If someone were to have asked me yesterday whether i still wished we were together, had him on my mind or even still loved him, my answer would have been a yes. The reason i speak in past tense is because i wonder how long one can feel a certain way for another. The reality is that im tired of all this, its time to let go...i have to. Listening to everyone elses thoughts but his makes it all the more exhausting. These past few weeks have been hell. I have no tears left to shed over what happened between us. Whether you think what i did was right or wrong, i still did it. I made the choice i did and was it worth all this? No. None of that matters now though. Whats done is done and theres no way of replacing the actions taken. None of it adds up. I loved him, would have done absolutely anything to be with him, but yet i betrayed him. Some say "how could you love someone and still do what you did?" The thing is, that girl wasnt me. This, and these words are. I know that nothing i do or say can change things and