Pills
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As I lay in my bed
cold and wet
I feel those pills
start to kick in
it won't be long
and ill be gone
to hell with this world
and all left behide
this would be by fair well
Good - Byee.
Wrong[/u]
I lay here crying
wondering what i did wrong
i dont know how to get rid of this feeling
the only thing i know is that
i must kill myself
so tonight is the night
its all going to end
doesnt really matter
since all i do is
fuck things up
anyways
my heart is torn
into pieces
everything hurts
from my head on down
i wish i couldnt feel anything
but i can
if i could just find something
to numb my pain
or make it go away
the pills are laying there
there calling my name
i take them without a question
just like they said
now my body is numb
i miss you so much now
but now its easy to say bye
so just remember i loved you
Gun
the guns in my hands
all is left to do is pull
one move of a finger
its all over
blood pours from the wound
the one in my head
the bullet no where to be found
lanched in my head
so it will be over
it was worth it all along
i hate it here
i hate it here
no longer here
no more worrys
am in a better place
with angels and wings
ill fly with my wings now
and ill be your angel
forever & ever.
Blade
blade to skin
ripped to pieces
blood to floor
light to dark
its how i go
say good bye
i flood the room
covered in blood
hands start to shake
i fall to the floor
covered in my blood
you walk in
and start to cry
i dont get why
you never loved me
you should be happy
its what you wanted
now your free
free from me
Walls[/u]
im trapped in side this thing called life
why cant i get out
no one knows
im scareaming
no one hears
doesnt surpise me for all i know
no one cares
they left me alone in here
to rot to die to sufer
i think they have made there point
but there not done yet
the walls start to closing in
i think its an image
untill i feel the walls agaist my skin
i see a crack of light
i wonder heaven or hell?
i beat you its hell
cause what have i never did to anyone
but love them and help them
Screaming
Im screaming bloody mudred
why cant anyone here
i lay a wake hoping for someone to save me
not sure why its to late anyways
all the blood gone from head to toe
heart tore to pieces
you think i woudlnt feel
yet somehow i do
Gun in youre hand not mine
just slit my wrist
just do it now
end this pain
well you can
i cant do it myself
just wait an see ill find
someone to do the job
it wont be hard just shoot me now
take that gun
pull the tigger
dont worry
its not your fault
i asked you to
was that
that hard?
The Safety Pin
The safty pin pierces my skin
in the shape of a heart.
For You.
Only You.
I love you,
I hope you love me back.
It hurts,
The pain is srtong.
Blood seeps thru.
For You.
Only You.
I look at the safty pin,
The blood is deep red.
It scares me.
For You.
Only you.
Would you do think for me?
Alone
I sit alone,
All by myself.
The room is empty,
Except for one shelf.
I stand up to look,
At the memories left.
All I have is some pictures,
One book, not the best.
I look at the pictures,
Tears fill in my eyes.
From the sudden feeling,
Of wanting to die.
My friends have all left me,
My family's gone.
And then to the book
my eyes will move on.
I open it slowly,
To see what's inside.
Then I realize its empty,
It's a book about me.
About how my life's nothing.
There's nothing to see.
Gone[/b]
My friends always said,
"I will always be there."
It took me a while,
To find out they don't even care.
So now I look back on memories,
Things said, and the good times.
I start to cry looking out the window,
Listen to the wind go through the chimes.
Looking back on memories,
Knowing my life was built on lies.
And whenever I have something good,
Very soon it dies.
One thing after another,
Thoughts run through my head.
I start to cry knowing,
I'm better off dead.
Yet suicide is not an answer,
A way out, or an escape.
So I look through the tears in my eyes,
Out past the window drapes.
I see a huge world,
Full of people who don't care.
And in my heart I know,
No one will ever be there.
So left alone I cry,
No one to dry my tears,
No one to protect me,
From my worst nightmares and fears
Bloodless Lies [/b]
Endangered dreams of life,
These tangled views of reflection.
Streaming tears of blood,
Can't you notice the connection.
Stars of un-accomplishment,
They fill the dark black sky.
Everything is made so very fake,
Yet we never stop to question why.
Real love so non-existent,
Take my bloodless heart away.
Leave me here to feel so lonely ,
Please just take it all away.
Writen in Blood[/b]
As tainted as my soul,
This bloody writing on my wall.
Stand back and watch me cry,
I know you want to see me fall.
As comforting as nails,
Your heart as black as coal.
Engrave my name into the tombstone,
For this is beyond what I control.
Tear apart my image,
Crush my dreams of life.
No such thing as love,
Unless referring to this knife.
Touch the star-less sky,
My tears will steal them all away.
Alone and oh so empty,
Getting more lost everyday.
Fractured Pictures [/b]
The opposite of perfect,
This image isn't right.
Smeared and fractures judgments ,
All viewed in tainted light.
Cherished and unwanted,
Loved, yet hated more.
So if life is such a game,
Then why is there no score?
Take away the bitterness,
Leave me in the cold.
I don't want to learn a lesson,
And do not wish to grow real old.
Nothing but a nightmare,
A dream of truths so jaded.
Left forgotten and alone,
The memories have faded
Crimson Smile
Crimson drops of blood,
Your stupid selfish lie.
Stearming tears of razor blades,
Don't you ever wonder why i cry?
Stuck with this fake smile,
Lies plastered on my face.
Don't bother trying to save me,
My life's a hopeless case.
No truths in this huge lie,
It's just one big mistake.
No where to run or hide,
These friendships are all fake
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