Reason For Living Is For Each And Everyday I Dont Think About The End.
"Drugs can either be used for self destruction, or for an escape from the pains of life"
In The Fading Light And Withering Warmth,
A Spark Of Hope Appears Infront Of Me.
Its Beconing For Me To Join It,
To Dance And Bathe In It Presence.
Its All A Tease, Joke, A Test.
Is It Wat I Need, Or Is It Just a Craving
Do i Have To Prove Myself First, Work For Its Love?
To Once Again Feel Happy, And Feel Whole Again?
Is Losing The Emptiness I Feel Now,
Worth The Pain I Would Most Certainly Feel For Embracment It?
One Would Never Know Unless A Chance Is Taken.
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Drug That U Are
The
Affects Are
Amazing
The
Withdrawls Are
Devisating
Just One
Look And Am
Flying
One
Touch And An In
Heaven
The
Taste Has
Destroyed Me
But I Would
Destroy Myself Again To Have That
High
Weeks Go By But
Time Only
Numbs The
Pain
The
Answer To My
Salvation Is To Much To
Bear
One Day I Will Over Come This... "
Challenge"
Theres Only
Two Ways Out
One-
Hope That My
Addictions Comes To Me
Two-
Forget The
Times And
Move On
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Shattered Past
Broken Future
Forever isnt that long... unless ur alone
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That smiling boy staring at the sky is gone.
Over time that smile fade, only to be replaced.
Time took its toll on his youth, stealing his inoccents, raping happiness.
His heart once so pure, filled with pain and darkness
Loved ones where forced to the back so that misery could fit.
Anger became his new best friend, feeding him lies.
Telling him how to feel, and not to trust.
The boy loathe's the man he's become.
"Time Heals All, Is A Lie... It Only Numbs The Pain Of Lost And Depression"
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How Could A Future Laid Out So Perfectly, Go So Horribly Wrong?
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Somewhere Down The Road,
Years From Now, Wen Enough Time Has Gone By,
Would U Remeber Me?
Would I Still Hold That Specail Spot In Ur Heart?
Would U Remeber The Times We Had Together?
Would I Remeber Those Times Long Ago?
Right Now That Time Seems So Far Away.
To Far To Imagine Wat My Life Will Be Like.
To Far To Make Plans, To Say This Is Wats Goin To Happen.
Right Now It Seems Beautiful Wat Could Be, Wat Might Be.
The Possibilty Of The "What If" Is Always Entriging.
It Plays With My Mind And Teases Me With Its Possibilities.
The Tease Drive Me, Pushes Me Forward, Lets Me Grow.
Sometimes The Tease Is Just Wat It Is, A Taste Of Something Better.
But Is A Taste All We Carve? Or Is It A Reason?
A Reason To Wait For The Time, That We Can Always Be Together?
In A Deprived Mind Of A Child There Is A Possiblitly For Great Goodness Or Great Evil.
The Furure Hold Wat Will Become Of The Child, Yet The Future Is Hidden.
For That Case And That Case Alone It Is Up To The Child Which Path He/She Will Follow.
Not Knowin Wat The Future Has In Store For Us Is The Greatest Gift But Also A Curse.
The Gift Being That Tomorrow Is Another Day For Change And Growth.
Well The Curse Is Not Know If Its Change For The Best Or If U'll Grow Into Something U Despise.
All In All The Future Is Coming... The Only Question Is, Will U Be There For It?
The Worst Thing U Can Do To Ur Life Is Knowing Wat U Want But Unwilling To Take The Steps To Achieve It
HA /\ love /\ TE
I can see it wen i look into ur eyes
I can hear it in your voice, The way you talk
The sadness is all but visible.
The desire for the pain to end, for peace.
The hope, the dream of a better place is too interging.
The feeling that everyone ones knows,
yet is always differnet, never the same.
The hoping that someone will save you,
but afraid to be saved at the same time.
Wanting the happiness u lost to return.
Wondering wat changed, why it had to change.
The Future is covered in mist,
Every path feelin the same, leadin you no where
Wondering if time has moved, if anything will change
Wish something would change, yet afraid of a change
Can you handle a change?
August 08/08
I did a horrible thing. i judged a man without knowin his story.
Its an unforgivable thing i try to avoid doin, yet i still did it.
I dont know if i can face him again,
Wat can i say to the man thats gone thru my greatest fear?
I sickened myself beyond beleif.
I hope This feelin never leaves me
I Cant Shake These Thoughts That Haunt Me
The End Never Comes Fast Enough 