane as himself even for just breif periods...those moments kept me sane my freind)

Dad(also known as Ray,fasha,baba,papa bear,pops,old man and all those good names we deem to people worthy of more than one...you have been my chaotic rock to say the least...you picked me up when i fell...and wiped my tears when i decided to show my emotion in that way...so for these things and more I will be endetted to you for the rest of my life..as you me i suppose..)

Ben(also known as Lubin,Ben-Jammin' or Brother Ben The logic stone that seems to bruise me when left alone for to long...I love you and will for the rest of your life AHAH because you know your gonna die before me olld olld man..lols lots of respect and nothing less for you my brotha)

Rookie(also known as nick,Rooks,Rooksta,Wooks and Wookie We will be bro's for life and I beleive that to my bones you are one of the best friends I have ever had and will always hold a place for you somewhere in my heart of hearts)

Jon (Also known as Jonald, You have been there through some of the worst shit in my life and some of the best summers and sleepless nights playing video games or how we would sit around crying playing halo 2 all night because we didnt want to close oureyes.I miss you man you are truly one of the brothers)


ST.JOES CREW!!!
Drama Crew:
Muggu(also known as Kigere,Oreo or Daniel you were the one that got me liked and popular literally if it wasnt for you i wouldnt have had much of a social life..you were also the one who coined the phrase "Yoooo Whassuuup Summas'" which made me coin the phrase "Well if it aint the Inndespensible Muggu" I want to thank you for the shot you gave me even though you didnt really know me that well)

Big Asian Steve(also known as Steve...it felt like you never showed me "much" respect but the bit that you did I had to earn which made me respect you all the more)

Clackett(also known as Chris your mom is the coolest and Im glad you took me unto your home and let me eat dinner and pass out there...you are a solid man and you have more of my respect then most)

Crazy A.K. or Alicia-What to say I loved you and our time together there was a time when I would have given up anything and or done anything to be with you for the rest of my days...now I just want to get to know you and hopefully aswell.


THE ORIGINAL FIVE INCLUDING MYSELF

Dana(also known as Dana we share in pain and mind set...we were bro's I hope we still are we just havent chilled in a while and well I feel out of touch with you but I still respect you so there's your shout out)

Candice(also known as Candy-Ass I oh so wanted you when I met you..but we became bro's and bro's dont ever hook up so dont worry about me like that n e more anyways you have a really weird energy type so I had to shout out to you)

Darren(also known as "STOOOONER BUDDIIIEES" you were crazy as a shit house rat and you were eitheir high burning or getting high and for that i was astounded by you but anyways you gave me that fresh crazy in your face perspective I wouldnt have had with out being able to know you)

Matt(also known as Matt ***** or mattamus you were the one who coined the phrase "No no dude just no" which sobered me at moments where I would have done some crazy or stupid shit and I thank you for that your also the first white boy Ive ever seen wear a bra,Trash Shopping Carts..good times)


Eastlglen:


Erin-One of the most beautiful and intriguing girls I have had the pleasure to meet. We have always had the most amazing conversations and I know I was never good enough for you but a guy can dream.I remember saving your dads life one time because of your brother wanting to kill him and me offering a place to cool down and a joint to smoke lol anyways theres your entry.


Larry.C.-You have managed to keep your life style simple and for that I applaud you,your pretty gangster and I know you would have my back and mine yours in a fight

Grandma-what can i say about you your beautiful in your own right and have treated me fairly well throughtout my career at eastglen anyways there is your shout out

Elizabeth(also known as bethy or Beth)
Lol the grade twelve macing machine you managed to have as many b/f's as i did g/f's which is pretty impressive

JackoHah nechi bro anyways you actually talked to me but we never really chilled that much so i dont know you that well at all actually

John Bell-Stoner for life we have chilled and i feel like i know you pretty well at least anyways im not gonna keep rambling on

Taylin- We poked smot in class(CHINESE CLASS) and you have some of the best shit ive smoked you and me should chill more you emo lookin motha fcuka

Toni also known as Tiny- Biggest ex smot head i know your chillen and we have had some good times high out of our trees in mskobler's class

Tony Warrior- Second hottest native chick i know lol i still remember katrina's party lol well part's of it

Simon- Your only on here because you have some tight rhymes but your white so you cant pull it off lol

Katrina-One of the girls I turned to back in the day and even now one of the most supportive sexy women I know love you homie theres your shout out

Anthony Smith-you be my nigga always be tight we chilled and blazed so many times it was great we should chill more often

Glen-The one guy I would never have thought could be a good friend of mine...I respect you man and I hope all goes well for you in the future.

Talin Bardenhagen-Man you were my best friend in school we were almost inseperable mainly because we didnt think anyone was chillin enough to have those wordless smoke sessions and conversations we always had you were my bro and always will be we have to chill sometime just for old times sake

SHIT THAT BOTHERS ME

Being ditched or shit on for nothing.

Not having a good girl friend.

Bitches who don't know they are bitches.....The word Bitch or bitches.....

Women who think that they are all that.

Ladies who don't know they are ladies.

Having to re-examine my life every once in a while when eitheir drug use or a woman has me to distracted to react properly in the situations presented to me in everyday life.

Women who have a low self-esteem but are very beautiful people inside and out.

Women who know they are beautiful and use it to every advantage that they can.

Not being able to brighten every girl's day up, a compliment usually helps.

Not being able to feel romantic with someone period.

Not clicking with a woman whom I think is attractive

Not having decent relationships and having relationships being ruined by sex.

Being too drunk to have sex .

Not knowing what people think of me so at least I can know and gauge how I deal with those people.

Having people not respect my point of view on something when I have the respect to at least listen to theirs.

People who are too opinionated and people who know what to do but do the wrong thing anyway.

The uncaringness of people.

How much people rely on vices everyday just to make it seem like everything is normal.

Diploma Exams.

Having to work when you need a weekend off.

Not having money period.

Not having enough money in your account when you use your card and stand in line making everyone else wait for you just to have it not go through man that sucks.

Being looked at differently by people just because of the color of my skin.

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09:29pm | Mar 25, '09 | No Comments
Did you ever notice how when your feeling happy and just cant really complain that you lack the inspiration to write? I have recently discovered that the only muse that produces real results in the literary sense is misery. How can you overcome such an obstacle as bliss and use those more basic emotions to dictate to others how the world is spinning for you...? I dont know the answer but I do have a theory. That is that alot of our ugliness and symbolicly impotent formulations that somehow end up getting produced can only end in false processes. Must go for the now but sweet people endear these thoughts and recognize your self truth.