seize my last night
grasp his dark breaths
as they wrap themselves around my heart
I cant stop them
they tighten with each gasping breath
of my own
and it tightens the hold
like barbed wire
tight around me
it makes me bleed
silently, I scream for help
reach out to hit my violater
just to realize i'm all alone
I'm my own villian
my worst fear
no one else has been there
its me... all alone
my dark crimson tears
shatter as they hit the hard ground
and then take flight
for they are free
and i am trapped
all within myself
my thoughts, and all ideas
stuck inside
no one cares
and i know it
thats why i'm all alone
the wind crawls across my face
closing my eyes as i fade
all alone, rotting away
soft night kisses my cheeks
kisses my sins goodbye
its all my fault
they're dead
i'm dead
gasping for breath
grasping to touch reality
i die in the arms of...
myself
because of course no one
else
cares
dried mascara tracks
trickled down my face
my last tears spilt
ruining my face even more
ugly, fat
i make others want to puke
my dead bodys, sickening
i cut my skin
i made it hurt
it hurt everyone around me
now i'm there
in my internal world of pain
angels cry, harps sound
shadows come out from underground
they grasp my cold hands
and remove me from sight
no one will even
notice
my
absence.
goodbye.

I'm just sitting here
Letting the pain drip off of my skin
As my heart slowly melts beneath your grip
Squeeze me harder
The pain couldn't be any more
Than what I feel inside
So empty, alone
Everyone stares and looks through
What is really there
Whispers, secrets stab my back
I'm invisible
They think I don't know
But I hear you all every day
You laugh, whisper, talk
Shut up
Missiles, bullets, knives
Stab my face
Piercing the repulsive face
That I call my own
I am not ashamed
I am embarrassed, mortified, humiliated
At my body
But at least I know
What they think
And what I think
I don't hide it
The fan that spins above my head
Is supposed to cool me down
Yet my hands still sweat
I'm nervous, scared, anxious, tense
The mirror splits
The cameras shatter
As I look into them
Menacingly horrendous
I vomit in disgust
Your grip is getting tighter
As my knees buckle
I faint
I fall
My head slams against the door
The scream is barely heard
you are not really there
But you see me tumble
You laugh as I cry
Slowly dying on the cool tile

Why am i the quiet one?
Why am i so shy?
Why can't i be loud and cool,
however hard i try?
What's the point of asking you?
You'll never understand
Even if i look deep in your eye's
And grab your ugly hand.
I can't help that I'm this way.
It's a dark hole you've all dug.
And yes it only makes it worse,
When you give me a hug.
Asking me why I don't talk,
Only causes pain.
So please won't you leave me alone,
Till I can speak again?








LOVES
Kissing,cuddleing,hugs,
friends,my girlfriend,
R.W,holding his hand,
love,makeing-out,
being with him


NANA

I HACKED YOU!! THIS GAL IS TOTALLY AWESOME
I LOVE HER TO PIECES!! AND ALL YOU FUNNY LOOKING CREEPY GUYS STAY AWAY


miss-melody
Xx R a y n e e xX

Listen to your heart

I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

And there are voices
that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Listen to your heart, mm-mmmmmm

I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.
Blue october-into the blue




From first to last-Emily



All American Reject-My Paper Heart



Billy Talent-The Ex



I'll love you......But only if you'll love me too





MARRIE ME?




I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU

"S.O.S."

Told you I made dinner plans
For you and me and no one else
That don't include your crazy friends
Well I'm done
With awkward situation's empty conversations

Oh This is an S.O.S.
Don't wanna second guess,
This is the bottom line
It's true
I gave my all for you,
now my heart's in two
And I can't find the other half
It's like I'm walking on broken glass,
better believe I bled
It's a call I'll never get

So this is where the story ends
A conversation on IM
Well I'm done
with texting,
Sorry for the miscommunication

Oh This is an S.O.S.
Don't wanna second guess,
This is the bottom line
It's true
I gave my all for you,
now my heart's in two
And I can't find the other half
It's like I'm walking on broken glass,
better believe I bled
It's a call I'll never get

Next time I see you
I'm giving you a high five
'cause hugs are over rated, just FYI

Oh This is an S.O.S.
Don't wanna second guess,
This is the bottom line
It's true
I gave my all for you,
now my heart's in two
(yeah)

Oh This is an S.O.S.
Don't wanna second guess,
This is the bottom line
It's true
I gave my all for you,
now my heart's in two
And I can't find the other half
It's like I'm walking on broken glass,
better believe I bled
It's a call I'll never get







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I WISH YOU WERE HERE WITH ME!

WILL YOU GO OUT WITH ME?