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THE FOLLOWING ARE MY OWN POEMS FROM EXPERIENCE IN LIFE

"I see you standing, standing on your own it's such a lonely place for you, for you to be and ifyou need a shoulder, or if you need a friend I'll be here standing untill the better end"

Can we pretend
that I'm not so dillusional
What's going on I can't control
this feeling that I've never known
It crawls way deep inside of me
I never asked to be me

When you can't understand me
only makes you want to hate me
but i like it when you hate me
cuz it makes me feel like god

what if I make it to my place
what happens when there's nothing left to chase
another day I wish away, Another day I ask myself
Why do I breathe

I'm incabable of the simple things
that make you laugh and smile
The way I see it you owe me time
cuz i spent so much on you

When you can't understand me
only makes you want to kill me
but i like it when you kill me
cuz it makes me feel like god

And if I sell my soul I'll take you anywhere
You want
All my life, I've been right
you proved me wrong in just one night
Why do I even breathe


#2

Give me time give me faith
Give me everything I hate
Still I take with a smile for awhile

Do I feel the need to rate my life
Based upon this fight with myself
Give me anything I can't control

Give me something I can't live without

Stop the time kill the faith
Take this love and make it hate
And I, yes I need anything I can't control

Can life feel any better
I can't feel anything


#3
In life a little rain may fall
My life flooded a year ago
When you walked away from this concave
This routine's boring me to death
We pass up every chance we get
To swallow, I'll re-go, and let our life begin

How does it feel to see it all end
and you'll never see me again
How does it feel to see it all end
and you'll never see me again

Love comes, and love it goes
Nothing new to me
Just remember the good times passed
and the good times yet to be

How does it feel to see it all end
and you'll never see me again
How does it feel to see it all end
and you'll never see me again

Hold your breath while I sleep
Outside your window
Hold your breath while I sleep
Outside your window

You love me too much
While I couldn't love you enough...

#4
love the way I think the world owes me something
They'll all be sorry when they see what I can do
forget it, it's over i can't take that pressure
I'm not very good at this if you can't tell by now
Do you believe in me?

Hang on to me -- I promise you

Forget the norm i'll take the path less traveled
take what i've got, make it all I want
I'm in control, no mercy, no boundaries
sick of watching my life crash around me
Do you believe in me?

There's a force over the mountain, under the rivers, deeper than wisdom
So Stick my me, we'll find a way
to make it through this hell together

"I see you standing, standing on your own
it's such a lonely place for you, for you to be
and if you need a shoulder, or if you need a friend
I'll be here standing until the bitter end!!"



I WISH FOR POWER NOT THE LONGEVITY TO ABUSE IT


A DROP OF HUMANITY FOR A SEA OF POWER


THE FATAL FLAW IN EVERY PLAN IS THE ASSUMPTION IS THAT YOU KNOW MORE THAN YOUR ENEMY





"ROMANCE IS A PAIN FOR GUYS THAT HAVE NO GAME"




think its finally time
We get on out of here
the band is getting old
the air is gettig cold
You were the perfect date
but tonight it's getting late
So get out while you can
Too nervous to hold your hand

Romance is a pain
For guys that have no game
So get out while you can
Too nervous to hold your hand

You make my knees weak
I'm nervous when we speak
Did you hear my phony cough
All self control has been lost
You give me confidence
When you keep throwing hints
I think you're nervous too
We both don't have a clue.




I think I got in over my head,
The understanding was were just friends,
Now I can't stop thinking of you,
and secrets we share,
alone in my room,
they all meant nothing.
I shouldn't get so attached,
Just realize the facts,
And just accept that nothing real was ever there.


'Cause it all just meant nothing,
It all just meant nothing,
It all just meant nothing,
It all meant nothing to you.

I sit and wait for the phone to ring
imprisoned by the power to think
focus on moments of the past
and feelings they fade
Or shatter like glass
and fall to nothing
I guess I'll be on my way
take it day by day
and just forget the taste of having you to myself


Oh I'll get by,
and keep on trying,
I will not cry for you,
I wont ask why,
put it behind me,
and carry on with my heart broken in two,
As days go by,
The pain inside me,
Will fade away like you.



The walls cave in on me, this life that you call mine
You smile say you love me, I want to smash your face
My torment, my prison, why must life be this way
I close my eyes to see my mental death of you
My tears spill from the corner of my eye
Stumbling upon the realization
No one wins
Rejection, ostracized, become to numb to love
They say that they’re you friend, you wanted so much more
Companion, a lover, you wont let me love you
Raising my fists in rage, I curse gods high and low
My tears spill from the corner of my eye
Stumbling upon the realization
No one wins
I feel the oppression of this life that’s inflicted upon me
You scoff at misery that I collapse under the sheer force of
Your complete ignorance has me screaming rage and hatred for you
You are an imbecile and it is for that fact that you must die
How can you deceive yourself with lies
Why must you say fucking blatant non-truths
Admit it if you must hate me
And then we won’t pretend to be friends
Tidal waves of anger cascade into rivulets
Of thought that I must learn to get under control
I must think, organize, and come to terms with this
No matter how hard I try I won’t win
My tears spill from the corner of my eye
Stumbling upon the realization
No one wins



Tell me dear,
How could I make this more clear?
When I say this is forever
And how is that so wrong
Is it too much to ask to not be alone
So what did I do wrong?
I'll take it back and start over again.

Well I fall asleep with you,
And I wake up alone and unwanted
In your silence.
And I wish I could destroy you
But instead I'll just adore you
And know that you are silent.

I'll cross my fingers tight
And sleep to dream of you.
Cause when I wake
I know I'll be alone,
But it's worth it for you.

And I'd sleep through any dream for you.
And I'd wit through anything.
You're everything to me.

I'm still waiting

drawing
MOST TYPES OF MUSIC
GUITAR
GREENDAY
SYSTEM OF A DOWN
KORN
ICP
MINDLESS SELF INDULGENCE
THREE DAYS GRACE
BLINK182
STORY OF THE YEAR
YELLOW CARD
EMINEM
GOLD FINGER
2PAC
NELLY
BIGGIE
DRE
TRAPT
RED HOT CHILLI PEPPERS
BILLY TALENT
3 DOORS DOWN
POETRY
FAMILY
FRIENDS
SCHOOL
READING
WRITING
SNOWBOARDING
WAKEBOARDING
JUST TALKING TO GIRLS
LISTENING
BEING LISTEN
CHILLEN
DRINKING
SOCCER
WHEN EVER I HAVE A GOOD DAY (VERY RARE)
LIVING ON MY OWN
MY BROTHERS (ALWAYS THERE FOR EACH OTHER MISS YOU ALL)
MY FRIENDS BACK HOME AND FORT SASKATCHEWAN

BEING TOLD I'VE NEVER SUCCEDED ANYTHING

PAIN

Not knowing whats wrong with me

FAKING MY SMILE

FORT MAC

PEOPLE WHO SPREAD FUCKIN RUMORS

SOME PPL IN THE FORT

STUPID LIL GIRLS

CURRENTLY MY LIFE

BEING BLAME FOR SHIT YOU DONT DO

NO ONE REPLYING ME

RACISM

ALONE