A pill to make you numb, A pill to make you dumb, A pill to make you anybody else, But all the drugs in this world, Won't save her from herself
this summer - god took away someone very important to me ,
but i didnt let it bring me down ,
this summer- i gave my heart to someone,
who didnt give me theres in return
this summer- i wished for things ,
that never came true .
this summer - i tried to drink away the pain,
but it always came back the next day ,
This summer - i forgot who iam,
and now i just cant find myself.
this summer- i lost my bestfrend,
because i tried to be someone else.
this summer - completley destroyed me.
Lately , these have been the hardest days ever
- you broke my heart like you promised you wouldnt .
- i have no were to live
- i wasnt gonna go home so i could stay with you. but u ruined it.
- and now , lets hope theres no other problems ,.
So you changed your mind that quickly ? aint ready to fall in love just yet ?
too bad, we had somethin special , all i ask , is dont come back .
i need to be strong about this, and you know just as well as i do ,
i'd do anything to be with you, but the time has come,
for us to end, so please just dont come back agian. -
i dont know what i did to make you feel this way ,
but im done / were done.
i waited 6 months for you ,
i lost you within 2 weeks. </3
so i guess i shouldnt , but im starting to .
i kno im probly nothing but a temptuary thing to you,
but im gonna change that ,im gonna be the girl youll fall in love with
just wait and see.
hmmmm , so let me think about this,
you ignore me all week , i find out from ur fricken cousin
that u tried to bring over girls ! , you PROMISED youd come over tonight
but now your gone to a party with a buncha skanky bitches.
i dont know whats wrong with you ?
i sit here and wait for a phone call that never comes..
do u like hurting me ? cause you do it so well .
everyone keeps telling me i deserve so much better,
what if i juss decide that i dont wanna answer any inboxes, calls, or msgs you send me?
then mabee youll reilize what you lost, there no other girl that would do the shit i do for you, so dummy the fuck up or im gone.
the minute you're ready to tell me you feel the same,
i'll drop my whole world for you. but until then, I'm sorry,
i can't keep playing these games anymore.
I think part of the reason we hold onto something
so tight for so long is because we fear
something so great will never happen again
You will never forget your first love. That's what makes it so special. You love so hard, so deeply, and so intensely because you don't know any different. It's the best thing until it is over. Then you hurt like you've never been hurt before. Eventually you love again, but you love differently. You will love more carefully and more cautiously, continually comparing that person to your first love.
And I stare into that picture I have of you; and wonder where you are, who you're with, and what girl is being held in your arms. Afterwards my train of thought is overshadowed by the fact that I'm stuck at home, alone, without you by my side
I want to have you. I want to have 100% of you. I don't want 95 or 75 or even 50% of you. I have to have it all. I don't want to share you. I don't want to even think about ever sharing you. If we're going to keep dating then I need to have you all. You can't just give me a little bit and think I'll be satisfied forever. I know that sounds selfish but that's the way it has to be, and if you can't handle that then maybe we should end this right here, right now
havnt wrote a blog for a long timee so here it goes..
- mabee this helped me alot, but im ready to bring the past back to the future,
- i know you like me, but i just dont no if its a possible thing , your my bestfriend and ive lost too much friens threw relationships ,
- im sick and tired, of being sick and tired
- barry, you were more then a dad to me then my real dad, i really miss you, im going back to school for you , everything i do i do for you. r.i.p barry <33
- mabee we just need some space
- i said i love you, and i swear i still do
- you swore we'd always be friends no matter what.. what the hell happend
- might be going home finally
- i fucked up bad, but im ready to fix my mistakes
- im a different person now.
you drive me crazy pretty baby
we could be something special <3
havnt really been on much latley , if anyone needs to get a hold of me call 2934641
moved away to beausjour
i love you so much, im sorry i fucked us up so badly, i just wish youd forgive me, you mean more to me then any other person , everybody deserves a second chance :(
URG ! your driving me CRRRRAAZZZZY! , juss call me already.
Your best friend has sex with your ex, what happens?
i stop talking to them both
What is your biggest fear about making a total commitment to someone?
being hurt.
When you like someone, does it show?
it depends if i want them to know or not
How serious are your feelings for the person you like?
not so serious
Are you listening to any music?
nope.
What's something you're excited about right now?
christmas
Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you and meant it?
yes
Have you kissed one person more than 20 times in 09?
idk i dont count
The person you like/love runs up and kisses you, what do you do?
kiss him back ?
Do you believe teenagers can be in love and stay in love?
they can..
What are you doing Saturday?
drinking probly
Do you know what the last person you kissed is doing right now?
uhm no probly getting high or eating
Has anything happened to you within the past month that has made you angry?
ohhh yes.
Is there anyone who will always have a place in your heart?
yupp
Tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?
idk, just the way he is
When was the last time you cried?
a week ago
How often do you talk to the last person you kissed?
idk not often
Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn't around now?
yep, thats what always happens
Are you in an argument with someone important?
noone
Could things get better?
alot
Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
yeah at least a phone call
Are you wasting your time on someone?
pretty sure
Is there anyone out there who can give you butterflies in your stomach? one person
Have you ever seen your favorite band live?
nope
Is there anything you're currently holding back?
yep
Have you ever done something that you knew was wrong?
yeah
Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
yeah
Do you think age matters in relationships?
depending how far of age difference, but no not usually
Last time you saw fireworks, with who & where?
canada day - nathan brittany sahara kristen idk buncha ppl
Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
i dont even understand it.
If you woke up naked next to the last person that you kissed what would your reaction be?
i have no idea
Think of the last person who hurt you, do you forgive them?
no, i did; until he hurt me again
What's something you really want right now, be honest?
honestly, a phone call would be nice.
Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?
yeah
What time did you go to bed last night?
11
What's the background on your cell?
channel sign
So, who is it that has your heart at this moment?
this guy.
Is there one person you want to be with right now?
idk.
Are you thinking about a certain person right now?
yep
Do you think there are circumstances when it's okay to wait for someone?
yeah theres alot.
What is something you want to say to someone right now?
i have so much to say
Do you think it's possible to be friends with someone you wanna be with?
yeah - unless the only reason your friends with them is because
you want to be with them, then no.
Do you know what it's like to have to move on without wanting to?
so much.
What was the best thing that happened to you last year?
nothing.
This time last November, were you single?
no i was dating kaine
Who can you blame for your bad mood today?
im in a tired mood not bad
Do you have a best friend that knows you inside and out?
nope.
Is there someone you wish you were still close with?
vicki myk.
Do you like the majority of the people you went to school with?
yeah M-A-J-O-R-I-T-Y.
Which is harder: walking away from somebody you love or coming back to someone who hurt you?
both is pretty equal .
Don't tell me lies, where's the person you like?
i dont like anyone
How many people have you had real feelings for in 2009?
two
You're pregnant, your boyfriend or ex pushes you down stairs, how do you act?
i would flip .
Sex ruins relationships, right?
depends
Your best friend dies from a cocaine overdose, how would you react?
depending on who
What are your plans for your birthday?
i don't no yet
If you’re best friend needed somewhere to stay could they live with you?
Teysha - as long as she had her own room, yeah forsure
Would you be the dumb bitch who gets killed first in a movie?
lmfao probly
Have you ever cried in front of your number one?
yeah once or twice
Are all of your friends virgins?
some
Were you intoxicated the last time you threw up?
hah yea.
Have you ever found it hard to get over someone?
of course
When you say you don't care, do you mean it?
usually i actually don't.
Would you ever get any piercings on your body, other than your ear?
i have my lip , and belly button, and im getting my tounge, and had my eyebrow
Would you suffer through extreme pain if it meant saving your best friends- life?
yeah forsure
Do you take your clothes off when you're drunk?
no
You just walked in on your best friend having sex, what do you do?
hah i'd laugh
The last person you kissed needs you at 3 am would you go?
depends what it was about
Do you mean anything to the last person you held hands with?
idk
Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
more open then closed.
Do you believe there is one right person for you out there in the world?
no. i belive people fall in love if there able too.
Let's test your memory, what color were you wearing during your last kiss?
i was juiced but bright blue, jeans, and a light blue tank top, ooooh yeah im good
Who's in your profile picture with you?
nobody but me.
When you trip, do you get embarrassed or just play it off?
lmfao, i laugh.
Are you friends with the last person you kissed?
i like to think that
Is there someone who makes you instantly smile when you receive messages from them?
yes there sure is.
Do you have a best friend?
teysha , vicki
Would you rather dye your hair or go tanning?
dye my hair.
Would you pay someone to kill the person who hurt you a lot?
nope, thats a little much.
Have you ever wasted your time on something?
duh..
What is the most important PART of being in a relationship?
trust
If someone is doing something that upsets you, do you tell them?
yeah
Have you ever liked someone, then realized you didn't?
yeah
Are you drinking tonight?
no
Without stating any names, say something to someone:
your a bitch, and i think you should stop being so god damn dispicable, i kinda hate you.
Is anyone on your bad side now?
now, yeah
Is there someone you just can't imagine your life without?
my mom.
Do you and your best friend look alike?
me & teysha aperently look likes twins according to my brothers.
Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right?
i have this feeling alot.
Has any guy ever given you a reason not to trust them?
yes
Is it possible that you could be pregnant right now?
no.
What’s your biggest turn on, physically?
nice smile & when they smell good.
Have you ever missed someone and regretted breaking up with them?
once
Who have you gotten really close to over the year that you didnt think you would?
brooke mcleanen, craig vanderbos
Was the last time your heart pounded like crazy. For a good or bad reason?
both
You just found out you had cancer, what two people would know first?
well obviously my mom then my sister
You've just met someone incredible while out with friends, and (s)he's been kind enough to cough up a phone number, how long would you wait to call?
i would text them probably whenever.
Do you think the family of a murder victim should have any say in what punishment is given to the murderer?
yep
Would you rather have your dream job or your soul mate for the rest of your life?
soul mate !
Prefer to know everything about your significant other, or be regularly surprised?
half & half.
Think back to the last person you kssed, have you ever cried in their arms?
nope, but i've cried in front of him and when i stopped he hugged me.
If the last person you kissed bumped into you at school, what would be said?
WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU ALL THE WAY OVER HERE..
