I'm moving on
I'm tired of waiting for you
I'm letting you go
You can watch me walk away
I'm done

I deserve so much more



(just a note: NO THIS DOES NOT RETAIN TO ONE PERSON)

She's beautiful in her simple little way
She don't have too much to say when she gets mad
She understands she don't let go of anything
Even when the pain gets really bad
I guess I should have been more like that

You had it all for a pretty little while
And somehow you made me smile when I was sad
You took a chance on a bruised and beaten heart
And then you realized you wanted what you had
I guess I should have been more like that

I should have held on to my pride
I should have never let you lie
I guess you got what you deserve
I guess I should have been more like her

Forgiving you well she's stronger than I am
You don't look much like a man from where I'm at
It's plain to see desperation showed it's truth
You love her as she loves you with all she has
I guess I should have been more like that

I should have held on to my pride
I should have never let you lie
I guess you got what you deserve
I guess I should have been more like her

She's beautiful in her simple little way

wat do u think
Do i look like a good kisser?
[] yes
[] no


Would you kiss me?
[] yes
[] no
[] maybe

I look like..
[] a player
[] slut
[] whore
[] hubby/wifey type
[] one time thing
[] next bf/gf


If you saw me for the first time would you talk to me?
[] Yes
[] No


what would you want me to be to you?
[] friend
[] girl friend/boy friend
[] friend w/ benifits

How old do I look?
[] 12
[] 13
[] 14
[] 15
[] 16
[] 17
[] 18
[] 19
[] 20
[] 21
[] other


How good do I look from 1-10 (1-ugly / 10-BEAUTIFUL)
[] 1
[] 2
[] 3
[] 4
[] 5
[] 6
[] 7
[] 8
[] 9
[] 10

Would you rather..
[] Do me
Or
[] Date me

Do I have pretty eyes?
[] yes
[] no


Would you be sad if i moved?
[] yes
[]no?

Would you visit me?
[] yes
[] no

Am i
[] okay
[] hott
[] sexy
[]cute
[] ugly
[] beautiful
[] gorgeous
[] other

Would you rather..
[] be friends
[] makeout
[] cuddle
[] go out
[] hold hands

Would you give me your number?
[] yes
[] no

Are you going to repost this so i can answer for YOU?
() yes
() no

I like how my "friends" ignore me
I like how the person im "dating" hasn't talked to me in over a week
I like how that person lied to me
I like how someone who hasn't spoken to me for awhile will tell me that they're my friend and miss me after they read this
I like how so many promises were broken
I like how people have used me
I like how some of you think it's so easy
I like how i know that when i need a friend i only know of one who will be there for me
I like how only two people really helped me last year
I like how stupid and gullible I am
I like how you have get upset and rant before there is a reaction
I like how there's only one person i can trust

I like how tomorrow I may regret what I said but it's still out there, how no matter how hard i try not to get played it always happens, how I honestly don't know who i am anymore.

I Love that I have a reason for living and he's why I am still here

JANUARY
1 Who did you meet on new year? Um no one actually
2 Did you have a New Year's Resolution this year? No
3 Does it snow where you live? sure as hell does
4 Do you like hot chocolate? sure do
5 Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop? no

FEBRUARY
1 Did you celebrate Valentines day with anyone? no
2 When you were little did you buy Valentine's for the whole class? yes
3 Do you care if the groundhog sees its shadow or not? hell no
4 Is this your birthday month? No

MARCH
1 Are you irish? yea
2 Have you ever seen the end of a rainbow? I made my mommy drive over an hour once when i was little to find it but we never did lol
3 What did you do for St Patrick's Day? I was in Kelowna
4 Are you happy when winter is pretty much over? NO!!

APRIL
1 Do you like rain? yes
2 Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year? NO
3 Do you get tons of candy for Easter? no
4 Did you celebrate 4/20? No, i was knocked up
5 Do you love the month of April? Never really thought about it

MAY
1 What is your favorite flower? Orchids
2 Finish the phrase "April showers": Bring may flowers.
3 Do you do anything for May 12th?: Mothers day?
4 Is May anything special to you? No

JUNE
1 What is your favorite part about this month? Umm i don't know
2 Did you do anything fun during this month? Left to the NWT
3 Have a favorite baseball team? FUCK THAT SHIZ

JULY
1 Do you know what the 1st of July is? CANADA DAY fuckers LOL
2 Did you go to the fireworks? No they don't do that in McPherson.. well when i was there ne ways
3 Did you blast the A/C all day? no, it was cold up in the nwt lol
4 Did you start a fight with anyone? no

AUGUST
1 What was your favorite summer memory of '08? My Son being born
2 Did you have a sunburn? Sure as hell did
3 Did you go to the pool a lot? once
4 Were you ready for school at all? umm i don't go to school?

SEPTEMBER
1 Are you attending school? no
2 Do you like fall better than summer? Colours are pretty
3 What happened this month? I moved to butt fuck no where

OCTOBER
1 Did you go trick-or-treating? My son was too young lol
2 What is your favorite candy? umm can slurpees count?
3 What was your favorite thing(s) about this month? the leaves and costumes

NOVEMBER
1 Whose house did you go to for Thanksgiving? Daisy's
2 Anything exciting happen? started dating nick .. ish LOL
3 Do you love stuffing? um not particularaly
4 Do you play any winter sports? does falling on my ass all the time count HAHAHA

DECEMBER
1 Do you celebrate Christmas? hellz yea
2 Have you ever been kissed under the mistle toe? Um no
4 Is Christmas soon? It already passed
5 What do you love most about December? SNOW!!! and fires!!

2008: Friends and Enemies
Did you meet any new friends this year? Yes
Did any of your friendships end?: Yes
Did you dislike anyone? Yes
Did you make any new enemies? Possibly
Did you resolve any fights? No
Who is your closest friend? Donnie
Who did you grow apart from? umm a few ppl
Did you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships? Never regret

2008: All about YOU
Did you change at all this year?: i think so
Did you dye your hair?: 3 times
Did you get your hair cut?: umm just a trim
Were you in school?: no
Did you get good grades?: don't go to school
Did you have a job?: no
Did you drive?:Hell Yea
Did you own a car?: Truck
Did anyone close to you give birth?: HAHAHA YEA like atleast 5 people
Did you move at all?: LOL yea
Did you gain a crush on anyone?: Yea

2008: Wrap Up.
Is 2008 a good year?: I enjoyed it
Do you think 2009 will top 2008?:I don't know how it could lol
Do you have any current crushes? LOL only to the person im dating

I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don't wanna be that call at 4 o'clock in the morning
'Cause I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home

Ahhhh-Ahhh, the sun is blinding
I stayed up again
Oh, I'm finding
That's not the way I want my story to end

I'm safe up high,
Nothing can touch me
Why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside
You're my protection
But how do I feel this good sober?

I don't wanna be the girl that has to fill the silence..
The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
'Cause I won't remember, save your breath 'cause what's the use?

Ahhhh-Ahhh, the night is calling
And it whispers to me softly, "come play"
I am falling
And if I let myself go, I'm the only one to blame

I'm safe up high,
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside
You're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

Comin' down, comin' down, comin' down,
Spinnin' round, spinnin' round, spinnin' round
Looking for myself,
Sober
Comin' down, comin' down, comin' down,
Spinnin' round, spinnin' round, spinnin' round
Looking for myself,
Sober

When it's good, then it's good
It's all good 'till it goes bad
'Till you try to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry, never again!
Broken down in agony
Just trying to find a friend
Ohhh

Whoahhh

I'm safe up high,
Nothing can touch me
Why do I feel this party's over?
Whoahhh
No pain inside
You're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

Whoahhh

I'm safe up high, nothing can touch me
Why do I feel this party's over?
Why do I feel this party's over?
Whoahhh
No pain inside, you're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?
Why do I feel this party's over?

Will I ever feel this good sober?

Nick- So what'd u get me for christmas?
Jamie- No i'm not telling u
Nick- Is it a mexican?
Jamie- no i don't think a mexican could fit in my box............ hey wait, fuck you asshole!"
Nick- HAHAHAHAHA u said it
Jamie- You made say
Nick- yea but u said it
Jamie- shut up


Nick- pls tell me what u got
Jamie- no
Nick-are you sure its not a mexican
Jamie- ok ok, i got u a horny mexican
Nick-thats wrong
jamie- u asked

So i totally thought that when you date someone its cause they like you.
But i don't know if im just totally reading things wrong
But fuck i wish someone was just alittle more clear about what they want

Hey man,
Wow man it still hasn't hit me that you're really gone. The other day I was going home from Redwater I saw this old beat up truck and in The drivers seat i swear i saw you HAHA. I remember that may long camping trip, HAHA i remember u tried to buy us rounds but none of us were drinking and later u told me that we were the cheapest dates you'd ever paid for. Or that night where u and i spent like three hours talking while everyone else was asleep. Man, you were such a great guy. You have no idea how much i could use ur friendship right now, how much i want to tell you, and just well sit and talk again.

Missing you like there's no tomorrow bud.
Party it up!

I was having such a bad day today, My tv went, in 100 km radius there are no trees for sale, my child was a real grump. But then!! i found a new tv uber cheap with a remote, im gonna go chop down a little tree tomorrow, and well Quinlan will be ungrump tomorrow hopefully OOOOO and i gots a dishwasher, and someone who i know cares about me! Could life get any better?

WITH 2008 COMING TO AN END;;

YES OR NO:

1. Have you had any relationships this year? yep
2. Have you had your birthday yet? yep
3. Drank Starbucks? yes
4. Went Camping? kinda
5. Met someone special? Yes
6. Been out of country? live there?
7. What are you thinking about? cleaning
8. How many people have you gotten into a fight with this year? Fist fights none, verbal, alot

HAVE YOU:

1. Hugged someone? Yes
2. Slept in someone else's bed? Yes
3. Got a job? Yes
4. Loaned out money? Yes
5. Gotten in a car accident? yep
6. Gone over your mobile phone bill? Yes
7. Been called a bitch? Yes
8. Done something you regret? never regret

LASTS:

Last person you hugged? Nick
Last person to call you? Dad
When was the last time you felt stupid? not too sure
Who did you last yell at? dont remember
What did you do today? shopped

NINE FACTS :

01. Natural hair colour?Brown
02. Initials? JRG
04. Eye color? Blue
05. Height: 5'9
06. Pets: dog and cat
07. Mood: meh
08. Where would you rather be? somewhere.......
09. What was the last thing you drank? Dr pepper

NINE THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE:

01. Have you ever been in love: Yes
02. do you believe in love? sure do
03. Why did your LAST relationship fail? he wanted to be with someone else
04. Have you ever been heartbroken: Yes
05. Have you broken someones heart? not sure

06. Have you ever fallen for your best friend? yep
07. Have you ever liked someone but never told them? Yes
08. Are you afraid of commitment? Nope
09. Have you been in more than 5 serious relationships? No

EMOTIONS

01. Are you missing someone right now? Yes
02. Are you happy? Yes
03. Are you eating anything? No
04. Do you like someone right now? yea
05. If you could have anything, what would it be? A puppy

FIRSTS:

1. Who was your first prom date? jarrett
2. Do you still talk to your first love? yep
3. What was your first alcoholic drink? vodka
4. What was your first job? silver lake
5. What was your first car? 2002 oldsmobile alero
6. Who was the first person to text you today? um nick?
7. Who is the first person you thought of this morning? ......
8. Who was your first grade teacher? Ms.senich
9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? edmonton
10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with? ive never had to sneek out lol
12. Where was your first sleep over? kaylas
13. Who was the first person you talked to today? my dad
14. Whose wedding were you in the first time? my dads second wedding
15. What was the first thing you did this morning? played with quinlan
16. What was the first concert you ever went to? prozak hahahaha
17. First tattoo or piercing? Piercing, ears Tattoo, sholder blade
18. First foreign country you went to? USA
20. When was your first detention? ummm...
21. What was the first province you lived in? NWT
22. Who was the first person to really break your heart? Mike

K, short list... im working on it.... but these are songs that remind me of ppl

Alphabetical order

-Donnie- Rather be Lucky, Brad Johner
-Kai- What Happened to us, Hoobastank
-Katie- I Kissed a Girl, Katie Perry
-Mike- Differences, Genuwine
-Nick- M&M's, Blink-182
-Owen- Country Boy, Alan Jackson
-Phil- Over You, Daughtry

I think things may finally be turning around for me... i hope i don't jynx it but ok....
I just have to slow down and take my time... be patient... and i guess just see what happens

I gots a secret HAHAHAHA

Six lanes, tail lights
Red ants marchin into the night
They disappear to the left and right again
Another supper
From a sack
A 99 cent heart attak
I got a poundin head and an achin back
And the camels standin in a big straw stack

Chorus:

Im gonna live where the green grass grows
Watch my corn pop up in rows
Every night be tucked in close to you
Raise our kids where the good lords blessed
Point our rockin chairs towards the west
And plant our dreams where the peaceful river cools
Where the green grass grows

Well Im from
A map dot
A stop sign on a blacktop
I caught the first bus that I could hop from there
But all o this glitter is gettin dark
Theres concreate glowin in the city park
I dont know who my neighbors are
And theres bars on the corner and bars on my heart

(repeat chorus 2x)