[Blur]
In my mind I see the way things should be
One sides thriving
The other snaps me back to reality
I take the long road home dreading my return
The wind cuts through me
As I trudge down death row
Awaiting the burn
Of a broken home and a broken life
And the cold steel of this cursed knife
The line between death and dead within
Has blurred together once again
In my room I rest upon these cold bed sheets
My thoughts swirling
As I sit and listen to my hearts steady beat
My fingers grasp my notebook, torn and old
The last page is bare
Reserved for this last day
When I lost my hold
On a broken home and a broken life
And the cold steel of this cursed knife
The line between death and dead within
Has blurred together once again
[Doomed]
The lighting cracks the sky above
Opening the wound
That bleeds and weeps upon us
The thunder shakes the ground below
Deafening the earth
And overtaking the souls of all
The ocean swells onto the shore
Creeping slowly
Enveloping everything with untamed fury
The wind picks up and shrieks
A scream of rage
As it throws all of the precious breakables
We are the breakables that are victim
Waiting for the storm
When nature throws its temper tantrums
We are doomed
[Unsung Heros]
This is not a goodbye
This is not an attention plee
This is for the unsung heros
Invisible to both you and me
We know all about our soldiers
Fighting for freedom day and night
But nobody sees all the others
Fighting for their lives
They're sitting across from you
Smiling away
The fake smiles of bravery
Put on a happy face
They're living beside you
Go to work every day
With a family back home
But they've gone astray
Yea, they'll go away
You turn off your TV and sigh
And go to bed praying for their lives
As the war rages on at home
Without notice, without care
You wear your bright red poppy
Over your beating heart each year
As the child down the street
Seeps the same bright red
They're sitting across from you
Smiling away
The fake smiles of bravery
Put on a happy face
They're living beside you
Go to work every day
With a family back home
But they've gone astray
Yea, they'll go away
This is not a cry for pity
This is not an attention plee
This is for the unsung heros
Invisible to both you and me
[Tomorrow]
Your bodies worn and broken
A picture of surrender
Your lips sing a sad tune
Of better days past
And your chest is searing
The burn of hearbreak
One million shattered pieces
Of the life you knew
Your eyes show your defeat
A window to your soul
Your heart ticks like a bomb
Ready to explode
The glass lays smashed and jagged
Your knuckles stained with red
The tears cleanse your sorrow
As you drop to your knees
And now you lay alone
Staring at the ceiling
And your chest will rise and fall
And you'll wait for tomorrow
[Perfection]
She's the epitamy of perfection,
A beautiful young woman,
Quiet and polite to everyone.
Her makeup is applied flawlessly,
Never a smudge, never too much.
Her loose curls gleaming brightly,
A golden blonde mass of waves.
Her soft pink dress hangs straight,
Not a single wrinkle in sight.
She walks like a movie star,
Her heels creating a sophisticated click.
But behind those gleaming blue eyes,
Are tears waiting to escape.
And behind that beaming smile,
Are sobs of the pain she hides.
She looks at herself and sees nothing,
A blank stare and a fake smile,
Emotionless and numb within,
With nothing worth living for,
And nobody to love.
[Secret Stars]
This plain canvas dark as night,
Eludes its warmth and all its light.
Unscarred, untouched by human hands,
It lays in wait for its chance,
To rise above the cursed plains,
To restore the peace again.
All it covers hushed to silence,
As we dream on.
The daylight breaks upon the land,
Sends us into a frenzy again.
The streets bussle to and fro,
As we wait for the sun to dip down low.
And here it comes again, the night.
Everything stops, turn out the lights.
The moon sets a romantic mood,
So hold me close.
The satin sheets beneath our skin,
Your soft kisses with lips so thin.
Your eyes are hazy from the dark,
As your fingers slowly make their mark,
Upon my quickly beating heart.
Every piece of you plays its part.
My eyes set off the sparks,
My secret stars.
[Six Feet Under]
Lets retrace our steps
And find out where we went wrong
Why we were punished
The reasons given to say goodbye
Lets sit down together
And not hold back our sorrow
That familiar feeling
Of fresh tears stinging the back of our eyes
We're filled with resentment
Not understanding why we've lost you
The candles burned bright
While our own flames flickered and died
Twenty years young
Twenty one, today
Six feet under
Full of life
Laying lifeless
Six feet under
Your smile was beautiful
The pictures really don't do it justice
It's faded and dull
Never followed by your light laugh
Your green eyes glimmered
But they never sparkle anymore
They've lost all their colour
They stay covered, eyelids closed shut
We're filled with resentment
Not understanding why we've lost you
We gasp for air
As the breath is stolen from your lungs
Twenty years young
Twenty one, today
Six feet under
Full of life
Laying lifeless
Six feet under
Now we're in shambles
Picking up the pieces of our shattered hearts
As we drag down the aisle
From the dark gloom into the blinding light
We hold each other
And say our prayers for your journeys
As the roses sway in the wind
And they lower you down beneath us
Six feet under
[Old Photographs and Love Songs]
Here I sit
Looking upon these past few years
Nowadays
I find myself alone
Torn pictures
Thrown recklessly across the floor
Remind me
Of the love that we once shared
Old photographs and love songs
Are the reminants of us
Are the things that hold our memories
Our moments and our past
Take one deep breathe and exhale
Remember what you said
Remember what we went through
What we had and what we lost
Bitter sweet
Is what you always seemed to be
Nowadays
Bitters what I seem
My favourite song
Brings your voice into my head
Turn it off
And burn the damn CD
Old photographs and love songs
Are the reminants of us
Are the things that hold our memories
Our moments and our past
Take one deep breathe and exhale
Remember what you said
Remember what we went through
What we had and what we lost
Wipe my eye
This is so ridiculous
Remind myself
It's over, I don't care
Old photographs and love songs
Ablaze in the fire
Burn all those painful memories
Our love and your smile
Old photographs and love songs
Erased from my mind
Gone, vanished, not a trace
Just like you and I
[untitled]
This is not a goodbye,
Until we meet again.
This is not a time for tears,
Treasure life for what its worth.
Speak of me not in past tense,
I am still everything I was.
Although invisible to the eye,
I live on in your hearts.
My time has come to fly away,
These wings carry me high.
I am not gone, I have not left,
I'll be beside you every day.
This poem was written by me to be read at my Grandmothers funeral as part of the Reverand's "speech"
This Book
These thoughts they swirl
Create clutter in my mind
I try to scream out loud
But my voice is hard to find
Frusteration boils inside
Pain burns my heart
My life is a rollercoaster
Every fall plays its part
I find a way to silently scream
To cry without the tears
To smile with just words
To express my every fear
My lifes stories
Scribbled in this book
Page after page of tragedy
Of chances I never took
Of happiness, of hope
Of unbearable searing pain
Of glory and of sorrow
Of footsteps in the rain
The ink smudged on the paper
Me, sitting on my bed
Isolate myself from the world
Transfer these thoughts from my head
[Lost Too Young]
She lights a candle
Beside her favourite picture
He was her life
Her everything
She remembers that day
What she was wearing
Where she was
The exact time she got that call
She never saw it coming
He was so young
So full of life
So...so...
She chokes on her tears
As they fall down her cheeks
Life is too short
People die too soon
She wonders why she was so blind
Blind to all his pain
But he kept it hidden from the world
Until that day
"Remember me for who I was
Not for what I've done.
I couldnt go on anymore
Those thoughts became real."
She grasps his letter
Smudged in a hundred places
From a hundred tears
Read a hundred times
She cries out his name
But her calls can't be answered
They fall on deaf ears
Silent lips can not speak
And now she lays alone
Staring at her ceiling
Granting his final wish
Shes holding on
[Pictures Of War]
Embers from the fire
Dance among the chaos
As red as the blood
The millions of victims lost
When will we realize
There’s nothing worth dying for
The sound of gunfire echo
Above the screams and roars
Mankind continues to kill
Feeding this hate machine
Prayer does no good
With our bloody hands, unclean
I don’t see the connection
Civilian describes a man?
When none of us are civil
And no one lends a hand
“A 17 year old girl commits suicide”
“School shooting, five dead”
Why is this such a shock to us?
With the pictures of war in their heads
Why does our kind have the urge to hurt?
Feeding our hunger blindly
Millions of people missing and dead
Silently praying, “find me”
dedicated to Christian, Brogen, and Pat and to anyone and everyone who has lost a loved one
[With You]
I used to think that fate was against me
That my luck wouldn’t change
I used to believe my life was wasted
That this world was so deranged
Now I see a brighter future
Now I see hope ahead for me
Now I know that life is precious
Now I know how it feels…
To be free
So baby…
Take my hand
Lead me
Away from here
Show me
What I’ve been missing
There’s nothing left to fear
With you
Took a look outside my window
Saw the sun shining bright
My dark depression has faded
And god, it feels so right
You’re the one that I’ve been waiting for
You’re the one I dream about all day
You’re the one that makes me smile
You’re the one and I need to say…
I need you
So baby…
Take my hand
Lead me
Away from here
Show me
What I’ve been missing
There’s nothing left to fear
With you
Baby… I need you…
Here with me
Also, written for my boyfriend Shawn. I love you
[Faceless]
I have no eyes to see things my way,
Your own vision blinded mine.
I have no mouth to speak my mind,
Your own opinions leave me speechless.
I am nothing to the world,
A prisoner of society.
Among all the others, I do not stand out.
I am a minority,
A nobody.
Faceless.
[Hidden] Confession][/u]
In between the dark and light,
Remember what’s wrong, what’s right.
Embellish your souls desire,
Alight your hearts blazing fire.
Lick the wounds of the past,
Lavish in hope, make it last.
Yearn again for that tender touch,
Let go of your emotional clutch.
Illusions of love become real,
Kept inside what you really feel.
Embody the words that you speak,
Your past troubles seem small, meek.
Open your eyes in awed gaze,
Utopia is just a phase.
This poem is titled Hidden Confession because there is actually a hidden confession concealed in the poem. It was written for my boyfriend and given to him on Valentines day. A week later he asked me out. [/b]
