I haven't changed my profile in ages, sorry, I have better things to do lol, but I DID finally put up new photos lol

I HAVE FACEBOOK NOW!!! :)[/b]

I HATE MY SMILE, I HATE MY SMILE, I HATE MY SMILE, I HATE MY SMILE, I HATE MY SMILE!!! lol

Well, i'm finally back on Nex, lol it's been like 6 months and everyone's been telling me to update my profile etc... i'm getting new pics on the way so no worries, stop asking me for some!!! haha

About me... lets see... i'm a lifeguard with the city of coquitlam, i just finished my scuba diving certification so ne other divers out there that need a "buddy" haha leave a message, i'm looking for a good partner i like hanging with friends, shopping and all that, i'm a nice enough guy if you're nice to me so drop a line

I havn't writen poetry in a long time unfortunatly, but some of my stuff is in my profile so please read it and tell me what you think (i want honesty, not nice little "oh it's great" all the time lol). One of my biggest beliefs is that those who do not accept critasism travel the world knowing less about themselves then when they were first brought into this earth.

Oh, also, if you see spelling mistakes (garunteed they're on here, i'm terrible with that) just tell me! lol i wanna know!


I'm looking for protraits of me done on the program paint!!! :D[/size]


Alicia K

Melissa J

Madi

Marissa

Janise

Adam

Kat

Khaleel

TRY THIS, YOU'LL LAUGH YOUR ASS OFF! --> go to www.google.ca and type the word "failure" (without the quotations) into the search box, but press the "i'm feeling lucky" icon instead. lol it's so true ;)




98% of the teenage population does or has tried smoking pot. If you are one of the 2% who hasn't, copy this into your profile

If you have ever pushed on a door that said "pull", copy and paste this into your profile

to make it nice and easy to know wat i'm getting across i colour coded my profile acording to how i'm feeling lol

Green is me pissed off
Red is my deep darkeness-> haha don't ask
Orange is joking around
Blue is upset or sorowfully heartfelt
Purple is thoughtful
Black is emotionless


lol me being an idiot (bad pic lol)

o ya, that's me hahahaha

me teaching military cadets about survival skills, i'm in the black toque and the black and green combats, my bro's in the grey toque and green combats (the pic's kinda small though:S)

Annie, Me (With a REALY weird look on my face... no idea wat that's about lol) and Brittany

the band after anual '05 - i'm bottom right

Me (on the right obviously) accepting an award at the awards ceremony '05 (bad red-eye)

The range team (shooting) at the awards ceremony (i'm second from the left - the damned flash made it look like I don't have Pupils haha)


FUCK RONALDO, RICARDO IS GOD!!![/color][/b]



Didn't have room to put this with the rest of the music and peoms i have on here... but this song describes me perfectly.


I'm just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I'd rather swim ashore

Without a life vest I'd be stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like 'fourteen miles away'

Now floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I'm sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I'm cold as cold as cold can be
be

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
the jetsam sunk, I'm left behind
I'm treading for my life believe me
(How can I keep up this breathing)

Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Now waking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow (yeah)
Just to prove I knew how (yeah)
It's midnight's late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
Set front row in my need to fall

Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
into the ocean...end it all

-Into the Ocean - Blue October

Some things i came up with:

The Shining

Another night deprived of slumber,
Hours passing without number,
My eyes scan 'round the room I lay.

Dripping sweat and not quite certain,
that tonight the final curtain,
shall fall upon my short life's precious play.

Suddenly I hear a noise,
Of a man tripping over toys,
Cursing underneath his ragged breath.

Dragging his axe that's slowly scraping,
On the floor with intents of raping,
Me of life to replace with vicious death.

Three months ago, or was it four?
It feels like it was so much more!
We were given this house as ours to claim.

With food and water but frozen fountain,
We were stuck upon this god damned mountain,
And my husband was slowly driven insane.

The axe suddenly strikes the door,
I fall upon the hard-wood floor,
With my morals in a hopeless wreck.

He charges into room,
I feel my imminent doom,
As the axe comes down upon my neck.

-Gabriel (2003)



My Greatest Fear

I can't beleive she's realy gone,
The time goes by and it starts to dawn,

That i will never hold here again so close, so dear,
But the thing of wich I most truly fear,

Is that I will never be able to make her see,
How much she truly means to me,

Words can never discribe my heartfelt emotions,
Nor will the birds, the trees, or the vast blue oceans.

-Gabriel (2004)


tell me what u think of them



When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same

'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain

We've been through this auch a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain

But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away

If we could take the time
to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time... on my own
Sometimes I need some time... all alone
Everybody needs some time... on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain

Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one

-November Rain - Guns 'n Roses



Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars alone
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I a king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have chanced it all

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance

The Dance - Garth Brooks



Last time I saw her it was turnin' colder
But that was years ago
Last I heard she had moved to Boulder
But where she's now, I don't know
But there's somethin' 'bout this time of year
That spins my head around
Takes me back, makes me wonder
What she's doin' now

'Cause what she's doin' now is tearin' me apart
Fillin' up my mind and emptying my heart
I can hear her call each time the cold wind blows
And I wonder if she knows what she's doin' now

Just for laughs, I dialed her old number
But no one knew her name
Hung up the phone, sat there and wondered
If she'd ever done the same
I took a walk in the evenin' wind
To clear my head somehow
But tonight I lie here thinkin'
Wha's she doin' now

'Cause what she's doin' now is tearin' me apart
Fillin' up my mind and emptying my heart
I can hear her call each time the cold wind blows
And I wonder if she knows what she's doin' now

-What She's Doing Now




If I could have just one wish
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck
the warmth of your lips on my cheek
the touch of your fingers on my skin
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.




boy: I saw her today
girl: I saw him today.
boy: It seems like its been forever.
girl: I wonder if he still cares.
boy: She looks better then before.
girl: I couldnt stop staring at him.
boy: I asked her how things were going.
girl: I asked about his new girlfriend.
boy: Id choose her over any girl im with.
girl: Hes probably really happy right now.
boy: I couldnt look at her without starting to cry.
girl: He couldnt even look at me.
boy: I told her i miss her.
girl: He doesnt mean it.
boy: I meant it.
girl: He didnt mean it.
boy: I love her.
girl: He loves his new girlfriend.
boy: I held her for the last time.
girl: He gave me a friendly hug.
boy: Then i went home and cried.
girl: Then i went home and cried.
boy: I lost her.
girl: I love him.

-Never Knowing Realy Hurts


i edited that myself hehe


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i like wat's above this text, i just didn't have room 2 put it in my likes hahaha :P





I hate people who can't put up with other peoples cultures, that, and the dutch hahahahaha!




"On a warm summer's night would you offer yourself to the wolf with the red roses?"
"Would he offer me his mouth?"
"Yes"
"Would he offer me his teeth?"
"Yes"
"Would he offer me his jaws?"
"Yes"
"Would he offer me his hunger?"
"Yes"
"Again, would he offer me his hunger?"
"Yes"
"Does he need me?"
"Yes"
"Would he starve without me?"
"Yes. On a warm summer's night would you offer your throught to the wolf with the red rosses?"
"Yes"
"Do you love the wolf with the red rosses?"
"Yes"
"I bet you say that to all the wolves"
- Meat loaf

HOLY SHIT THAT IS A FREAKY BEGINING TO A SONG!!!

I just want, bang bang bang
I don't want to know your name
I just want, bang bang bang
I don't want relationship
I just want, bang bang bang
I don't want to meet your parents
I just want, bang bang bang

lol, such a weird song :P

Parents who blame third parties for the corruption of their childen. Control your kids and stop blaming everyone eles!!! "Oh gee, timmy swore, it must be that damn hip-hop" ya okay... or crazy idea... he heard you!!! I'm sick of parents blaming TV, music, other people, other cultures etc etc, for the fact that their children arn't the perfect little muffins they always dreamed of. And stop telling your kids that smoking pot is bad when you go load yourself down with prescription drugs later that night 'cause you're "over worked". Just becuase a drug is legal, doesn't mean you can go nuts and take a million pills 'cause life sucks. Everyone's lives suck in some way, but you don't see us all popping meds. Get over it!!! Okay i'm done my little rant.

SLUTS
FAKES
SLUTS
HOMOPHOBICS
SLUTS
PEOPLE WHO THINK THEY'RE EVERYTHING WHEN THEY'RE NOT
DID I MENTION SLUTS? lol

DIE CRISTIANO RONALDO, DIE!!!![/size]