caught up in the mix, of a bottle full of fix
i'm gonna hobble down the street 'til i reach knob creek.
it's not that i dont like you, i just dont wanna speak
you fuckin' freak, now keep your days out my week!

we will walk to the ends of the earth before we realized
what we've been searching for has always been with us.

enough to hold you to the brightest of lights,
to place you dangerously close to that sun.
enough to acknowledge the flaws you can't ignore,
and recognize the cause of what's done is done.
more than enough to put my name behind my ideals,
and neglect my logic twice daily.
enough to keep me looking for my lucy in the sky with gems,
when i remember how you used to call me baby,
enough to look in my mirror with detest for
every tear you shed regardless of why you wept,
enough to curse any man who can't appreciate the depth
of the ocean i swam till i ran out of breath.

i love you, don't ever fucking question that.
that's why we'll probably never get along.
if I was better at finding the right words to say,
i wouldn't need to write these mother fucking songs.

i love you, i love you.
never, don't ever fucking question that, don't ever fucking question that.

i n f o r m a t i o n
1. name: kels
2. single or taken: taken
3. sex: FEmale
4. birthday: march 21
6. siblings: three.
7. hair color: blondish with blue.
8. eye color: brown.
9. shoe size: 9 1/2

f a s h i o n | s t u f f
1. where is your favorite place to shop: anywhere really.
2. any tattoos or piercings: ears. hopefully more sometime.

s p e c i f i c s
1. do you do drugs? yes i do.
2. what kind of shampoo do you use?: herbal essences.
3. what are you most scared of?: spiders. ewwwww...
5. who is the last person that called you?: my mother.
6. where do you want to get married?: of course!
7. how many buddies are online right now?: 4.
8. what would you change about yourself?: not too much.

f a v o r i t e s
1. color: purple, blue, black, yellow.
2. food: donair.
3. boys names: don't know.
4. girls names: I kind of like kenzie. maybe mckenzie.
5. subjects in school: english or bio.
6. animals: cats.
7. sports: snowboarding.

h a v e | y o u | e v e r
1. given anyone a bath?: no..
2. smoked?: yep.
3. bungee jumped?: nope.
4. made yourself throw up? no..
5. skinny dipped?: yes.
6: ever been in love?: yes.
7. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: haha, yes..
8. pictured your crush naked?: maybe not my crush, but my boyfriend.
9. actually seen your crush naked: does one's boyfriend count?
10. cried when someone died?: uhh.. yeah..
11. lied: yes.
12. fallen for your best friend?: nope.
13. been rejected?: yeah.
14. rejected someone?: yes.
15. used someone?: don't think so.
16. done something you regret?: unfortunately.

c u r r e n t
clothes: jeans, t-shirt, hoodie.
make-up: yes.
annoyance: my cat.
smell: tea.
favorite group/artist: ooh, thats hard one. I would say... third eye blind. or tegan and sara. or metric..
desktop picture: picture of sylvan lake.
book you're reading: not reading one at the moment, but i would like to be.
in cd player: the shins.
in dvd player: the simpsons movie.

l a s t | p e r s o n
you touched: sean.
hugged: sean.
you imed: don't remember.
you yelled at: probably one of my parents.
you kissed: sean.

o p p o s i t e | s e x
what attracts you: character.
last person you slow danced with: i don't think i've slow danced in a while.
makes you laugh the most: sean.
makes you smile: mm... sean.
who do you have a crush on: sean!

d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you?: ahaha, no. hopefully they would just call me. or i would call them.
wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: just so i could know what sex would be like. hah. just kidding..
cried because someone said something to you?: um yeah.

n u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: not really broken. but hurt, yes.
of hearts i have broken: i really don't know.
of guys ive kissed: more than 8. lets just leave it at that.
of girls ive kissed: um. i don't know. probably ellie once or something.
of continents you've been to?: two or three. it think..
of tight friends: a few.
of cds i own: not many.
of scars on my body: a few.

f i n a l | q u e s t i o n s
1. do you like fillings these out?: oh yes.
2. gold or silver: depends.
3. what was the last film you saw at the movies?: juno. SO FUNNY. wow, seriously go see it.
7. favorite cartoon/anime?: robot chicken.
8. what did you have for breakfast this morning?: eggs and a bagel.
10. who would you love being locked in a room with?: duh, sean.
11. could you live without your computer?: maybe for a while.
12. would you color your hair?: i would, yeah.
13. could you ever get off the computer?: yeah..
14. habla espanol?: un poco.
15. how many people are on your buddy list?: quite a few. and i don't really even know half of them.

this is how it works
you're young until you're not
you love until you don't
you try until you can't
you laugh until you cry
you cry until you laugh
and everyone must breathe
until their dying breath.

"I no longer believe in eye fish in fact, but still do in metaphor.
In the passion of an embrace, when breath, the wind, is at its
loudest and skin at its saltiest, I still nearly think that I could stop
things and hear, feel, the rolling of the sea. I am still nearly
convinced that, when my love and I kiss, we will be blessed with
the sight of angelfish and sea-horses rising to the surface of our
eyes, these fish being the surest proof of our love. In spite of
everything, I still profoundly believe that love is something oceanic."

-self by yann martel

I need some chronic.
wait.. I actually need money..
to buy the chronic I don't have.
but I don't have any money either..
GODDAMN.
this is way too depressing.

we fell from sky and universe,
when we fell in love with the sound,
of the birds and all the ocean lights,
and the gravity pulling us down.

I'm starting to think that things might actually be looking up.
just maybe?
I won't get my hopes up too much.
okay.. well maybe a little bit.
/thinkpositivethoughts

fortune cookie: may life throw you a pleasant curve.

I'm finding trouble everywhere I go right now.
I managed to avoided it for so long, and now it's catching back up with me.
it's like I'm walking through a forest with my head up looking at the sky,
and the next thing I know I just tripped over a log.

don't worry even if things end up a bit too heavy,
we'll all float on all right.

listening to the arcade fire always makes me feel a little better.

I woke up with the power out,
not really something to shout about.
ice has covered up my parents hands,
don't have any dreams don't have any plans.
I went out into the night, I went out to find some light.
kids are swinging from the power lines,
nobody's home so nobody minds.

I'm tired of thinking constantly about this one thing.

i don't really know where my life is heading.
but i don't care, as long as he's riding shot gun.