1 year has come and gone... and it still hurts just as much.
All i can think about is what we were dealing with the weeks before, during, and after September 23, 2006.
It feels like i'm dealing with it all over, just your not here.
I think of what you must have been feeling. What you must have thought.
I wonder if it hurt. I wonder if your happier now?
I wonder if im talking to something that isnt even there. If im never going to see you again.
I hate not knowing so much. I hate living without you.
I hate that 1 year without you went so fast.
I dont know if im upset or happy that the 1st year without you is over.
Nothings new anymore... i know what fathers day will be like without you. I know what Christmas, Easter, and my birthday feel like without you.
It almost feels like im getting farther and farther from you. I just wish you could come home.
Im sick of looking at the same pictures over and over again. It hurts to realize that all the memories of you, ive already thought of. That there will be no more new ones.
Fuck i miss you.