1 year has come and gone... and it still hurts just as much.
All i can think about is what we were dealing with the weeks before, during, and after September 23, 2006.
It feels like i'm dealing with it all over, just your not here.
I think of what you must have been feeling. What you must have thought.
I wonder if it hurt. I wonder if your happier now?
I wonder if im talking to something that isnt even there. If im never going to see you again.
I hate not knowing so much. I hate living without you.
I hate that 1 year without you went so fast.
I dont know if im upset or happy that the 1st year without you is over.
Nothings new anymore... i know what fathers day will be like without you. I know what Christmas, Easter, and my birthday feel like without you.
It almost feels like im getting farther and farther from you. I just wish you could come home.
Im sick of looking at the same pictures over and over again. It hurts to realize that all the memories of you, ive already thought of. That there will be no more new ones.
Fuck i miss you.

i miss you.

i miss your smile.
i miss your goofy taste in clothing
i even miss your blue grass music.
i miss your laugh.
i miss your bear hugs
i even miss your hairy arms.
i miss your blue eyes.
i miss our father daughter movie nights
i even miss our fights.
i miss how protective you were.
i miss the faith you had in me
i even miss your pointless ideas.
i miss seeing you every morning.
i miss your random quotes
i even miss arguing about religion.
i miss helping you with your medicine.
i miss the family trips
i even miss the long car rides with you.
i miss dancing with you at weddings.
i miss hearing your crazy dreams
i even miss your snoring.
i miss you sticking up for us in ball.
i miss little pointers
i even miss your steroid "time" outs in the ball games.
i miss your big hands.
i miss how proud of me you were
i even miss crying with you.
i miss talking about the future.
i miss how strong your will to live was
i even miss dealing with your panic attacks in the middle of the night.
i miss how competitive you were.
i miss the way you used to smell
i even miss your projects that never got finished.
i miss how much you cared about my friends.
i miss how you werent only my dad, but theirs
i even miss sharing you with them.
i miss being daddys little girl.
i miss knowing you'd always be there
i even miss knowing i could do anything bad and you'd still adore me.
i miss having someone who loved me as much as you did.

ill miss you till the day i die

Believe it instead of just saying it bitches

If I had my life to do over,
I'd have chosen you to be my dad
once more.
Even if it meant losing you again,
It's worth all the tears in the
world.
You were my sunshine when skies
were gray.
I loved you and honored you;
You took all my tears away.
I was happy to be with you,
Proud to be your little girl.
Sometimes we would argue,
But to me you meant the world.
Your love was always pure;
You treated me as your own.
Your time seemed all too short and
I feel so alone.
What can I take from this?
My heart is completely crushed.
But nothing loved is ever lost -
And you are loved so much.
-punkin

I miss you both

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Daddy
by Deana Powell

I once knew a man,
Who gave love at his best,
Who did what he believed was right.
I once knew a man,
Who suffered uncontrollably,
Who found out how much he was loved.
I once knew a man,
Who gave everything he could,
Until he couldn't go on.
The man I once knew,
I will always remember,
As my daddy.
I love you wherever you are.

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Its like everytime i look at something in this house an old memory of you comes rushing into my head.
I miss you so much. I miss crying with you, i miss laughing with you, and i miss arguing with you. Everything... i miss absolutly everything.
At times it feels like life shouldnt be lived without you. It mostly hurts to think that a man with such a good heart had to go through so much pain.
I look at pictures of you and i swear your looking at me. Your gental stare and smile always let me know how proud of me you were.
Its those same eyes that watched me play all of my sports as if nothing were more important.
Its so hard to play them without you there cheering me on. It just doesnt feel the same. Almost like somethings missing...
I hear your songs and it reminds me of you and i cant help but cry. You taught me so much and i woudlnt trade it for the world.
I wish you were still here and healthy. Sometimes i hate god for putting such a great man through so much hurt. You deserved a long life with no complications.
But i would rather have lived being with you for these 16 years then not live with you at all.
I am a better person because of you.
You were with me from my first breath, and i was for your last...and i woudlnt have had it anyother way.
Ive never loved someone as much as i love you

rip daddy.


i look forward to the day i see you again
you better be waiting at the gates with open arms<3

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It's funny, how memories
Keep bringing you back to me
Just when I started to get myself together again
Thoughts of you
Come creeping in

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Our hearts weren't ready to let him go,
So this is our way to let him know that we miss him
And our love for him will never die.

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`Can you hear me when I talk to you?
Do you know how much I'd love to be with you?
Can you hear me when I talk to you?
'Cause I'd give anything if I just knew

Got a picture of you I carry in my heart, close my eyes to see it when the world gets dark

Not a day
goes by that
I don't think of you.
After all this time
you're still with me
it's true.
Somehow
you remain
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we walk to the beach ;; keeps us in shape
we crack a beer and cheers ;; then chug it the fuck down
we tell each other to drink faster ;; because thats what friends do
we stumble our way home ;; and laugh the whole way
then to top off our night
we steal the car to get food ;; which we puke up in the morning
Summer of 'o6 ;; let the good times roll

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