It started off great but who was to know that love that is lost cannot be let go
you say its my fault .Ok then i'll go its better to know
Now theres nobody to argue with

The Sunshine Saved me Again,
but you are not my sunshine anymore
it was dumb to let you have that gratitude
The basis of our solar system the beautiful star
that keeps us all alive it was and is
the radaint energy emitted by the sun
im glad i got my shit straight feels good

People always say you'll understand most of your problems the older you get they wont seem as horrible i feel like i don't even understand my own thoughts they can feel so strong about something one minute and then the next minute everything is changed i feel i don't care enough to keep my concentration for more then 15 minutes but yet im always thinking about it. I feel no matter how much someone loves me i cant feel it back and if i do it isn't for long . i feel like very slowly all my thought are being passed around my whole body rather than my head but they are moving so slowly i feel one thought for awhile but then its gone after a long period its back im just so confused and i know i cant trust anybody what does trust even mean like its just another one of those words that have a fake meaning like love do you ever really love anybody or do you just get attached and really like them see what i mean i don't even care enough to finish what im talking about here .......fuck it

WHAT DA FUCK who bought me plus?!

it once was so awesome AMAZING but now it's so empty and nothing never will be anything but a cheap re-fill. Never thought id hit this hard more than once didn't ever want to feel this can't believe you'd do this it made me so happy i know i need to find it sumwheres else, someone else my body cant go through this again before it gave me such butterflies now those fucken butterflies are eating my insides i think i might puke and that's the scary thing i feel so stupid* really just get the bills i'll rember that for the future pfft then it i'll turn into my favorite thing in this shitty life i wish it was january 7 th again id try so much harder would have never had to see that stupid bitches face ever again i'm likea cd stuck on fucken repeat or a record the needle spinning round and round again and again just keeps cutting that shit deep i wish my mind was fixed in a state where my emtions wouldn't effect me i wouldn't feel this or that i dont give a fuck anymore and the worlds going to see it i'll make my horrible impact. I've lost my sight on happiness i hope it's not what i think festering around there i wanna suffucate my life and go back to the rock no one would bother me just me and a branch and sum line by the water day and nite i'd run through the felids till i was in the trees then id climb each one just to see what it felt like when i was done id pick strawberries because i know my pop would hate to see them waste id swim through the rivers just like another trout maybe someone would catch me take me home gut me clean me cover me with flour batter and devoure me till the stomache acid turned me to nothing hmm like i already am..I HATE MY LIFE

i look so diffrent now
holly shit
i need sum new pictures to show you all
I DONT EVEN BACKCOMB MA HAIR ANYMORE
and i have side bangs
i look way better though ima take sum pictures here in a bit

I cant believe its been a month tomorrow
<3