Hey Addi .
Were going camping soo thus .
i needed a count down Yeah ?
So we need shit liiikkkeee . . .
*liquor
*tents (20 dollars per tent per night )
*condoms
*food ?
*sleeping bags
*gas
*clothes
*uhhhmm cant think of anything .
Addi my fine friend 3 DAYS !
This is one of those blogs where its not just to one person but to everyone, but secretly almost . i just want to rant a little , about how my best friend fuck that my sister is half way around the world my boyfriend sometimes acts that he could careless my ex tells me he loves but then turns around and bashes my face into the ground calling me stupid , And how i love what you have become to me even though it scares me . and my parents well fuck not caring right now is really working for me dad keep it up . Mom tanning is fun even though i'm streaky. and lesbo . round is the best shape you'll ever be in . Round is a fun shape i would know . I need someone even though i feel like i have everyone . I want to scream but i really have no reason too . And i want to say i love you but honestly i'm scared you wont say it back . Im screaming and no one can hear me . I think these are my own insecurities are starting to surface .
If feel like were drifting so much . It breaks me inside .
i feel like you dont want to talk to me and maybe that is me being paranoid that you will be different when you come back , maybe its cause when you told me your mom did want me at the airport silenet tears started rolling down my cheeks , or maybe its cause you werent here for one of the biggest moments when i got my car . maybe i just dont know if you even care about me any more hard to say when your not here .
FUCK YOU ! i can not believe you did that to me last night , i dont even know what to say to you , i would love to say sorry but i dont think that i did anything wrong you should be apologizing but we both know that , that will never happen . I love you but can you say the same thing back , or am i wasting your time .
We are getting so close , but i think that i feel bad .
Oh your an idiot , and your really lucky i didnt pound your face into the ground the other night .
You never have anything nice to say latley , i try and help you and you just drag me down to your immature level sorry , but its true .
HARD
one: will you answer every question honestly? Uhm yeha i think so .
two: have you ever stayed up all night while drunk or high? At my age , of course .
three: have you ever punched anyone in the face? yupp .
four: do you miss anything or anyone? I miss my living with my mom .
five: what makes you laugh no matter what? anyone that is close to me , or when i get tickled .
six: have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past 24 hours? Yupp .
seven: who was the last person you talked to? personally , my mom .
eight: what do you dislike at the moment? that i'm alone .
nine: name one person on your top friends who is the most like you? Meagan ?
HARDER
one: do you get butterflies around the guy you like? Yeah pretty much ,
two: do you think it is bad to have sex at your age? God no .
three: will you get married? Maybe .
four: do you lie about your age? I have .
five: do you like anyone on your top friends? my boyfriend ?
VERY PERSONAL .
one: if you were to have sex right now would you use condom? Yeah !
two: are you happy with yourself? i can be .
three: would you change yourself for the person you love? Yeah .
four: what do you tell yourself when times get hard? That it might get better , but not to cry , and to stop being a sissy bitch .
SECRETS .
one: when did you last cry? Yesterday .
two: do you believe in religion? i believe in it , but i dont follow one .
three: when was the last time you fell asleep with a guy? the other day .
four: what is currently on your mind? anwsering this quiz .
five: did you ever wish a close friend to death? probably , not meaningly though .
six: has a guy ever seriously punched you more than once? Yes .
SHOCKING .
one: have you ever dated your friend’s ex? Yupp ,
two : have you done bad things with your parents near by? uhm yeah .
three: have you started a horrible rumor about somebody? Yeah .
four: did you ever fail the school year? Nope .
five: have you ever done hallucinogenic drugs? Yes .
six: have you ever been too drunk to remember a certain night? Yupp .
seven: do you think your future will be a good one? Sure why not .
THE DEEP STUFF .
1. Do you think you were raised well? Compared to ?
2. Do you have a secret that you've never told ANYONE? no man .
3. How do you handle stress? I cry like a sissy bitch .
4. How would you spend your last day alive? if i know , with family , if i dont same as everyday .
5. Do you hide things well or do you have a guilty conscious? I can hide stuff , from some people .
6. If there were true love on one side of the street and a million bucks on the other, which one would you pick? True love , he'll have money (:
7. If your parents got divorced and you had to pick mom or dad to live with? Well see this already happened and i live with my dad .
8. If you had to choose between having one family member or 5 of your closest friends die who would you choose? I really don't know , i really hope i'm never faced by that .
9. Do you think you could ever forgive someone who murdered a family member? No .
THE LOVE STUFF .
1. Do you think you know the meaning of love? nope .
2. The last time you kissed someone..Was it someone you see yourself with ? Uhm yeah .
3. What’s the most important part of a relationship in your opinion? Trust , and love . you have to love the person or it wont work .
4. If your parents didn't like the person you were dating, would you lose them? No .
THE RANDOM STUFF .
1. Do you spend time with the same people always? Yeha .
2. Do you think best friends can be replaced? no .
3. Are you the type that would rather stay at other people's houses or have them at yours? i dont really care .
4. When is the last time you were truly happy with your life? Right now , i am happy .
5. Where was your default nexopia picture taken? BCI .
6. Do you think long distance relationships are ever really worth it? yes .
7. What is your favourite color? Yellow , and purple .
8. What do you do when you have a really bad day? i dont talk .
9. Do you really think exes can be "just friends"? yeah .
10. Who messaged you last? nexopia - meagan. facebook - meagan. msn - bray. text - max.
11. When was the last time you told someome you loved them? today .
12. If you could pack up and leave your life now to move away, would you? no .
13. Do you fall for people easily? yes .
14. Are you quick to start a fight? yes .
15. Do your parents really know YOU? yes .
16. Lyrics stuck in your head? "once a whore your nothing more"
17. Are you tired? kinda .
18. Any friends you'd like to tell how much you appreciate them? nope , dont feel the need .
20. Last time you walked farther than one block? uh today in the mall.
OFF THE WALL QUESTIONS .
2. Do you own an Ipod? I did .
3. Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep? yupp . every night . except last night .
4. Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk? Stawberry .
5. When was the last time you had starbucks? Today .
6. Do you think people talk about you behind your back? Oh yeah .
7. Is anyone in love with you? i hope so .
8. Ever cry in public? Yupp .
9. Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos? conch on friday ,
10. What’s the weather like? weather ?
11. Would you ever date anyone covered in tattoos? Yeah .
12. Do you pay attention to the calories in the package/box? sometimes . when i feel fat .
13. Do you use sarcasm? Oh yeah , so bad for it .
14. Do you get along better with the same sex or opposite? opposite .
15. Do you watch the news? Yupp .
16. How did you get one of your scars? i fell off my bike on a gravel road .
17. Who was the last person(s) to make you mad? the chick at the show store , i wanted to smack the hoe .
Cell Phone Quiz !
1. What color?
Black .
2. Who's the first person who comes up under the letter M
Maddii .
3. Who's the last person you called?
Wal * Mart .
4. Who was your last missed call from?
Mql .
5. Who's the 2nd person who comes up under A?
Amber .
6. Who's speed dial 2?
No one .
7. Who's the 3rd person who comes up under D?
Dexter .
8. Who was your last received call from?:
Mql .
9. Who's speed dial number 4?:
No one .
10. What is your background?
a star .
11. How many text messages are currently in your inbox?
100 .
12. Who's speed dial #1
Me .
13. What's the 5th message say in your inbox?
Chyeah .
14. Who's the 1st person who comes up under B?
Bray .
15. Who was your last text message from?
Shad .
16. Name every person you have text messages from in your inbox:
shad , Mama , Mql , Max , Grame , Neil , Kaylee ,Zack , Jesse .
17. What does your 6th message say ?
Hey Bro make sure you bring your chronic .
18. Whos the 9th person on your missed calls?
Daddy .
19. Who are most of your texts from
Max .
21. Who is the last name in your Phonebook?
Zack .
22. Who is the first person under the letter L?
Lesley .
23.Who is the last person under g ?
Grandpa .
24. What does your first text message in your inbox say?
The caf you ?
25. Who is the third person under K?
Kat .
Pick A Guy.
If you're gonna lie, don't do this.
1.) Would you say he is good looking? Heck yeah
2.) Does he go to your school? Npe .
3.) Do you like him? Minor crush . of course i do .
4.) How long have you liked him for? About two years .
5.) Ever dated him? Yupp .
6.) Ever cry over him? Yupp .
7.) What songs remind you of him? love story - taylor swift and realize - Colbie Calliet .
8.) Do you know his middle name? Yupp , Eric .
9.) How old is he? 16 .
10.) Last time you talked to him? Currently .
11.) Does he know how you feel? Well i hope so .
12.) Think about him a lot? Oh my god yeah .
13.) Is he older than you? Yupp .
14.) Does he have a girlfriend? If i count then yeah .
15.) Would you date him? Kinda am .
16.) Ever see him cry before? Yupp .
18.) How often do you talk about him? Every waking minute that people will listen .
19.) Anyone know you like him? I think so .
20.) When's his birthday? June 26 ?
21.) Ever hang out with this person, just the two of you? Uhm duhh .
22.) Have his phone number? yupp ,
23.) Are you gonna call him anytime soon? No , we never talk on the phone ever .
24.) Do you think he'll read this? Nope .
25.) Are you in his group of friends? Kinda , but not really .
26.) Has he ever given you anything? Yupp .
27.) Have any pictures of him? the back of his head lol .
28.) Anyone else like him? Not that i know about but bitch will get knocked out if i find out .
29.) Do you think you have a chance? Nah .... these are dumb .
31.) Brave enough to name him? Dude Jesse .
* TNA HOODIE .
*SCARF .
*NEW JEANS .
*FEW TANK TOPS .
*EYE SHADOW .
*VOLCOM TSHIRT .
*LASCOSTE BAG .
*NEW PUMAS .
*CHANEL BAG .
*GWEN STEFANI PERFUME . (MUSIC)
*NEW NECKLACE .
as soon as i think of more i'll add them .
Kid you are so amazing .
And i hope you never change .
Even though i never met you in person ,
you are still one of my best friends .
Just know that it doesnt matter who i'm with ,
what i am doing or where i am going in life .
You will always be on my mind .
I remember the first time i talked to you .
I was super bored and i wanted a new friend .
So i went on users and you were the third one down ,
on the list of people online .
and cause my favorite number is three ,
i picked you ,
And i remember how you defs didnt want to talk to me .
But i kept talking and asking questions anyway .
Until bam , you became my best friends .
And i just want you to know , that i will be behind you 100%
ALWAYS !
and please don't doubt it for a second .
Cause i can honestly say .
I really love you .
- Yours always ,
Sam Monster .
It's been seven months
and through this sometimes I couldn't
help but think I hated you and then
the next moment I love you so much it's sick
Well baby we've made it this far and I know
we can make it further but only time will
really tell .
Forever and ever kay ?
Ps I'll be your EVA if you will be my WALLE .
I love you .
Sam Monster.
This year is almost over. bold what has happened in 2008 so far.
lost a friend
stayed single the whole year
kissed someone new.
made-out in a car
made-out on a couch
kissed in the snow .
kissed in the rain .
fell in love
had your heart broken.
fell up stairs
walked in to a glass door
broke someone else’s heart.
had a stalker
questioned your sexual orientation .
came out of the closet .
got pregnant .
got somebody else pregnant .
had an abortion .
got married .
had a divorce .
had a gay marriage .
kissed someone of the same sex
dated someone you'll never forget.
you really loved or thought so at the time
lost faith in love
done something you've regretted
lost someone
kissed under mistletoe .
caught a shoplifter .
been caught shoplifting .
got a promotion .
got a pay raise .
changed jobs .
lost your job .
quit your job .
applied for a job
dated a co-worker .
dated your boss .
dated your boss' daughter/son .
got fired from your job .
got straight A's .
met one teacher you really like
met one teacher you really hate
found one thing you love doing
failed a class .
cut class .
smoked weed
got into a fight with a class mate
got into a fist fight with a class mate .
did something you were proud of
discovered a new talent
gave the teachers a reason to teach .
proved to yourself that you're an idiot.
embarrassed yourself infront of the class
fell in love with a teacher ..
was in a school play .
tried out for and made a sports team .
were involved in something you'll never forget .
got sent to the office .
painted a picture .
wrote a poem
ran a mile
listened to music you cant stand.
double dipped
skinny-dipped
went to a sleep over.
went camping .
threw a surprise party .
had a party thrown for you
laughed till you cried.
laughed till you almost peed in your pants almost?
slept the whole day
flirted with a boy or boyfriend.
visited a different country .
cooked a gross meal
lost something important to you
got a gift you adore.
realized something new about yourself
went on a diet
tried to gain weight .
tripped over a coffee table
dyed your hair .
came close to losing your life .
lost someone close to you .
went to a party .
drank alcohol .
drank alcohol underage .
got drunk
read a great book(s)
saw a great movie .
pretended to like someone.
saw a movie that made you cry
saw one of your favorite bands/artists live
saw someone famous in person
got sick
passed out on a floor
met new people
played video games
enjoyed this year overall
