1. once again with the assumptions.
quit making everything about you.
2. that was a huge waste of my time.
3. kfc is a party in your fucken tummy!
1. don`t jump to assumptions like that.
k thnx.
2. i love bugging you like that! lmao.
3. i need more shifts this week!
more shifts = more MOOLAH!
4. seriously thinking about moving to my dads for the summer.
and maybe permanently..
5. glad to see you feeling better momma! (=
6. SHADDAP. you`ve been such a bitch to me lately.
SHOVE IT.
fuuucken `hungover.
not nice..
but i`mma have a shower and then maybe i`ll feel better.
tonight was simply terrible.
it started out good.
we were having fun and drinking and laughing.
and then we go for a walk.
and start breaking into cars.
i found over 4 grams of weed, a glass pipe, a grinder, and like 4 lighters.
YES!
... no.
the next thing i know a fucken paddywagon pulls out in front of me.
and then.. i`m cuffed.
i was the only one cuffed at first.
i told the honest truth to them.
and then they searched me and found the shit i stole.
we went to jail for a bit and i was fucken scared!
my mom was pissed.. (still is)
and i`m pretty sure i`m grounded till i die.
i appear in court on april 19th.
fuck my life, fuck breaking the law and fuck alcohol.
this is it.
today, i saw you.
i didn`t think you would talk to me.
but you did.
and that made me happy.
but, it also made me wonder.
why?
why would you choose now to talk to me?
and why did it take so long?
talking to you hurt.
it hurt so bad, i cried.
that`s never happened before.
the worst part is...
i`m still not over you.
no matter what,
i will ALWAYS have feelings for you.
i still think your a cutie!
most amazing movie i have ever seen. no doubt about that.
FUCK FINALS!
seeing you is like looking through glass.
you`re there, but there`s always an invisible wall blocking my love for you.
so, the truth finally came out today.
there is no more "us".
there may never be.
things are always too good to be true.
so, that`s the end of that.
all those amazing nights, beautiful kisses and the 3 little words that made me fall for you.
not only does that make me wanna run from this place,
but that fact that my mother doesn`t know what to do with me anymore.
she thinks i`m doing drugs.
like, FUCK.
everything has crumbled beneath me and i`m free falling.
your not there to catch me.
no one is.
i`m all alone and as i sit here i wonder if i will ever be okay.
cause the truth of the matter is..
i am not okay.
and you.. you know who you are.
you were right. i did get hurt.
sorry i didn`t think it would happen.
i bet your happy to know you were right.
just please don`t fucken say, "i told you so."
damn, this hurts more than anything i`ve ever experienced.
i feel like someone has ripped my heart out and stepped on it.
i am sooo not okay.
