Egotism. - 23, Female, Ireland
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lets live that lover life
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1. new tattoo
2. ginger nation
3. ridiculous dance night with my friends
4. great laid back job
5. going on trips

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1. mike frank why are you moving.
2. when tattoos get at that still sore but getting itchy stage
3. my life isnt spontaneous at all anymore
4. i need something to keep me grounded
5. i dont like waking up every day wondering why i live here
 

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im 21.... what do i do...
1. i miss being friends, but it'll happen when it happens

2. i dont know if i trust you

3. i dont know if you trust me.

4. you make my days so good, love you girls.

5. ugh.... thats all i can even say.
 

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You think that this world breathes and you think it has a heart beat, but it'll never fuckin care for you or me. I hold out all my hope and keep this heavy head in a box made of lead. I'll show you a good time all while breaking you down. Little by little we lose ourselves to to the masses that come like a tsunami crashing down and wiping away all of our details. We are no long specific, we are cheaper by the dozen. We are easily sold out. We are easily shut up. We are what they want us to be. Watching beneath heavy eye lids and laughing under its breath. You are no individual, you are not one of a kind, you are not special. You are a product of everything you hate.
 

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hey guyyssss
sooo i am selling my little baby Lady.
she is a orange corn snake,
extremely well tempered and a heart of gold.
tank and everything included.
let me know of your interested!
 

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i am the girl with a twisted step
a broken lip,
a fake kind of sanity.
i lose grip.
keep it hidden
behind sunlight blinded eyes
i am a mess.
i feel safe in the comfort of lies.
i am the girl who can never trust
and can never be worthy of it.
with bugs in my ears
they whisper "you cannot commit"
 

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dead is dead is dead is dead!
likes: GIRLIE SESHING, GIRLIE SESHING, GIRLIESESHING!!!!!! BRO DOWNS, BRODOWNS, BRO DOWNS!!!!! the river rules all, heart to hearts rule all, denny and laura rule all, seattle rules all!

dislikes: no need to waste time on dwelling on the shitty hands your delt in life, just live and be happy!
 

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raising a hell raiser is never quite easy. i burn every day, walking, talking, sleeping, eating, smoking, breathing..... not breathing, not smoking, not eating, not sleeping, not talking, not walking. i am the ice queen, nothing phases me anymore. like a mythical creature, an empty chest and a flat line in my head. never quite attached, never quite able to be alone. a world of inconsistency lingering on the tips of my fingers.
 

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God Loves Ugly



"an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, sometimes you win sometimes you loose"

+i have never felt closer to the people i love, i rediscovered what it is that makes me believe that this worlds not gone dead, happy birthday to charlotte and mason! get fly- atmosphere, watching friends, napping with mason, seeing kim and ayla yesterday, sams huge straw ingenuity gone wrong, oh yeah... my boyfriend is better that any of yours. just incase your wondering.

- i have no job, no rent money for the 1st, no paints, and im not selling any paintings to help make any of that happen...and there is snow on the ground. anxiety is a daily problem.
 

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"keeping warm on a cold winters night, meant bring your fists, and putting up a fight"

+the show last night was so good, easter weekend with the family, seeing so many great people in such a short span of time, new roommate, new paintings, easter chocolate(lol), mason, the girls

-swollen wrists, knee, ankle, elbow, so many bruises, and my hips keep poping out.... but it was completely worth it
 

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Speak of me in your travels




I keep moving
I go from house to house
I stay committed
Like one foot in, one foot out
I bounce
Yeah I'm leaving this place
Divorce papers falling out my briefcase

Miss Intuition, the half-truth harlot
Got her suspicions
Lacks proof but wants it
I've been practicin grabbin the noose when the knot slips
Rewiring my mind to make the firing squad miss
And while they're busy reloading
I'm decoding the messages she sent with this key I keep holding
But it's a copy
And the lock seems broken
Got me chokin' on discussions I cannot keep open
I'm fully clothed in this cock-tease moment
The last cigarette sits between my lips
But I will not smoke it
While it dangled I got strangled by a second hand
Broke the ropes when I held my breath and let my chest expand
Threw the stogie to the lonely hitman for hire
Told him that he owed me and he showed me his hand's on fire
We didn't shake on it
He nodded, I nodded back
He lit the cigarette with his finger and dropped the gat
I started walking the tracks you should've tied me to
I waited for a train to hop but stopped to say good-bye to you
When I turned my head
I heard what you said:
"Murder him dead and try to do it with the girl in his bed"
So I fled
As I remembered one should never look back
There's no direction home only blood on the tracks
Stuck in the past
I jetted and left the red footprints for them to follow
Headed toward tomorrow
And took sips from the flask
That you bought me
For my sober anniversary
Her dad tracks my scent
She's got her old man in search of me
He knows where I'm headed, he's been there
King of the home
Sits on his throne like it's an electric chair
I'm the heir to that domestic death sentence
I see people accepting lethal injections
Dead in seconds
They confused prison for a bed in breakfast
Used their one call on voicemail to see who left a message
Could it be her?
Could it be!?
They're desperate
Mad at me cause they lack a strategy for exit
Nobody pregnant, nobody get burped
I got lost on this head trip but won't talk to an expert
My legs hurt cuz I've been walking with cement boots
Ever since you lured me to the water bed to get cute
She had a wet suit and dry dispostion
But couldn't execute that type of mission
It's no small time thing organizing my ending
My book of life
Is a "Choose Your Own Adventure"
With a circular section
You can tell your friends I walked all over you
But you know that's not what these boots were made to do
In fact, you had them crafted at the store
Said, "Baby, slip em on" but I don't know what you take me for.
I knew what was up once I felt nailed to the floor
And since the key didnt work I kicked my way through the door

I keep moving
I go from house to house
I stay committed like one foot in, one foot out
I bounce
Yeah I'm leaving this place
Divorce papers falling out my briefcase

I keep moving
I go from house to house
I stay committed like one foot in, one foot out
I bounce
Yeah I'm leaving this place
Divorce papers falling the fuck out my briefcase

I am no destination
I am just the journey
So don't go settling on me, love
No, don't go settling on me

I am no destination
I am just the journey
So don't go settling on me, love
No, don't go settling on me

I am no destination
I am just the journey
So don't go settling on me, love
No, don't go settling on me

Speak of me in your travels
Take pictures if you please
But don't go settling on me, love
No don't go settling on me
 

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"I am heaven sent
don't you dare forget
i am all all you've ever wanted
what all the other boys all promised"

+working to live not living to work, secrets, the best girls, so many new things im excited for, thursday

-reaching for what youve always wanted is scary as fuck
 

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the heartbeat of every american boy
"keep your heart running, keep it coming"

+its beautiful outside, james dean, watching friends, new artwork i didnt think i was able to do, heart to hearts, being able to finally truly be friends, reaching for life long goals

-sometimes i forget whyit didnt work and just remember how amazing of a person you are, i need to say it because if i dont i will regret it.
 

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in my freedom i chose prison
keep it cold and cut close
hide it in your chest
layered under skin and bone
keep it hidden so you will never see
shaking hands and history
held back smiles and open skies
a muddied mind with smoke and mirrors
nothing was right because something was right
break every bone so i wont have to make the walk
to an open space with face to face
face to face, face to fear
take control to finally let go
stop coddling cold bodies
because you dont know the warmth
in letting go of what you think
stop. embrace what you know.

 

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slowly but surely im losing the confidence i can do this.
why do things always have to be a struggle?
 

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