Im fed up! ive tried to have a relationship with someone but no, i gotta fuck it up! if your reading this im venting because its better than putting a whole in the fucking wall and destroying my laptop or phone. I dont know why the hell i cant do it. 3 years. 3 god damn years. why do i even bother? i know ill fuck it up. whats the point in trying if i know ill screw up? Why cant i keep it together? Why does it gotta be so freaking hard?

So after a year of schooling, i went for an interview and as of march 2 i will be working as an apprentice mechanic. HA HA!!

Music is a big part of my life. Its a key to relaxation in any mood. It sets the mind at ease. It pumps up the heart when your mad or excited. Its a universal THING that binds people who may not even understand eachothers language ( ive seen it ). Some people see music, i mean literally see it, in bands of color. Whether thats their mind playing tricks or something we cant do ourselves, i dont know. (it is said that we only use 10% of our brain, whats the possibilitys of the the other 90?) Music setd the heart free. Music really is life. (and i just rambled lol )

I am afraid of the night. Thats why i love it.
Blue is my favorite colour. Color is nothing without shade, my favorite shade is black.
I say i dont care. I mean you dont need to know.
I say im here for you. I mean 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, even if i was asleep when you called.
I hate the cold. I love to snowboard.
All you in grade 10 or lower say you love the other. Is that why you cheated? lets see you last 2 years.
I get tired of hearing I LOVE YOU. BUT, your kisses mean so much more.
Love is just a word.
IM SORRY is just the FIRST step, can you take the extra few steps? i did. Im happy.
I dont watch tv. Its boring.
I love to work out. I rarely do.
Ive been with my GF for 2 years. Ill kick your ass.
I dont drink till im drunk. I dont know what drugs truly look like.
Half the guys out there in school grades 8-11, need to buy a belt, not smokes.
i dont smoke, it kills. Do you want to die?
This is all for now. Ill post more in the future

Just showing my support for our Royal Canadian Military Forces. Everyday our troops are out fighting for our freedom and rights. Without them you who is reading this would not be there reading this. For all you know you could be in a sweat shop like the thousands of children out in the world, if it were not for our troops. Yes life is hard. Yes we have it easy compared to the majority of other countries. And you know what, if it wasnt for the political bs thats involved in aspects of the military i know quite a few people including my father who would still be in the military fighting for our land. I care about our troops. What they do keeps me, my friends, family, and everyone behind Canada's borders safe from another sort of harm. And you know what, yes, if you dont support our troops, be my guest, go stand in front of them. I dont want to hear anybodies negativity towards our troops, but i would love to hear from those who support them. Their our troops. Our guardian angels. They are the front line. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RUQo2Eej-XA I challenge everyone who reads this to do one thing. Buy a magnet in support of our troops and tag it to your vehicle. Even if youve already got one. They are NOT expensive, here they are the prive of a pop. Show your support. Send me a pic of the magnet attached to your vehicle, im thinking of making a blog post of just photos from those who support our troops. Hope to see some pics. Have a good day/ night.

Got some of my drawings uploaded to my gallery, finally

I GOT MY LEARNERS! FIRST TRY!! BOOO YA! finally

so its been forever since i was the computer. my car is on hold due to the snow. ive got my snowboard gear, $1200 worth, yet cant go (no ride) work seems like forever. So if anyone wants to hang out this week, except for friday, or if anyone is going out to ski/board somewhere, PLZ GIVE ME A SHOUT. im bored as fuck sitting here. though the extra time with my gf jess has benn most6 wonderful i must admit that

dont keep things a personel secret if they hurt you. Theres a good chance that the thing ur hiding it is the reason ur sad. So say wut u have to say, and stop hiding. be brave. be courageous. do something u know u might regret but in the end, everything will be better. And u will be Happier.

I’m a free fall,
Straight out of control.
Full of words of wisdom,
I’m seeing double vision.
From a dead on, head on crash coursing collision.
A sucker for a cover,
Every voice I’ve heard.
Cos this is mine.
It’s all for you.

There you go again being beautiful you.
Setting a fire to all you hold on to.
There’s a blaze in my hands.
Betrayal. One-sided view.
There you go again,
Be another friend,
To a beautiful, beautiful you.

I’m a concept in the human race
A mirrored image, another shade of grace.
Mortified, barely holding on to life.
A prejudice, a lover.
Always here forever.
Cos this is mine.
It’s all for you.

There you go again being beautiful you.
Setting a fire to all you hold on to.
There’s a blaze in my hands.
Betrayal. One-sided view.
There you go again,
Be another friend,
To a beautiful, beautiful you.

I keep hearing words you said.
It keeps playing over and over again.

There you go again being beautiful you.
Setting a fire to all you hold on to.
There’s a blaze in my hands.
Betrayal. One-sided view.
There you go again,
Be another friend,
To a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, you.

Orange - Taken and happy .

Green - Taken and thinking about breaking up .

Black - Taken and cheating on someone .

Blue - Single & like someone

Pink - Single and hating it .

Yellow - Single and loving it .

Gray - Single and not loving it , and not really hating it .
Purple - Heartbroken .

Baby Blue - Confused

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wMPdjt-4ew8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bZeIOM50gT0&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=inA-36YRV0Y&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PvAVzOjLf_g&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BwA5tneNcF4&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dDHAKQ4vBxw&feature​=related

Kiss on the belly-----"lets have sex"
*Kiss on the Forehead ----"Forever you will be mine"
*Kiss on the Ear ---"I'm horny"
*Kiss on the Cheek ---"We're friends"
*Kiss on the Hand ---"I adore you"
*Kiss on the Neck ---"We belong together"
*Kiss on the Shoulder ---"I want you"
*Kiss on the Lips ---"I love you" OR "I want you"
*Holding Hands ---"We can learn to love each other"

*A wink ---"Let's get it on"
*Slap on the Ass ---"That's mine"
*Playing with the Ear ---"I can't live without you"
*Holding on tight ---"Don't let go"
*Looking into each other's Eyes ---"Don't let go"
*Playing with Hair on Head ---"Tell me you love me"
*Arms around the Waist ---"I love you too much to let go"
*Laughing while Kissing ---"I am completely Comfortable with you"

--Advice--
*DONT ask for a kiss, take one.
*If you were thinking about someone while reading this,
you're definitely in Love (or strong like).

--Requirements--
*Post this again after reading!!
Or you will have a bad year of Relationships.

If you REALLY LIKE OR LOVE someone right now
and MISS THEM and can't get them out of your head
then Re-post this within One Minute and Whoever you are missing will
surprise you tomorrow.
Repost this as "what a kiss means"

In The Ayer-Flo Roda